Bring summer back- full of warm running miles
and natural smiles
Bring our love home- where we don’t live in debt,
but somehow regret
Pack for last time- Where we rerun it all
Where we rise and do not fall
The golden mask,
covers your face
I'm blind in your embrace
Foolish to doubt,
yourself and the lies
focus on the tone in your eyes

We’re living in retrospect
Drowning in fire- burning in ice- the past has a price
We’re dancing in circles- Running through fear-
Until we get through the years with a myriad of tears
We refuse to respect
we cannot connect
until there’s nothing left to expect
We run but can’t hide,
We're living in retrospect.
I'm living in retrospect.

I used to lavish the heat
& Cursed the coming of fall
When winter was taking her seat
& Life slowed to a crawl

But now I’ve seen enough of hate
That the first snow I gladly await
For the winter to finally sedate
& Leave me in an unfeeling state

Now I know, nearly two years later
I won't forget till forgot is forever.
Reduced to a child within your presence
A mere adolescent without will or discretion.
But brought to tears not yet have I
yet crying incessantly inside I hide.
For what is a dream with no hint of reality?
What is a fight with no reason for hostility?
A waste of time and imagination, of blood
and courage, yet more aggravations.
Go tell a fighter in the midst of his rage,
educate a dreamer in the midst of his dream;
I am the dreamer in the middle of my life
in my conscious reality I rage I strive.
In my wakeless delusions I long for you,
in my futile reality I dream it's true.
Desperately drowning because drowning's my fate
hopelessly yearning because drowning's no fate.

You're on a mission
A mission of misery
I can see you hurting but you won't admit
I can feel you want to but you won't let it
You don’t know how
You can't retry
Your heart is closed
You're an alibi
You were not there
You missed our moment
You looked away
You looked there to stay