Nothing could describe this moment.
The majestic look in your eyes.
I can't break the stare.
My heart sinks in my chest.
Breath heavy on my neck.
Whispering sweet words in my ear.
You selfless angel.
Touching me with the tips of your wings.
Tempting me with your power.
Haunting me with my sins.
My lips quiver.
Hands shaking.
Serenity filling my soul.
Illuminating me for eternity.

No matter what I ******* do.
All I see is you.
Everywhere I go and everything I see.
You remain inside of me.
Thoughts and memories hoping to fade.
Remain just like it was yesterday.
To just hold you one last time.
Feel your gentle lips on mine.
My head wrapped in your alluring grasp.
Forever was always an ignorant lie.
One deceitful boy took my heart away.
I am trapped in this constant agony.
Replay in my head.
Until the day I am dead.

Bottle in my mouth
Whisky slides down
Sweet taste of shut up
Insides screaming
My heart is aching
Hold in your pain
Push away your tears
Look in the mirror
All you see
Disgusting
Deceitful
Liar
Eating you alive
Insecurities
Nightmares
Broken Dreams
Cut your arms
Screams echoing across the street
Flash backs of where you went wrong
All those regrets
Pain seeping from your mind
The man who ***** you
Who beat you
Who robbed you of your innocence
*******, you scream
*******
Louder
Deeper
The color red
Flowing like a river
Body numb
Breathing Slows
Ambulance
Emergency room
Guess who is your first visitor
*******

Walking outside.
Cold surrounds my body.
Covering me like a blanket.
Not a warm welcome.
a cold shove .
Shuttering through my skin.
So beautiful .
Yet so miserable.
So white.
Yet so black.
So pure.
Yet so corrupt.
These white flakes of snow.
freezing me to the soul.

Drip
Goes the raining of tears
Streaming down my face
Piercing the ground like grenades
Drip
Goes the water from my sink
as I sit in my bathroom floor
Staring hopelessly at the bare wall
Drip
Goes the drops of  blood
Razor in hand while red paints my arms
I just want to shut everyone out
Drop
Goes my body to the tile
My light shuts off
Dead carcass left behind

The aroma of your cologne
The daylight stinging my eye lids
Arising to glance at your deep brown eyes
I get lost in them for hours
Your finger tips on my skin
Our lips lightly brush
Sweet taste of my cigarette
Laying in endless bliss