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Nov 2020 · 148
Take Me Instead
Alone at the bar
As I finished the show
I caught his eye and he nodded
‘Hello’
I watched as he drained the last slug from his glass
Ordered another, and muttered
‘Hey Lord, kiss my ***!’

He wasn’t a drunkard or some down and out
Just a good guy who needed to let the pain out
So I packed my guitar
And pulled up a stool
His tears filled his shot glass
Then he said ‘I can see you’re no fool’
But I lost her today
I watched her slip away,  
I cried as she tried, but she couldn’t hang on.
Then she closed her eyes,
And I had to say goodbye
There should be some other way
But I’m too alone and he cried

‘Lord,take me instead
or take me too
There’s nothing much that I ever ask of you
But I’m down on my knees
It’s all  I can do
So take me instead
Or take me too

I don’t believe in a
Higher plan
There’s nobody up there
God’s just a man
And I’m sorry to burden you
But I lost my girl today
And you’ve got a kind face
Then I cried when he told me
Just what he’d said

‘Lord,take me instead
or take me too
There’s nothing much that I ever ask of you
But I’m down on my knees
It’s all  I can do
So take me instead
Or take me too
Take me instead
Or take me too
Nov 2020 · 129
Refugee
You’ve always been so close
Always a call or ride away
But now I cannot reach you
And I wait for your return.

You’ve always been so close
Always been within my grasp
But now you lay by far off shores
And I wait for your return

I wait for your return
Like a refugee waits on kind shelter
I wait for your return
Like a drowning man
Reaching out his hand
And praying for your touch
I know it won’t be long,
But it’s tearing me apart
And I struggle thru every day
And night brings helpless tears
And I wait for your return.
Nov 2020 · 105
Having
You're in my heart and everywhere I am.
You hold my soul by your finger tips.
All I've seen in life has made this man
But there is nothing on earth like the touch of your lips.
We have our demons, you and I
But they'll learn to play together, in the sweet by and by.
To be wrapped in your love
Is to know I belong.
And your peace can be heard in the words of my songs.
Nov 2020 · 106
You waited too long
You waited too long
and love slipped away
I tried to hold on
but you’ve no words to say
The smile that I need
I’ll no longer see


Where are you now?
Are you in love?
Please just come back
This pain is too much
Look in my eyes
And say we’re really thru

I need you tonight
I need you for life
I need you tonight
I need you tonight
Nov 2020 · 438
Alone
You lie so close to me,
Naked, almost touching
Almost. But not quite
My body reacts, in futility
I’ve never been so alone.

I feel your breath on my breast
My heart, just beneath, pounds out your name.
I’ve never been so alone

My eyes see you thru the dim light
I hear sleeper’s voice
Murmured dreams of another life
I’ve never been so alone

I’d give my life, my love.
My tomorrow and all I have.
But I’ve thought myself into the darkest corner
I’ve never been so alone

If love were enough to heal a wound
My love for you could end eternity’s sorrow
It’s strong enough cross oceans of time
I’ve never been so alone.

No crack will let the light get in
No light will escape this velvet covered heart
I’ll give no more to anyone
I’ve never been so alone

The love I have, I’ll keep inside
The wall will be rebuilt
Brick by brick by brick by brick
I’ve never been so alone.

My lifetime’s tears fall like the rain on your window.
Outside your warm embrace
And dismissed.
My heart will homeless wander
I’ve never been so alone.

I kiss your cheek.  
Warm, soft.
Like it ever was.
I die inside and fall away

I’ve never been so alone
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Nov 2020 · 118
You have the chance
You have the chance to have something good in your life
A spice rack of excitement
If you’d only turn away from the grill
Open the jar with the dusty lid
And sprinkle a little of its contents over the life you have now
You may awaken a taste that takes you on a journey
You may replace the lid, put the jar back in its place on the rack and never use it again
But once in s while, when you reach for the same old plate to put your cheese sandwich in
You’ll look up and see the jar
And remember the taste of that journey you took.
Nov 2020 · 85
Naked
Yesterday we were naked
Close to love
Breathless
Needing
Laughing.
Us
Today, I’m alone
Hopeless
Crying
Lost
Me
I want, you
I need. Us
Nov 2020 · 94
Without Warning
Without warning
Pretty much lying on the floor
**** close to closing every door
Mocked and shunned
like no hurt I'd ever felt before
Questioned every choice
And never heard a loving voice
On the street, without a hand
Left to walk a lonely land
Then I looked up from my guitar
All my breath just flew away
I don't know just who you are
But if I lost you I'd be here today
Singing,
take my hand, and don't let go
Hold on tight cos now I know
Your smile has saved this lonely boy
And given back his faith in life
And all he thought he'd lost
It's all I can do to stand up straight
But you are here, and worth the wait
My heart is here in every line
I can't believe it,
but you're right on time.
And we just keep saying I love you
Until the day we  say goodbye
And I place no one above you
But I can’t keep living this lie
Nov 2020 · 68
Moments
Those moments that I think of you,
resting in my arms, stroking my hair, talking over our plans, kissing me tenderly.
Those moments are a constant.
As constant as my undying love for you.
As constant as the North Star.
As constant as the nights that I miss you, when you’re too far for me to reach.
As constant as the truly immense respect I have for all that you are.
And as constant as the pride I feel when you take my hand and whisper your love to me.
Those moments live inside me.
Constantly. Constantly. Constantly.
Nov 2020 · 76
At Last. You.
This love is at once fresh, exciting, heady. Intense
Then ancient, comfortable, calming and familiar
Like it’s come home from a long, tiring journey.
My heart is finally in your safe and living hands
My wait is over
My search has brought me to the rest in your eyes
I can look at myself through them
And know that when you look at me too, we will see only love and laughter.
It’s you, at last
At last,
You.
Nov 2020 · 77
This Is Your Room
This is your room
Even tho you can’t be here
This is your room

I sit in your chair
I wear your dressing gown
I shower every morning
And at night I lay me down
On your bed

This is your room
Even tho you can’t be here.
This is your room.

This is your heart
Even tho you can’t be here
this is your heart

You touch it with your love
I feel your fingertips
I cry cos I’m alone
And long to feel your lips
Touching mine

This is your heart
Even tho you can’t be here
This is your heart

This is your man
Even tho you can’t be here
This is your man

He wonders how you are
And if you think of him
He sits and waits and dreams of you
And keeps his love within

This is your man
Even tho you can’t be here
This is your man

This is your man.
This is your heart.
Here in your room.
Nov 2020 · 72
The grief
There’s a loneliness that’s born of a crowd.
There’s a silent whisper
That screams right out loud
There’s a smile
That makes your soul sing
There’s a kiss in the dark
That makes sense of everything.
When the hurt that feels like it’s been sent the grief
Nov 2020 · 116
There. Forever.
You’ve been there, forever
Waiting for my heart
To finish old agendas
To not be torn apart

You’ve been there forever
Watching over me
Seeing all I’ve been thru
Until your love could set me free

You’ve been there forever
Smiling secretly
Holding back from touching me
Until I found my own release

You’ve been there forever
Pulling me from the abyss
Pushing my heart gently
Till softly came your kiss

You’ve been there forever
I see so clearly now
That my mistakes have led me here
To what I always knew somehow

That in your arms, I’ll die alone
In you’re smile, I’ve found a home
To your heart,I will atone
The peace you gave, will leave me never
The love you gave, I’ll always treasure
For you’ve been there forever
And ever. And ever.
In the  shadow of the street lamps she waits
For passers by, with time to spare
She gives her all outside the gates
A small chandelle in cold despair

2. Her sweet maquereaux is all she has
He looks out for her, it’s him she’ll serve
The nights are cold, but his bed is warm.
It’s all a waif like her deserves

(Chorus)
But when she sings
Monmartrè stands so tall
But cries the tears of one who knows.
That voice so strong
can heal them all
No sorrow or injustice
Can shame La vie en Rose

3. A voice so forged in fire it lights your way
She sings the songs your heart remembers well
Of gypsies and chevaliers,de la lune
Of beatings that in horror she must tell

(Chorus)
But when she sings
Monmartrè stands so tall
But cries the tears of one who knows.
That voice so strong
can heal them all
No sorrow or injustice
Can shame La vie en Rose

(Bridge)
But late at night
The past creeps in
And begs her to come home
The needle tells her ‘Drift away’
And lovers leave her once again alone  

‘Guitar solo’

4. The starving days and nights
She will recall
And love she gave without regret
Then Paris opened up and gave its all
But those Pigallè nights she can’t forget


(Chorus)
But when she sings
Monmatrè stands so tall
But cries the tears of one who knows.
That voice so strong
can heal us all
No sorrow or injustice
Can shame La vie en Rose

‘But where are you
My little one?’
Nov 2020 · 73
I give it up
It’s a ******* sun
Take a look at this fool
Before he fade away
Listen to all the words he has to say.

When you hear the words ‘I love you’
Take a long hard look
Think before you speak
Think before you **** your heart again
Are you well prepared to cry at night?
Or will it take you by surprise?
And are you fine with seeing love for someone else
Shining in your lover’s eyes?
Nov 2020 · 64
Wooords
So the world turns
Without regard
And time flies
And tears apart
One more love
That might have been

Words said,
We can’t take back
We understand
The things we lack
But love’s still there

The closer I get to all I need
The more it slips away
But my heart will never listen
To what my head might say
And when it asked  me what did I do wrong
To make you turn away
I couldn’t speak
Nov 2020 · 66
I Give It Up
So I give it up
Just once more
I close my eyes
And open the door
I drop my guard
Let her in
Now I’m on my knees
It’s a ******* sun
Take a look at this fool
Before he fade away
Listen to all the words he has to say.

When you hear the words ‘I love you’
Take a long hard look
Think before you speak
Think before you **** your heart again
Are you well prepared to cry at night?
Or will it take you by surprise?
And are you fine with seeing love for someone else
Shining in your lover’s eyes?
Nov 2020 · 60
She Made Me Smile
She’s back from somewhere
I ain’t gonna ask the place
Cos it’s non of my beeswax
It ain’t left no marks on her sweet face

It’s like time stood still from the day we last met
She’s older and wiser maybe and yet
Tho I know I’ve ripped the heart right out of me
And carved these lines for all to see
She can still see the soul in me
That I haven’t had chance to get to yet
She could save me if she had a mind to
She could turn it all around if her heart was set in me
I dare not ask
Or even
Pray
All I know
Is that today
She made me smile
Nov 2020 · 66
The writer
She writes and reads and steals
My heart bursts balloon like
My head reels
Perfect eyes cast downward towards page and screen
Lips mouth unknown words
As unknown as a name
As a kiss
As a life past or yet to come.
Nov 2020 · 74
Safe In My Heart
With nothing left to say
I must walk away
But every step I take
It cuts like a knife
I’ll never hear my name
On your lips again
I’m not forever in your heart

And tho i tried so hard to keep you close to me
I couldn’t make you stay
You just wouldn’t fall
So I must start again in the morning rain
But I’ll keep you safe in my heart

You were the one
Who made me feel
Like every dream I’d ever had
Was surely coming true
But every day
You backed away
Till my arms just couldn’t reach you

But I recall a time
With your hand in mine
And your eyes like wine
Went straight to my head
Trembling close to you
My shirt covered you
As I clung to you
In an unmade bed

But now the city lights
And the carefree nights
They have taken you
And made you their own
And I must watch you dance
To another’s tune
But I’ll keep you safe in my heart

You were the one
Who made me feel
Like every dream I’d ever had
Was surely coming true
But every day
You backed away
Till my arms just couldn’t reach you


With nothing left to say
I must walk away
But every step I take
It cuts like a knife
I’ll never hear my name
On your lips again
I’m not forever in your heart

And on that day of days
When I am asked to say
What was the role you played
And what was her part
I’ll close my eyes and know
I didn’t let you go
I always kept you
Safe in my heart.
My love I’ve kept you
Safe in my heart
Nov 2020 · 67
Prayer
There’s a small boy sitting all alone somewhere
Staring into space
He can’t understand what you’re doing to his world
But he wants you to go away

There’s a young girl lying in a field somewhere
In her eyes a look of dismay
She’s got a child and another one due
But their daddy died today

Look around yourself
See what you have done

Take a little time out
Open your eyes for me
There ain’t much left of your little world
But it doesn’t have to be
We can change, we can change
Let me show you how
Let a little love into your little world
But for **** sake do it now!

There’s a young man dying in road somewhere
For a cause he don’t believe
His wife and child cry blameless tears
But who’s gonna see him bleed.


Look around yourself
See what you have done

Take a little time out
Open your eyes for me
There ain’t much left of your little world
But it doesn’t have to be
We can change, we can change
Let me show you how
Let a little love into your little world
But for **** sake do it now!

There’s an old man sitting at a desk somewhere
In his hands the fate of the world
He can’t even bend to tie his shoes
But millions obey his word


Look around yourself
See what you’ve become

Take a little time out
Open your eyes for me
There ain’t much left of your little world
But it doesn’t have to be
We can change, we can change
Let me show you how
Let a little love into your little world
But for **** sake do it now!
Let a little love into your little world
But for **** sake do it now!
Let a little love into your little world
But for your sake
Do it now!
Nov 2020 · 55
Me
Me
I’ve dipped my toes in every stream
I’ve run thru every river
And swum in every sea
I’ve finally come to realise
The only one who’s gut my back
The only one who’ll look out for me.
The one I can rely upon.
Has always been,
Has only ever been.
Me.
Nov 2020 · 72
Love Revolution
Lonely nights with just your picture
Broken words that can’t be heard
Down we fall into a day dream

Can you really feel my heartbeat
The drum of Liberty
Run with me thru your back streets
This revolution sets us free

Lonely heartbeats will not falter
Shed  no tears for us
Love will last tho cannons thunder
Raise the banner
Start the fight
The revolution of love

The barricades will rise before us
We’ll just fly above
And all the doubters fade away


Can you really feel my heartbeat
The drum of Liberty
Run with me thru your back streets
This revolution sets us free

Lonely heartbeats will not falter
Shed  no tears for us
Live will last tho cannons thunder
Raise the banner
Start the fight
The revolution of love
Nov 2020 · 76
Love and Desire
Love and desire walk hand in hand.
They cannot be parted, one from the other.
My love for you, has no starting point.
It will have no end.
My desire for you, runs thru my soul like a seam. To remove it would break me.
All the things you are, make my love and desire into something that is more than I am.
It’s more than a moment in time. It is at once time itself and timeless. There will never be a second when I don’t love you with an unparalleled desire, and desire you with the most tender love.
Nov 2020 · 55
Gardening
Let me be frank from the outset
I know nothing about roses
Furthermore I despise gardening
But
If we start from the premise that to pre suppose only s gardener could grow a rose
Then by the same token
Only a musician could make music
A fact overthrown by a child’s laugh
And if only a bath maker could run a bath
Then only you could put a smile on the mouth of a river
And Leonard’s is the only voice
Amid the noiseless bustle
And too many coffees and too little sleep
The night of song that still goes on
Abd faces and voices that slammed into my soul
On the steps of the ‘cur
Dancing eyes that made an ancient heart jitterbug in that club, above a bordello

At 7 we finally called it a day
But sleepless and beating, awake we lay
Not mine forever, but for now
And now is good enough and always on time somehow
‘You’ll be back’ she said
‘Besides, there’s songs to finish, and some to start.
And that thing to do, that I promised you’

I smiled
Knew the truth
Love would bring, it’s guillotine
Ain’t no cure for that
And Leonard’s is the only voice.
Nov 2020 · 66
Hope
The hardest part of loving you,
is not losing you,
it’s the hope that you’ll come back
Nov 2020 · 59
March. 2020
It was March 2020 ...
The streets were empty, the shops closed, people couldn't get out.
But spring did not know, and the flowers began to bloom, the sun shone, the birds sang, the swallows would soon arrive, the sky was blue, the morning arrived early.
It was March 2020 ...
Young people had to study online, and find occupations at home, people could no longer go shopping, or go to the hairdresser. Soon there would be no more room in hospitals, and people continued to get sick.
But spring did not know, the time to go to the garden arrived, the grass greened.
It was March 2020 ...
People have been put in lockdown. to protect grandparents, families and children. No more meetings or meals, family celebrations. The fear became real and the days were therefore similar.
But spring did not know, apples, cherry trees and others bloomed, the leaves grew.
People started reading, playing with their families, learning a language, singing on the balcony inviting neighbors to do the same, being supportive and focusing on other values.
People realized the importance of health, of suffering, of this world that had stopped, of the economy that has plummeted.
But spring didn't know. the flowers gave way to the fruit, the birds made their nest, the swallows had arrived.

Then the day of liberation came, people found out on TV, the virus had lost, people took to the streets, sang, cried, kissed their neighbors, without masks or gloves.

And that's when summer came, because spring didn't know. He continued to be there despite everything, despite the virus, fear and death. Because spring didn't know, he taught people the power of life.

Everything's gonna be fine, stay home, protect yourself, and enjoy life.
Nov 2020 · 63
It Fades
It fades
Slowly at first
Then, all of a sudden.
Contact remains
But it’s sparse
Unfeeling.
Dying.
The list of other’s more important, grows.
You become an afterthought.
Then the inevitable end.
It’s foreseen. But it hurts like hell.
And you know it always will.
Nov 2020 · 56
More words
We could have conquered the world
Now I can’t  even conquer the day
I’ll believe in you till the day I die
I’ll never let you sit alone and wonder why
I’ll never give my love away
We could have conquered the world
Now I can’t even conquer the day
You’ve got me beat
I’m dead inside but somehow on my feet
I’ve never loved so hard
It’s never taken every thing I have
Nov 2020 · 58
Words
Fragility
I’d change everything about me
And nothing about you

Dancing on the edge of a volcano

Grief is just love with no one to give it to

There’s nothing in the world that could take away the chain of love you gave me.
It’s wrapped around my wrist and wrapped around my heart
It stands for the unbroken love I have for you
And a wish that we will never be apart.
Nov 2020 · 77
I’ll Wait
You wrote to tell me I should wait for you
I began to stumble as I broke in two
How can I go on and live my life
There’s notHing for me if I can’t have you

So I’ll wait  
For you
I’ll wait
For you

You need some time alone to figure out
What your heart needs or can do without
My heart needs one thing.
This I know
But you won’t here me even if I shout

So I’ll wait
For you
I’ll wait
For you

For all the kisses that I know are mine
I’ll wait for the love light time
In the morning before the dawn
I know our passion will go
On and on and on and on.......

I’ll wait for you for a thousand days
Tho there my be a heavy price to pay
When lonely people with no choice but tears
Will surely find out there’s no other way
Nov 2020 · 58
In Paris
I once said ‘in every bar and restaurant in Paris, there are at least a dozen women I would marry’
I was wrong
So ******* wrong
Nov 2020 · 72
I Know Why
I know why I waited
Know why I've been blue
I've been waiting each day
For someone exactly like you
Why should I spend some money
On a show or two
When nobody sings these love songs
Exactly like you
You make me feel so grand
I wanna give this world to you
You make me understand
These foolish little dreams I'm dreaming
And schemes I'm scheming
Now I know why my mama
She taught me to be true
She knew just around the corner
Was somebody like you
You make me feel so grand
I wanna give this world to you
Baby you make me understand
These foolish little dreams I'm dreaming
And schemes I'm scheming
Now I know why my mama
She taught me to be true
She knew just around the corner
Yes she knew just around the corner
Was somebody like you
Nov 2020 · 61
Cafè
I held the door for her
She thanked me with her eyes
And emptied the bin
Nov 2020 · 127
I Couldn’t Speak
Shining like a new star
Takes my breath away
All the the things that you are
Hit my heart today
But when you asked me
What I'm thinking
Then turned your head and smiled
I couldn't speak
I couldn't speak
I couldn't speak
I couldn't speak
There's magic in your presence
And love around your soul
A tender way of laughing
Your eyes have made me whole
But when you laid your head on my arm
And gently took my hand
I couldn't speak
I couldn't speak
I couldn't speak
I couldn't speak
Tomorrow is brand new day
And you're still at my side
So find the words inside my heart
And watch as they take flight
Who knows where we're going
Time alone can tell
There's nothing ever planned in life
I realise so well
But when I watched you walk away
There was so much left to say.
But,
I couldn't speak
I couldn't speak
I couldn't speak
I couldn't speak
Nov 2020 · 64
Heading Out
Thoughts of her drifting
Like a feather on the breeze
All the words designed to hurt that brought me to my knees
Tho she’ll never change
And she’ll always bring me down
I dreamt about her every night
And a way to leave this town

So I’m heading out
It’s over now for sure
Heading out
Found my hat and found the door
I’m heading out
Pulling up my roots
Heading out
Pulling on my boots

Never tried to hurt her
And I never did her wrong
But still she runs me thru most nights in the words of every song
My heart will still be breaking as my final breath escapes
My hands will still be shaking
Waving goodbye to this place

So I’m heading out
It’s over now for sure
Heading out
Found my hat and found the door
I’m heading out
Pulling up my roots
Heading out
Pulling on my boots

Bridge
You never left this fractured heart
It never skipped a beat
But I’ll carry your smile all the while with me

Whistle solo

So I’m heading out
It’s over now for sure
Heading out
Found my hat and found the door
I’m heading out
Pulling up my roots
Heading out
Pulling on my boots
Nov 2020 · 78
Past Adrift
I’ve given and I’ve taken love
A little more than I deserved
I’d like to think I gave a lot
And took less than I was worth
My book of life is peppered with the tears of those I’ve wronged
But still I feel I’ve paid a due or two
For the right to sing some songs

I was blessed with a voice that gleaned a fee
Not so much to break a bank or make a rich man out of me
And yet I’ve always managed
By means,mostly fair
And pulled it off with seeming ease and a certain ‘savoire faire’

But I stand before you
Past adrift
And heart on full display
My voice, my fame, my future wealth
I’d gladly give away
For your heart of love
To hold as mine
Until the choir sang ‘old Lang sine’
And arms of faith and trust and hope
would fasten me like tender rope
A captive of your gaoler’s key
In happy servitude I’d be.
Nov 2020 · 57
The Fire In Her Eyes
ire In Her Eyes
She lives by the seaside
It’s good for her smile
She swims in the ocean
And walks for a mile.

She’s into her jazz and
Tequila and lime
She talks like a lady
She could ya e been mine

But, she’s got her thing
And I’ve got the other
So we sit and we chat just like
Sister and brother
And deep in her eyes there’s a fire
And I’ve got my stuff
But she’s got a small place
So we, sit and we chat
And I think about about her face
And deep in her eyes, there’s a fire

She’s not big on romance
It just leaves her cold
She’s been hurt too often
Or so I’ve been told.

But she’s witty and pleasant
And when she comes around
The boys all flock round her
To take her to town

And she’s got her life
And I’ve got mine
A few years between us but ‘hey, that’s just time’
And deep in her eyes there’s a fire
I’ve got the road and she’s got the sea
And we’ve traveled our paths but separately
And deep in her eyes there’s a fire

Then one day I noticed
A tear in her eye
She said she was leaving
I didn’t ask why.

I knew something drive her
I thought it was me
Then I saw a small letter
She’s left carefully
It said ‘Darling I love you, and that’s why I’m gone.
It’s taken me over  
And I can’t go on.
You see, you are the fire in my eyes’

I cried for a long time
Once more the fool
It was right there before me
And I know that you say that,
I should have chased her
And begged her to stay
I know the reason
That she went away.
Deep in her eyes there’s a fire
Deep in her eyes there’s a fire.
Nov 2020 · 64
Empty Arms
I reach for you.
In morning’s light.
The ache inside, that tears my heart, I cannot fight.
The day begins.
As all days must.
Each one the same, I lose again and turn to dust

empty arms.

These tears will dry.
The sun will shine.
I’ll make it thru another day and I’ll be fine.
But now and then.
When someone laughs.
I’ll picture us, when you were mine.
In photographs

Empty arms
But oh these empty arms.
Nov 2020 · 67
Double Cross
Double Cross
When you've double crossed your own heart
When it's only your hand that tore your soul apart
How can you ask for sympathy?
How could the world agree?
When my own worst enemy is the face in the mirror that's
Screaming back at me.
There's no fool like an old fool
Except for the fool who never seems
To learn
That to take true love for granted
Is to watch your future burn.
So light a cigarette and pull yourself a chair
And look closely at a man
Lost in dark despair
Let the best love slip so he did
Didn't think to say
'Baby, I'm not looking after you
Cant you baby Please just lead the way?'
Nov 2020 · 59
Coffee Shop
Minutes tick away on the coffee shop clock
Cup number 4 starts to bite like  a dog needing attention
The leaves on the tree fall to the sound of ambient chill
My heart follows suit
  
I’m silent in the bustle
Holding back all I feel
Tho I’m on the edge
I smile at the dogs yapping at a new customer

It’s busy. Too busy for the way I feel
I want to scream but know I won’t
I’m too much of a coward to cope with that kind of attention
So I carry on dying.
Quietly.
Staring at my coffee as it gets colder.
My heart follows suit
Nov 2020 · 55
Untitled yet
Not a second of my day passes
without a thought of you
Not a breeze that strokes my cheek, doesn’t whisper your name  
Not a sunset do I see that doesn’t make yearn for the warmth of your arms
Not a song of love do I hear that doesn’t make my heart sing for you
Nov 2020 · 55
Beth
The faintest thought of you
The merest touch of your hand
The slightest hint of your perfume
In my lonely room
These things I crave

My eyes close and we’re locked in our old embrace
I feel your breath, urgent and sweet
I stroke you hair and neck
As my blood pounds
Your kiss is tender once again, deep and soft  leaving me breathless and weeping

I open my eyes and gaze thru the tears at your lonely room
Your flowers. My guitar.
Our bed.
And I die a thousand deaths for the want of you.
Nov 2020 · 60
Another Sad Love Song
I know that you don’t wanna hear
Another sad sad love song
So I’ll try to keep my tears to myself
And I’ll sing with pride ‘bout the times I’ve cried
And shoulder my guitar
And when I’m done, I’ll pack away and find another bar.

For too long now she’s been too strong
But I just couldn’t see
That all while my foolish pride wasn’t only hurting me.
Then today it all got said
And here I am alone.
And I don’t feel much like anything
but I’m so far away from home


I know that you don’t wanna hear
Another sad sad love song
So I’ll try to keep my tears to myself
And I’ll sing with pride ‘bout the times I’ve cried
And shoulder my guitar
And when I’m finished, I’ll pack away and find another bar

It wasn’t easy from the start
Folks wouldn’t let us be
But we clung on to each other’s love
made it thru eventually
But the things that I just wouldn’t say
Kept hurting and got in the way
And now I lie alone again
Regretting every day

I know that you don’t wanna hear
Another sad sad love song
So I’ll try to keep my tears to myself
And I’ll sing with pride ‘bout the times I’ve cried
And shoulder my guitar
And when I’m finished, I’ll pack away and find another bar

So listen to now to what I say
Don’t let good love grow cold
Don’t find yourself alone like
me
Let nothing stay untold
I lost the best thing I’d ever found
But my story’s nothing new
Hold on to her with all your might
And she won’t walk away from you


I know that you don’t wanna hear
Another sad sad love song
So I’ll try to keep my tears to myself
And I’ll sing with pride ‘bout the times I’ve cried
And shoulder my guitar
And when I’m finished, I’ll pack away and find another bar
Nov 2020 · 70
Untitled again
Another dawn and you’re not home
I walked the streets all night
And found myself alone
The words I said have sent you
Far away
And tho I crumble I must face a brand new day
I’d give my life
To hold you once again.

Where are you now?
Are you in love?
Please just come back
This pain is too much
Look in my eyes
And say we’re really thru
Nov 2020 · 48
Him
Him
And she imagined him.
On distant shores
Imagining her
Behind closed doors
Her finger circled round and round
Her passion rose without a sound
Until she sighed and hit the ground
Her river flowed and ebbed away
And then one thing
She heard him say.
‘Sleep softly. Dream of me.
And then your face again I’ll see’
Nov 2020 · 43
Nothing
And now, nothing
Silence born of bitterness
Heart beats. Pointlessly
Just to keep a man alive
Mind whirling straining at the leash
Fingers drumming
Aching for release
Void and null
An ex kind of life
Staring at the future
Balanced on a knife
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