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MaryCait Dec 2012
Boy
Get you
I don’t
Burning in the back
Am I

You call
Come
I ensure

You put me
Last on that list,
Busy
From me

I believed

Hopeful
I stayed
Fading
Can only last
prolonged

Soon push
Too far

Fall will I

Catch
You will not
MaryCait Dec 2012
I said to you
Stop the pitter-patter of my chest
**** those butterflies that flitter-flutter
Pluck the wings
Vibrantly colored annexes fall
just like our love

The pulses of you are gone

Only thumps and pumps
In this chest
Of mine.
MaryCait Dec 2012
But wrapped up in
the sounds of
blaring sirens,
radiators bellowing heat,
the emptiness of each room,
the hush of isolation,
I don’t feel welcome.

Thin walls,
Holding me in
Doors locked from the outside world
All lights turned up for false safety
I glare at the blank TV
Sitting,
Unable to make myself move
Hollow of feeling
other than loneliness.

Lay myself down on the mesh of burnt orange and brown
Cloak my arms around my body,
inhale the aroma of a stale apartment
that doesn’t smell like home.
MaryCait Dec 2012
My heart hurts for you today
I wish I would have thought about working it through
Staying with you,
fall back into your love
Fall asleep in your beautiful crooked smile
Feel your warm breath against my skin
Have I made a mistake?
I wish I were still in our love
I wish you were still walking through life with me, holding my hand
The intensity of our love
Now all I feel against my skin… Is tears.

Take me away, please take me away
I hear all around me, you weren’t good for me
You have a bad vibe, you aren’t good
But you were good for me, good to me
You controlled and I fell in it,
still in it
Can’t get away from its slowly tightening grip
It’s wrong,
But I can’t say no.
I want it, I want it to take me over
I want to give up on not having you anymore.
Take me over again.
Steal me into your heart
Only for you to keep, all for yourself.
Never let me out of your darkness
Steal me to where the sun never shined so bright, but where the rain can take over at any moment
Wash me into the deep waves
Gasping for breath
Hardly being able to escape


Why do you still consume my soul?
It hurts, oh it hurts

Wash my soul clean from the darkness
The darkness, you brought upon me
How do I let you go? Where will you go?

You will go live your life, and I will live mine

Entirely separate. Never being one again.
Our connection is gone.
Have I escaped or
Have I made a mistake?
What is the answer.


There is not a one.

— The End —