as she settled into her new place
piecing together everything she thought she needed
she came to the realization that she was lonely
so very lonely.
she searched for someone
anyone. anyone to be by her side
anyone who wanted to be her friend
he didn’t want what she wanted
but they both slowly fell in love
he said it first
she said it again and again
he repeated it for her every time

they went on adventures
they planned the impossible
well it wasn’t really completely impossible, but just for them at that specific moment in time
they were in love and wanted to be alone together
but they had to wait for it
they had to work hard for it
they wanted it so bad

when they argued, they knew how to mend everything
they knew what to do
she would explain her side
he would explain his side
they would meet in the middle
she thought she wasn’t enough
he thought he wasn’t enough
they met in the middle
they would always meet in the middle
that’s what made them perfect for each other
when they held hands, it just felt right
their bodies were meant to embrace each other, for they were each others missing puzzle pieces

but responsibility kept them apart
it took him away from her
she wasn’t complete without him
but they pushed forward together, apart
they managed at first
it was hard. it was really hard.
but love kept them together
until he wanted to focus on himself
he wanted to become a better person
she wanted to as well
so they grew up without each other

she still cries
she doesn’t know how he’s doing
she doesn’t know if he had a good day or not
she doesn’t know if he ate already
she misses him
she still loves him
but that’s just how it is
she’ll manage
he will too

at least she hopes he does.

push me in
pull me out
we just go back and forth
like the tides
blue everywhere
and then complete darkness
pushed all the way down below
because of the tides

i have not written for so long
for so so long
i have remained dead for so many months
i feel as if the world hates me
but in reality
i hate the world
i hate what it has done to me
i hate what it has given me
i hate what it has become
this is why i believe that
the world has turned and left me here

I’m a person with a wide taste in music
you know that
but there are songs that get on my nerves
and some that I can listen to
over and over again
and not get sick of them
you’re the reason behind those songs
you are what runs through my head
all the time
and I never get tired of you
I want you in my head
I want you running through my head
because I love you
those songs
every one reminds me of you
no matter what you do to me
what keeps me away from you
you’ll always be running through my head

and hopelessness
wraps itself around
my not so small frame
and when it does
it is like a boa constrictor
squeezing hard enough
to rupture my blood pressure
hopelessness is merciless when it comes to me

but sometimes
I am hopelessness
upon myself do I become a boa constrictor
upon myself do I become merciless
this is when I think that no one
not a single soul
can come and save me
except for one

i thought being busy
would be good for me
instead
it drains me
wrings me out and hangs me to dry
on a hot sunny day
and then comes along stress
to think i could handle it
words cannot express
how wrong i was

i see both sides like chanel


it's really all

but it's stealth

possiamo scappare insieme?
la tua mano nella mia, come un sogno
sì, potremmo avere i nostri argomenti
ma ciò non significa che non ti amo
ti amo così tanto mio tesoro
la mia vita senza di te è incolore
così quando sei venuto
sono stato completamente portato via
il mio cuore è tuo, amore mio
la mia felicità sei tu
l'** trovato in te
il mio amore la mia vita
grazie per essere entrato nella mia vita
non sai quanto sei importante per me

wow! she's alive!
up and writing
barely surviving
sure i can still process things
but that doesn't mean i'm not dying
slowly
slowly makes everything worse
when things go slowly for you
all you want to do is press fast forward
so things will end
but then you realize
all the stuff you want to do
all the things you want to accomplish
you don't want to skip that
during times like this i don't want to press fast forward
i want to live in the moment
but that doesn't mean i's slowly dying
slowly
like the snail in your front yard
imagine how long it will take him to reach his destination
imagine how long it will take me to reach my destination
"can we just stop for a second?
i want to take this in"
she said as the sun set
he wanted it to go by quicker
but little did he know
he was always the one in a rush
while she took and spent every second she had
on things she loved to do
she loved to read
she loved to write
she loved to sing and paint
she loved to watch the sun set
she loved to be with him
but all he wanted to do is think about the future
will he graduate college?
will he get a good job?
what will happen to him?
that's all he ever thought about
until she left him
and she didn't look back
because he was still busy looking forward
and she
looking down at her brown worn out boots
took a step forward
wow! she lives
there she goes
she will travel to the ends of the earth
spending every second she has
living in the moment
not looking back or forward