Not a smile every day person
Always trying to look on the brightside even if there isn't one
Turning my pain into words
A lot of hatred toward my biological family
Shy
Helpful with my family and friends
Angry at the world

I do not smile
I do not laugh
I live my life in denial
Cause you were so vile

You may think of me as a happy person
But you don't know me

I always try to get by
With a smile plastered on my face
This is not the case

I am a master of deception
I am an exception

You see what I want you to see
You hear what I want you to hear
You see my fear

Am I a hermit because I like to be alone
No need for companionship
I am on my own
Just me and my heart of stone

I know when I'm alone no one will hurt me
Because if you seen what I've seen
You too would wish you were free

You sit by the headstone
Of the lover you lost
Does his spirit still roam
Why was he taken from you and at what cost

You cry loud sobs of tears
Crying more loudly hoping he hears

You sense a presence
From beyond the grave
Praying that is you that he'll save

He's a ghost now you see
He's filled only with dread
A spirit to wander not free but dead

As  he reaches out to hug you
All around you see red

Why am I so lonely
Am I my one and only

What did I do to deserve this
When all I want is companionship

I do not have a place
I could leave without a trace

Feeling like I could die
And I can not help but cry

Is this my fate
It's not one I want to create
But if I wait
It may be to late