The last words I said to you hang above me. They stalk me....often choking out all other thoughts. They ring in my ears as a painful reminder the weight that words truly have....You not only broke my heart that day, but shattered the woman I was supposed to become.
So now....4 years later I find I am still trying to escape the gravity of those 5 words. I was so wrong to say that. A thousand 'what ifs' stream through me.
What if I said something else?
What if I had just been a little less harsh?
What if I had love inside my eye's instead of anger?
Would you still be here?
No amount of time will ever be enough for me to escape this haunting weight of what I said to you. I am so sorry....I am always missing you and that 1,000 watt smile.