I try so hard to stay awake
push pin nails on shattered windows
the crust and glass of my aimless past
plagues my waking dreams
I am a broken crumbling
flesh and bone
monster
I
am
monster
I am broke.
I am but I slave to this matrix of
suffering

how do I maintain
this smiling face

how do I remain
in this friendless place

the angst haw crept within again i do not oft complain
but the poisons gotten far too full
the voices scream my name
you strangle me with black crow claws
and still the feelings sits
its seeping through my mind
that heavy weight
that cloying rind

i know i am insane

It's absurd to me
that you still
feel like home to me
how can you haunt my dreams and mind?
how can you dare to touch me there
when you've been gone all this time?

how can I get away from this.

I                          STILL                          LOVE   ­                         YOU