Lately things just ain't been going right
Loving words tumble down into a raging fight
And, every time you call I feel afraid to know
Who I’ll find, cause you ain't been you for quite some time

I can’t tell if you’ve been seeing it
The cloudy conversations lingering round something
We just cant get to
And I’d be so lost, so lost without you
But wandering through your tangled woods
Keeps taking me further from you

So should we let it go, and let it breathe
Hope we come back to find each other and
Hope the love we have is something gold
Or should we, just move on and just forget
Save happy memories from turning to regrets
We still haven’t found it yet

The nights without you are so lonely
But the days when you’re around have turned to ash
The silence round us screaming, the quite tension reeling
And I never get that feeling that you see me anymore

Each word you say quickly turns into a dart
And the love bleeds out of every hole you’ve stuck inside my heart
Like a circus act, with my back against the wall
While you throw all the knives and don’t care where they fall

I want to die fighting for this
I want to scream before I let this free
But all the fighting, endless silence
Has drained the life right out of me

So you tell me

Should we let it go, and let it breathe
Hope we come back to find each other and
Hope the love we have is something gold
Or should we, just move on and just forget
Save happy memories from turning to regrets
We still haven’t found it yet

It happens each morning when I wake up near you
And I think, you are, the most beautiful dream I wake up to
You drink your coffee with sugar, and you love to laugh in the morning
And I am hopelessly swept away by your smile

My feet fly off the ground listening to you
Ideas bout how to make the world spin round
And all I think of, is how much I love having you around

This story began when you ran into me
I never believed how beautiful this could be
I’ll never leave the pages upon which we stand
Cause with you, I’d go anywhere, hand in hand

I cant believe those very first days, when you were playing it so cool
And I was always a little shy
That 5 years from now we’d go on together and
Keep writing the pages of our life

Each day, each chapter, the happy ever after
Feels so real, with you near to me

This story began when you ran into me
I never believed how beautiful this could be
I’ll never leave the pages upon which we stand
Cause with you, I’d go anywhere, hand in hand

I can’t imagine all the days I spent not knowing you
All the times my heart did break
But you came in, and the story begins
And you still take my breath away

From now and the beginning, feels like it will never end
And were still holding on to it hand in hand

This story began when you ran into me
I never believed how beautiful this could be
I’ll never leave the pages upon which we stand
Cause with you, I’d go anywhere, hand in hand

Life, oh life. What is this life? But
A flickering ember from a flame
So brave the wind that caught the coal
To light my heart which burns untamed

Why torture a passionate soul as mine?
With convolution, betrayal, lies
Steal dreams far from these innocent eyes
Instill fear and doubts that long remain

Each day that passes, each hour floods by
Sinks what once shone brightly from within,
While none feel this fading light, such as I
Whose silent anguish my jaded mind rescinds

The tortured wrestling, each ripping shred
Of the stitching of my soul, as she collapses in defeat
While each flaming ember my youth once held
Cools to greying ashes amidst my frozen feet

For none can move this queen of ice.
Trapped beneath her struggle with virtue and vice
Longing for her freedom, but afraid to pay the price
For the wings that would break this treacherous deal, in time

For this phoenix to ignite herself
Unfold her flaming wings, take flight
Turn every sordid speck of ash, into a burning life

Life, oh life. What are you life?
But time seeping through my grasping hands
Wish that I could hold you life
Know your secrets and bury within,
Your very center your hollow core
Where all is silent and nothing is known,
Where I can hear my hearts beating once more
The truest sound, begin again.

I lost my love to the ocean
I lost my love to the sea
I lost my love to the deep dark waters
And he is no longer with me

He left one night while the moon was watching
An ivory eye to the east
He left one night while I was dreaming
And my love no longer he’ll be

I called his name to the open shore-side
I whispered his name from the sea
I cried his name to a silent answer
My love is no longer with me

If you hear my song from the crashing shore side
If you ******* tears from the sea
My lonely heart calls for a lover
A lover who’ll never leave me

I’ll bring him down to the dark deep waters
I’ll show him the treasures of the sea
I’ll drown his heart with the depth of my ocean
And my love will never leave me

If you could step inside my heart
Would you recognize its walls?
Lit by thousands of the stars
As silver moonlight falls.

Would you hear the gentle rushing,
Of the waves against the shore?
Would you tread across the soft sand?
And lay here forever more?

Would you walk inside each chamber?
Whisper your name into each hall
Would you dance inside each vessel?
Hear the music of my call.

I call to you so sweetly
To lay inside my heart
I’ve built a place so full of love
You’ll never have to part.

You fly above my ocean
I’ll kiss you with each wave
Watch you soar into the sunset
Your skin glistening with golden rays.

Float across the night sky
I’ll watch you from the moon
I’ll blow you diamond stardust
To help you reach me soon

Travel through the worlds my love
But know you have a home
Deep inside my beating heart
You’ll never feel alone

The music of my heartbeat
Will be your lullaby
And the glow of warmth inside me
Will reflect in your brown eyes.

Explore all the worlds’ wonders
But know my love will never fade
The way you fit inside my heart love,
For you it must be made.

Yeah you, you don't know how it feels,
When you tell me this love is for real
Baby I know the deal.
And I don't believe a single word you breathe

Yeah I, I followed you out last night,
Saw you kissing in the cold moonlight
Felt my heart break free
From your tragedy
You won't make a fool of me no more

You, you cruel-hearted boy
You should learn how to play with your toys
Instead of breaking me, what a mess I'd bleed
In your bittersweet charade

I stole, what was left of your ways
Spent them with all of our days
With a bottle of the finest gin in town

You, you see me with him
Now you know where I've been
See the satisfied look in my eyes
You dont mean a thing to me no more.

You must think your something special
As you rampage around the office
A raging bull on parade
A one woman show
Tearing through flesh with your
Pointy devil horns.

The sound from your throat
Is kin to a screeching hyena
Holding a megaphone
To its rotting stoma.
And the expression on your face
Reminds me of a rabid baboon
With wicked indigestion
Locked in a steaming sauna.

It makes me sick to
Kiss your flat, shapeless ***
And muster a semi-genuine smile
With that grotesquely arranged expression
You call a greeting, reflected in my
Eyes every tortured morning
Your 7am demands rain down on me.

Too soon, my pet
I will be leaving this place
Shedding the protective clothing
Ive worn to this hazardous waste
disposal site, you call 'your office'
And the toxicity of your
cruel, malicious comments will evaporate
With the rays of a golden sun.

But you, my pet
Will be left with the gray stormy clouds
You attract to all who are around you
Pouring, and hailing down the **** storm
You pathetically call, your life.

Nick's tongue is in my mouth.
And for a split-second the world
Isn't revolving.
All I can feel is the cool October wind
Stinging us with its earthy, cider scent.

A thousand leaves
Exploding red, burning orange and yellow
Flutter around in my stomach.
As the trees shed above us,
Teasing my thoughts with their nakedness
As his fingers wrap around mine.

I watch his orange-laced sneakers
Pounding against the uneven pavement
Carelessly, unnoticing
As I meticulously avoid stepping on the cracks,
Making futile attempts to slow our pace
As he bounds ahead.
Caring little about the red, orange and yellow leaves
He crushes so beautifully
Beneath his feet.

You keep me hanging from your heart by a string
Where I sway unsteadily in the current of your contradictions.
Watching the sun move across your heart
Lightness to dark, boldness to fear.
I bask in the golden rays from your warmth
Swinging free, my feet touching stars.
I shiver frozen in your night
When your fear creeps out for the uncertainty of your blindness.

My arms have grown weary with the weight of holding on
Waiting for the refuge I know exists.
Where I am lifted from this string into your beating heart
We both watch the darkness fade to dawn.

You leave me wondering as my hands grow numb
If it would not be better to cut this string
Plunge down.
Than to brave your night and day
When I know you've caged your sun.

It seems I'm nearly bursting
With the words I want to speak.
Afraid I might crush you
With the rush of their wave.
But it would wash over you gently
Soak into your heart.

I want to taste the words in my mouth
Like I taste your lips.
Feel them slip from my tongue
To join the cloud that surrounds you.

Just keep hovering above me
A mist, light as a breeze.
Watch me thrash beneath you wildly
Each wave reaching, desperate to lick
The thin air on which you float.

I never thought the shredding
Of a soul could make a sound
Like heavy drops of rain
Seeping through the earth

I watch people wading idly
Shallow and thoughtless
Unaware of the depth
That lies only before them.

Why then do I question the deepness of the pool?
The mysterious darkness
Lures me like a sirens song,
Mingling with the very threads
That sew me to my skin.

Alone I embark into the drowning depths
As a haunting pulls deep within me
To forever explore this dark unknown.

And so my soul is immersed
By my own heavy hands
In attempt to uncover the mysteries
Buried deep inside myself.
I drown myself in dark waters.
The suns light slowly fading
From beneath this heavy sea.

I think you cut my skin a little deeper
With a razored tongue last night.
I think I froze your heart a little colder
With the ice of my barren eyes.
I think you braved my silent darkness
And I your hurricane of words.
I think we both drowned a little deeper
In the quiet of these unknown woods.
I know this place is un-ventured
Its terrain feels new to my feet.
I know the mountain has loomed higher
As the path unfolds longer beneath.

But still I saw that gentle shimmer
Like sunlight off the water, in your eyes.
I think you felt my soft surrender
To the warmth of your skin next to mine.
I feel the mist is clearing
Revealing a view that’s brand new.
I know that my heart is still holding
To your heart, and my smile is with you.
I know that your feet walk by my feet
Though we each step in different time.
I know that I always can find you
Because your path is close to mine.

I think that our skins will be healing
As a delicate layer grows through.
I think that our love will be stronger
As appreciation sinks inside me and you.
I love you more each day I see you
More as those eyes recognize mine.
I love you for cutting me deeply
And bringing a new light in me to life.