Been so long
No words, no in person.
Just memory of what once was.
Contemplation turns towards him
Don’t want flashbacks
Yet he is held in my thoughts
People say
The past should stay the past
Try not to think about the moments
But
How can I just erase?
Erase from mind?
Erase from heart?
Stuck there, no way of getting him out
He doesn’t want to be,
I don’t want him to be
That’s just how things turned out.

I miss the ocean of your eyes
The warmth of your hands in mine
The sweet taste of your lips
The radiating sunshine of your smile
The silky trails of your skin
The way your arms so perfectly sorround me
The melodic sound of your heartbeat
Lulling me into peaceful sleep
Where have you gone?
You seem to appear only in my dreams 
I look up at the sky and wonder
Are you seeing the same star?
Are you thinking of me?
Emotions run through
I am longing for your presence
The scent of your arrival
Please return to me
I miss you

Is it a new beginning? Or a continuing end?
Inescapably facing fears.
The unknown. The known. Blending together.
A monster ready to attack.
Alone. Be ready for the battle.
An evidential continuance.
The never ending cycle. No time to run.
A path to the unseen and unexplored.
Forever dark and dreary.
Nothing comes alive.
An implanted memory. Stuck in your brain.
Fantasies continue to collide and conquer.
Don't think. You'll lose.

This guy I know
The one most important
The one no longer there
 
Looks have been interchanged
Words have been spoken
 
This guy I know
The one who smiles so cheerfully
The one whose eyes sparkle
 
Layers have been peeled off
Secrets have been exchanged
 
This guy I know
The one whose hugs give warmth
The one whose touch electrifies
 
Feelings have surpassed
Emotions have intensified
 
This guy I know
The one who will lend a hand
The one who will listen
 
Safeness always present
Never turning backs
 
This guy I know
The one who inspires change
The one always there

Just one
One gesture
Where I’m swept off my feet
Flying
Flying so high I can touch the sky
 
Just one
One event
That lets me see inside you
And who you truly are
 
Just one
One second
When you’re holding me so tight
I can hear the beat
Your heart makes when we’re close
 
Just one
One instance
In which your heart
Speaks of true feelings
 
Just one
One perfect moment
Two souls meeting
Becoming one
Understanding
 
Just one
One eternity
Of perfect moments
Me in your arms
Your lips touching mine
 
Just one
"One lovely trick designed
By nature to stop words
When speech becomes superfluous"
 
Just one
One Kiss

At night wondering
An unbreakable silence
Yet there are screams, shouts
No one around.
Could they be my shouts?
Not speaking
Could they be my thoughts?
Not thinking
Could I be going crazy?
Not insane
Could it be animals?
No one alive
Could it be the moon?
Not shining
Then what?
I try to listen
Try to distinguish the voice
Sounds like mine
But not mine
Its close
Yet far
I pay more attention
They voice is familiar
I listen again
The voice is of a stranger
It’s loud
It’s unclear
It’s weak
As that of someone scaring
Yet they’re scared to scare
I try to ignore it
It grows louder
Louder
Deafening
I try to understand
Hear a hidden message
It’s softer
Softer
A whisper
My heads spinning
Now what?

The one I call my own,
Yet it can never be.
The one I love,
Who loves me as well.
Yet it can never be.
 
Paved walkways send us in different directions
Yet we always seem to find common ground,
Even if just for a second.
Even from opposite ends of emotions.
 
Many obstacles have been surpassed,
Yet not enough.
Nobody knows, we're so out of this world
Collisions driving us space bound.
 
The one who I want,
Yet it can never be.
Without you my body aches,
I have zero strength.
 
Promise me if I cave in and break
That I wont be making a mistake.
 
Take me with you.
Without you,
Everything falls apart.
 
Take me with you.
Without you,
Its not as much fun to pick up the pieces.
 
There must be somewhere
We can just be.
We will let these layers peel off.
This is someone
Who can see right through me,
And I'll tell you now,
I don't seem to have a problem with it.