Double Cross
When you've double crossed your own heart
When it's only your hand that tore your soul apart
How can you ask for sympathy?
How could the world agree?
When my own worst enemy is the face in the mirror that's
Screaming back at me.
There's no fool like an old fool
Except for the fool who never seems
To learn
That to take true love for granted
Is to watch your future burn.
So light a cigarette and pull yourself a chair
And look closely at a man
Lost in dark despair
Let the best love slip so he did
Didn't think to say
'Baby, I'm not looking after you
Cant you baby Please just lead the way?'

Minutes tick away on the coffee shop clock
Cup number 4 starts to bite like  a dog needing attention
The leaves on the tree fall to the sound of ambient chill
My heart follows suit
  
I’m silent in the bustle
Holding back all I feel
Tho I’m on the edge
I smile at the dogs yapping at a new customer

It’s busy. Too busy for the way I feel
I want to scream but know I won’t
I’m too much of a coward to cope with that kind of attention
So I carry on dying.
Quietly.
Staring at my coffee as it gets colder.
My heart follows suit

Not a second of my day passes
without a thought of you
Not a breeze that strokes my cheek, doesn’t whisper your name  
Not a sunset do I see that doesn’t make yearn for the warmth of your arms
Not a song of love do I hear that doesn’t make my heart sing for you

The faintest thought of you
The merest touch of your hand
The slightest hint of your perfume
In my lonely room
These things I crave

My eyes close and we’re locked in our old embrace
I feel your breath, urgent and sweet
I stroke you hair and neck
As my blood pounds
Your kiss is tender once again, deep and soft  leaving me breathless and weeping

I open my eyes and gaze thru the tears at your lonely room
Your flowers. My guitar.
Our bed.
And I die a thousand deaths for the want of you.

I know that you don’t wanna hear
Another sad sad love song
So I’ll try to keep my tears to myself
And I’ll sing with pride ‘bout the times I’ve cried
And shoulder my guitar
And when I’m done, I’ll pack away and find another bar.

For too long now she’s been too strong
But I just couldn’t see
That all while my foolish pride wasn’t only hurting me.
Then today it all got said
And here I am alone.
And I don’t feel much like anything
but I’m so far away from home


I know that you don’t wanna hear
Another sad sad love song
So I’ll try to keep my tears to myself
And I’ll sing with pride ‘bout the times I’ve cried
And shoulder my guitar
And when I’m finished, I’ll pack away and find another bar

It wasn’t easy from the start
Folks wouldn’t let us be
But we clung on to each other’s love
made it thru eventually
But the things that I just wouldn’t say
Kept hurting and got in the way
And now I lie alone again
Regretting every day

I know that you don’t wanna hear
Another sad sad love song
So I’ll try to keep my tears to myself
And I’ll sing with pride ‘bout the times I’ve cried
And shoulder my guitar
And when I’m finished, I’ll pack away and find another bar

So listen to now to what I say
Don’t let good love grow cold
Don’t find yourself alone like
me
Let nothing stay untold
I lost the best thing I’d ever found
But my story’s nothing new
Hold on to her with all your might
And she won’t walk away from you


I know that you don’t wanna hear
Another sad sad love song
So I’ll try to keep my tears to myself
And I’ll sing with pride ‘bout the times I’ve cried
And shoulder my guitar
And when I’m finished, I’ll pack away and find another bar

Another dawn and you’re not home
I walked the streets all night
And found myself alone
The words I said have sent you
Far away
And tho I crumble I must face a brand new day
I’d give my life
To hold you once again.

Where are you now?
Are you in love?
Please just come back
This pain is too much
Look in my eyes
And say we’re really thru

And she imagined him.
On distant shores
Imagining her
Behind closed doors
Her finger circled round and round
Her passion rose without a sound
Until she sighed and hit the ground
Her river flowed and ebbed away
And then one thing
She heard him say.
‘Sleep softly. Dream of me.
And then your face again I’ll see’