i ******* hate my life right now.
sometimes im the happiest, smiliest person ever, and then the next minute i feel like total ****.
i dont know what i want in my life right now, and i dont know where to go or who i can trust.
ive been let down by so many people.
every time something seems like its about to work out, it doesnt.
something else happens that ruins it.
i just wish things would work out soon.
ive been through self-harm; im still going through it. it doenst help.
i smoke way too ******* much; i drug way too ******* much.
its making me worse, its making me hate myself more, its making me feel like a disappointment.
i just feel judged by everyone and unable to please anybody.
and its miserable because its been going on for just so ****, ******* long.

Maybe some day he will fall in love with you
Maybe you dont think you can wait until then.
I think that anybody that makes you wait
Is not worth waiting for.

Maybe some day you will fall in love with another boy;
A boy that makes you question why you ever thought
You would be better off alone.
Maybe he is the one you give your life to.

Maybe some day a perfectly imperfect boy will come along.
He won't make your life flawless
But he will make you laugh until your days are over.
I think that is the only type of boy you need in your life.

When you first meet him,
He will just be another pretty face that you love to look at.
Give it some time, my sweet.
In a short while, he will be the only face you will be able to see
Even if there are some more beautiful than his.

i wanna know you better than the back of my hand,  and what keeps you up at 2am

i wanna know what song has been stuck in your head, and how you'd look tucked into my bed

i wanna know what words are on the tip of your tongue, and hear about your dreams, even when you have none

i wanna know what brings you to tears, and what your face would look like if i lightly bit your ear

i wanna know how you like your coffee in the morning, and how cute you look when you're snoring

i wanna know you better

I wish i could be okay.