You are bolts
of electrical energy
going through me,
standing beside you
is like standing in front
of a speeding car;
you fill me with adrenaline.
Your face is what I see
when I hear the word 'God',
and I so desperately want to be
some kind of Goddess,
something sacred
to you.
I seem to live in constant daydreams
of you,
constant yearning for you,
sending me in to some heaven of breathlessness
and dare I say it,
love.

How often
I see you in places you have never even been to.
How often
I find you deep inside the chambers
of my heart.

You make me feel like I have
no control,
and it scares me because I know
that's what love feels like.
I don't want to be out of control.
I don't want to be in love.
The simple, innocent act of your arm
brushing against mine
makes me realise that no touch
between me and you
could ever be
innocent.
I want to crawl inside you,
fill up all of your lonely places with myself.
I want to be completely selfish,
hide you away somewhere nobody can find you
because I am so jealous of every pair of eyes
that has seen you.
I want to be the only eyes that are important,
the only lips you want to kiss,
the only body you could possibly hold with those
big, beautiful hands.
My God, I am a burning, raging forest fire
and I want to burn through your heart.
I want it to be painful to be without me.

I want to make you feel like you have
no control
because I know that's what love feels like
and I need you to love me.

You are so unloveable
and yet I love you.
Why isn't that enough for you?

The world needs balance,
The world needs balance.
Wake up to the news every morning of homies Wildin.

Why don't you stay in school?
Education succeeds violence.
Why spend your life in the hood?
Get a new challenge.

Get some new talents,
The trap game gets old.
Half the ones that say they trap,
Get in the real game and just fold.

Never going for the gold,
But they settle for them metals.
Just be palming on that pistol,
Advocate for the devil.

Willing to **** to survive,
So much pain in mothers' eyes.
Lost two sons:
one to system & and one to the skies .

The devil in disguise ,
He don't care who stay alive .
He just wanna create chaos ,
He just wanna ruin lives.

Heaven or hell ?
You choose .
Whether Dead or in jail?
You lose .
Heartless or heartbroken ?
Stories rolling on the news.

I'm never amused.
My generations amusement.
Six flags fall to half-staff,
My generation is losing.

Dying off.

Kids my age aren’t coming home.

I’m realizing, kids my age aren't coming home.
Some wonder why I write poems.
Just So you can feel me and my standpoint,
Cause I never been good with words unless I write out what I've planned. Huh?


Wishing we could talk to God more.

Wishing the FEDERAL government would provide more;
assistance for college that's why these kids quittin' .
They lack the AMBITION,
And  incentives to keep them driven.  

Unemployment is high .
These kids gettin higher.
In an attempt to talk to God ;
So they all Rastafari .

Playing host to a chess game.
Satan Versus God.
But you can't wither & Waver,
Gotta pick & choose your side.

So whose side do your reside on?
I mean, who do you rely on?
This cold world, but no heat.
Can't stay wrinkle free, without an iron.

Perfection's in belief.
Belief is in faith.
Faith is discussion.
So who do you discuss today?

Give them something to talk about…

There is ice
on the pavement
and the wind hasn't stopped for a week.

The sky is dim
and polluted
and our cigarettes shine brighter
than the stars do.

You enter
and you are wild flowers
in a town that has only
ever known the colour
grey.

Others are just funeral cars
passing by,
whilst you are full-blown technicolour
in this void.

You look my way
and approach me.
The stars shine
more brightly tonight.

YOU ARE SO INTENSE AND I LOVE YOU SO INTENSELY. I LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE ALIVE AND I AM ALIVE AND OH MY GOD WE ARE SO ALIVE. SOMETIMES I WANT TO SET YOU ON FIRE BUT MOST OF THE TIME, YOU SET ME ON FIRE, YOU SET THE WORLD ON FIRE, WE ARE HEAVEN AND HELL COMBINED AND WE ARE EVERY FLAME YET TO BE IGNITED. WE ARE SO HUMAN, SO ANGRY, SO SAD, SO CRAZY ABOUT EACH OTHER, SO ******* CRAZY. EVERY SONG REMINDS ME OF YOU AND THE WAY YOU LOOK AT ME HAS ME SMILING IN MY SLEEP. I AM SO AWAKE WHEN I AM WITH YOU, SO AWARE OF EVERY PASSING MINUTE, SO AWARE OF THE FACT THAT YOU EXIST. YOU ARE KILLING ME AND I AM RUNNING BOTH TO AND FROM YOU; INDECISIVE, IMPOSSIBLE, INFINITE. I WANT TO SEE THE ENTIRE WORLD WITH YOU, I WANT US TO BECOME THE WORLD. I WANT TO SEE LOVE IN YOUR EYES AND TASTE LUST ON YOUR LIPS. I WANT EVERYTHING BECAUSE RIGHT NOW, EVERYTHING IS YOU AND YOU CAN GIVE ME MORE THAN EVERYTHING. WE CAN'T STAND EACH OTHER AND WE CAN'T STAND TO BE WITHOUT EACHOTHER. WE ARE SO HUMAN.

Why do you seem so impossible to me? You are the epitome of all the things I should run from, but choose to love instead. You tell me about the magnificence that comes from your touch; tell me your hands are made of God as if I didn't already know. I look at you as all things heavenly, my lips are drenched in wine and yours are dripping with lust. You turn me in to all the things I want so desperately to become; all the things I fear of becoming. You are a mess of a human being but there are parts of me that I see in you, and you hide behind the heartless when in reality you just want someone to knock down the walls of your heart again. I do not want to waste away waiting for you; he who has been waiting for nothing in particular his entire life.

I want to know every inch of you, but even when we are centimetres apart you still appear to be so far away from me. The truth is that you just see me as some kind of divine forbidden fruit, and so you speak in tongues I don't understand and make me feel cheap and easy. It sickens me because I know you are just another to take advantage of my big heart. You want to take little pieces of me but not the whole of me.

Can't you see? I want to carve you in to my bones so I can hold you eternally, I want to inhale you like cigarette smoke and then never exhale again. You have been ******* me for days without even touching me, without even being in the same place as me. I want you and I want to love you but I refuse, I refuse, I refuse -

I will not be drowned again.

- m.k