Fun you said
That’s what you called me
I was fun to you
Fun like a shiny new toy
Like the car you got for your birthday
Like the Xbox you got for Christmas
I was fun
Fun to play with
Fun to play
I didn’t want to be fun
I wanted to be held
I wanted to be told I was beautiful
I wanted to be loved
I wanted to be yours
But no, I was just fun

Do you know what I know?
I don’t think you do
I know that I know things you don’t
Yes, yes I do
How do I know?
How do I know that I know?
Things you don’t know?
Because I am me
And you are you
And you don’t know what I know
Because I don’t know what you know
And because I am not you
And you are not me
So you see
I know that I know things you don’t know
Because you know that you know things I don’t know
Simple really

I’m looking at you but you’re not looking back
Your eyes are on me but they’re not seeing me
Their looking past me and around me
I want them on me, only on me
You smile, you laugh, you talk to me
But your eyes are never on me
Always looking through me
I wonder what it is you see sometimes
Wonder if you’re seeing someone else
Seeing what you wish I was
I wish you could see me
Really see me
Because if you just looked at me
I know I would be everything you want me to be
Please, look at me

O moon you are my mistress, dark you are my light
Death you bring me solace in the middle of the night
Slit, snick, slash, blades against my wrists
I feel the beginnings of the Devil’s fiery kiss
The flames are awaiting me, the spit is burning high
As my life bleeds out of me I smile, the end is nigh
As I dip into the darkness, get swallowed by the black
I pray that God won’t rescue me because I choose this path
I choose the wrath of Hades, the tortures I’ll endure
Because what I am doing, my love did three nights before