Nick's tongue is in my mouth.
And for a split-second the world
Isn't revolving.
All I can feel is the cool October wind
Stinging us with its earthy, cider scent.

A thousand leaves
Exploding red, burning orange and yellow
Flutter around in my stomach.
As the trees shed above us,
Teasing my thoughts with their nakedness
As his fingers wrap around mine.

I watch his orange-laced sneakers
Pounding against the uneven pavement
Carelessly, unnoticing
As I meticulously avoid stepping on the cracks,
Making futile attempts to slow our pace
As he bounds ahead.
Caring little about the red, orange and yellow leaves
He crushes so beautifully
Beneath his feet.

You keep me hanging from your heart by a string
Where I sway unsteadily in the current of your contradictions.
Watching the sun move across your heart
Lightness to dark, boldness to fear.
I bask in the golden rays from your warmth
Swinging free, my feet touching stars.
I shiver frozen in your night
When your fear creeps out for the uncertainty of your blindness.

My arms have grown weary with the weight of holding on
Waiting for the refuge I know exists.
Where I am lifted from this string into your beating heart
We both watch the darkness fade to dawn.

You leave me wondering as my hands grow numb
If it would not be better to cut this string
Plunge down.
Than to brave your night and day
When I know you've caged your sun.

It seems I'm nearly bursting
With the words I want to speak.
Afraid I might crush you
With the rush of their wave.
But it would wash over you gently
Soak into your heart.

I want to taste the words in my mouth
Like I taste your lips.
Feel them slip from my tongue
To join the cloud that surrounds you.

Just keep hovering above me
A mist, light as a breeze.
Watch me thrash beneath you wildly
Each wave reaching, desperate to lick
The thin air on which you float.

I never thought the shredding
Of a soul could make a sound
Like heavy drops of rain
Seeping through the earth

I watch people wading idly
Shallow and thoughtless
Unaware of the depth
That lies only before them.

Why then do I question the deepness of the pool?
The mysterious darkness
Lures me like a sirens song,
Mingling with the very threads
That sew me to my skin.

Alone I embark into the drowning depths
As a haunting pulls deep within me
To forever explore this dark unknown.

And so my soul is immersed
By my own heavy hands
In attempt to uncover the mysteries
Buried deep inside myself.
I drown myself in dark waters.
The suns light slowly fading
From beneath this heavy sea.

I think you cut my skin a little deeper
With a razored tongue last night.
I think I froze your heart a little colder
With the ice of my barren eyes.
I think you braved my silent darkness
And I your hurricane of words.
I think we both drowned a little deeper
In the quiet of these unknown woods.
I know this place is un-ventured
Its terrain feels new to my feet.
I know the mountain has loomed higher
As the path unfolds longer beneath.

But still I saw that gentle shimmer
Like sunlight off the water, in your eyes.
I think you felt my soft surrender
To the warmth of your skin next to mine.
I feel the mist is clearing
Revealing a view that’s brand new.
I know that my heart is still holding
To your heart, and my smile is with you.
I know that your feet walk by my feet
Though we each step in different time.
I know that I always can find you
Because your path is close to mine.

I think that our skins will be healing
As a delicate layer grows through.
I think that our love will be stronger
As appreciation sinks inside me and you.
I love you more each day I see you
More as those eyes recognize mine.
I love you for cutting me deeply
And bringing a new light in me to life.