Plastic Sound 01/01/13

He left me a message
That I deleted anyways
She had always feared
That he would go astray

He never did anything
That’s what she liked about him
But he never did anything
That’s what the problem was

He always kept a distance
That she could only see from afar
He always had her on his mind
But only at the bottom of the jar.

You had the greatest

Absolutely awesome

Most incredibly ingenius

Idea in the entire world,






And it fell through every time?

Before the frilly speeches begin
Before the readily prepared tears fall,
Before everyone gets into that mood of melancholy,
Let me be the one to tell you.

It was never supposed to be this way.

I never meant for this
To happen to you.
Ever.
Sorry will most definitely

Not cover it this time.
And I did not accept
The responsibility
I know that.

But the truth is,
You weren’t ready
And neither was I
Our lives would not

Have gotten much farther
Than merely the beginning.
And we would have lived
Miserably in Limbo.

Where you are now.

I was fine
Until she asked
If I wanted you to
Come back some other time.

And that tore me to pieces

I promise you,
I can and will
Give you a better opportunity
When I am able to

We both will.
I promise you
Nothing less than that.
I just wish I knew your name.

I like your thoughts
If I could kiss your words I would.
I love who you are.
But if I ever let you know
If you ever find out,
I immediately begin to run.

Away. Farther away

Just enough that you forget
What it was originally about
Don't worry, I will return
But only if everything ended
Where I left you off.

Where it all began.

A clean, but old and worn, slate.
The dance that only I know how to do
And you will never be able to learn.
The reason I liked you first of all.

And so, it begins once more.

I’m writing to you because
I don’t know what else to do.
It’s been a while since we’ve had a
heart-to-higher power talk.
I know.

I’m actually ashamed I never came to you sooner.
I tried to make the call,
I’ve just been so busy lately.
Well. Maybe the busy part isn’t
All that true.

But I am glad you could make time
For me to explain all of this
It really helps that you can listen
Without judging me the way
The rest of us do.

I just feel so lost in the dark,
All the time, it seems.
I need help and
You’re the only one I can turn to.
I don’t understand any of it.

Will everything go back to normal?
Can I get through with success?
What if I fail?
What if something goes wrong?
What would your Son do?
What should I do?

I know I need to give you
Some time to answer
And it may not even be the one I want.
But I know what’s right.
After all, you do work
In mysterious ways.

Well, before I sign off,
I just wanted to say
Thanks for being there.
Always.

Pictures.

Photographs.

What I don’t understand

Is why we never took any together.

I took some of you.

Hundreds of you.

But you never wanted to

See my 2D face on a rainy day

Away from home. Did you?

What I don’t understand is that

I am nothing like the others

You have had before.

I am above and beyond

What any person could want

In another simple human being.

But that isn’t what you wanted.

Is it?

Let’s see.

All of your past experiences

Have been somewhat the same.

Exactly the same, in fact.

They all Spoke the same.

Acted out the same.

Treated you the same.

And when you came running back

To me for advice

You ran into my arms

And crawled up onto

My chest to make the

Pain go away. Again.

But when it was my turn

To fill in those A typical shoes

You gave them all to wear,

You couldn’t be unhappier.

I’m not what you expected,

Was I?

Even though we’d known each other

For years on end

Back to back

Shoulder to shoulder

And you still never

Figured me out.

Fair enough.

I thought I knew you too.

But hey, who’s fooling who now?

I don’t know.

You tell me.

I just wish you

Would have told me sooner.