Home is the loveliest and most marvelous place
yet, at times
It can be the most agonizing and harrowing place to be at

I'm not sad.

It's just that I wake up in the morning and I wish I didn't.
Every time I see a car zooming past, I also see myself in front of it.
I stopped crying because I feel like my tears are apologies for living.
They say it is only a vice but they will never understand how my blackened lungs serves as the only thing that reminds me I am alive just for the very reason that I am still struggling to breathe.
The clock is working but my time is frozen. I took its hands and put them in shackles.
My body feels a little heavy than usual as it fails to lift me out of my troubles.
I read a hundred different worlds from books and wish that I'm in one of them.

I'm all of these things...
                   but I'm not ******* "sad".

Love is like
a cigarette:
temporary,
but worthless
if kept
unlit.

The first time I saw you
I knew right then,
That we were made for each other
That I can tell

After a long wait
Finally we became together
And in my heart I knew
That we were made for each other

Years have passed and we both stepped into a whole new world
But then something changed inside me & you
We might not have admitted it at the time
But I know you felt it too

With all my heart, I have loved you
And until now, we both know that I still do
Yet still I feel more in love with your memory
Than the one staring right in front of me

I know you would never end this
Because of the unending love you always give
But I know you've been hurting
Just as much as I am bleeding
So I have to do the right thing
And end the pain we're both feeling

After that, I thought to myself
If being happy is all I hope you'll be
Then loving you must mean
I really have to set you free