We are all just glimmers that lurk in the shadows,
Crawling towards the cries of the Ringmasters.
The Ringmasters direct the course of the show,
We just mere performers have no hope of ever being able
to inflict change in the act.
We are here to perform our most outrageous talents,
and impress the crowds,
But, what does it matter if we do not know how to impress our inner freak?
Sometimes we must travel down the rabbit hole to find out who we really are.

you might try and show me that you care
by saying that you wish you could stop me,
but i wouldnt let you
because i cannot care
i want to be who i am

and i hear you talking behind my back
i cannot care
i am not hurt
i wish you would just stop
it doesnt make a difference
it just makes me angry
and that takes a lot to do.

just let me be.
just let me be.
just let me be.
just leave me be.

I HATE YOU FOR IT
I WANT YOU TO SILENCE
DONT ARGUE
otherwise, i cannot be here.

I waited by the phone patiently.
Maybe it was me.
He worked long hours,
and all I could do was wait.
He never called.
When he came through the front door,
he acted as if I wasn't even there
He wasn't the man I fell in love with.
his Work had consumed his being.

It wasn't organic
It wasn't what we talked about
It wasn't what we planned upon...
This isn't the life I want to live

I am a widow to a living man.

He doesn't notice my pain
He doesn't feel my loneliness.
He doesn't blink when I break down into tears.
He is dead inside
his Work has taken the man who used to love me.

everyone can see it
but why cant you
maybe you are just too afraid to say it
but more than anything in this world i want to be held by you.
i want to look at me and see how i really feel
because even though we tell each other all our secrets
the biggest one that i have been hiding is all about you.

i love you
but i am afraid to tell you
because i know how madly in love you are with her
and i know how madly in love she is with you
i know i cannot have you
so instead i will be your best friend
until she breaks your heart in two
i will stand there and pick up the pieces
we can try and put them together again
i will remind you how funny you can be
you will tell me what a good friend i have always been
and i will say thanks
because you were never meant to love me
but i will always love you.

Today is just one of those days,
he just gets sicker and sicker
he scares me.
he makes me want to cry a bit
But, I know it will be ok
because God is on our side
its not his turn, not yet not now
maybe it should be mine instead.