I dreamed a dream far behind where things where different and love was blind .I dreamed of flowers blooming in autumn , i dreamed of things that where out of sight , i held my pen in my hand and held my tears from dropping ,i started writing what my dreams hided . Oh lord, a deep sorrow in my heart a sorrow that would break the unbroken heart. My ego stopped my drawling eyes, my shaky hands stopped me from writing. I layed  down on ground ,looked up the sky searching for a star hoping that one day i will fulfill my dream and lay down by your side. And at last till this day i am still dreaming to reach this star that will freeze my fire from melting again.

I stooped missing you.
I stopped needing you.
My heart learned to stop aching.
My mind stopped worrying.
I am healing quickly.
But the problem is... no one is filling the space I have. No one is giving me that feeling that I felt with you. I am still lost in mind, drowning in thoughts. Oh god heal every broken piece of my broken tired heart.

If you ever wanted a second chance a second try wanted to fix what was broken i'd do it in a heartbeat i would control myself not to crack and fall apart i'd give a second chance for my heart that still beats every time  your name comes out your looks your smiles your glowing eyes your passion in love everything in you deserves a second chance you showed me the world from a different side . Wouldnt it be the perfect crime if i stole yur heart and you stole mine?!

A tape of memories was played in front of my eyes the first time we met the first kiss we had the bond between us everything of you is unforgettable i leaned down on your door i held your coat and smelled your smell my tears couldn't control themselves ,and with  every tear dropped  there was a deep sorrow . You  made me see life through your eyes  , you made me realize that nothing is worth my tears, but here we are part from each other my eyes couldn't control the tears dropped for you. All what am asking for is to open a new chapter a new chance that we both deserve lets take the step of risking everything just to be together. Would that be hard?!

How do I convince my heart.
How do I adapt my brain with the fact that your not here anymore. Everything is becoming soo hard. Oh lord cure my broken heart.

Is it fear? Or is it love? Am in a self struggle i have reached to a point of becoming afraid of losing wt i already own!! My tears wont stop dropping i am out of words. I can hear my bones straining from the sorrow am holding. Ohhh lord have mercy on my soft heart. Days are going fast and they all look alike. Time is running and i still dnt knw wts left for me am afraid of waking up and not recognizing myself nor the ones around me.

I still remember the first day we met and how shy we were . The way we looked at each other while sitting on the bench and eating we wanted to talk but we found it hard which one of us should start.

And after that days passed my friend and here we are two of a kind . We share , we care, we admire, and we inspire each other together we stayed we fought we had ups and downs but we passed it  all with love. They say true friendship is hard to find but here we are models for people with closed hearts. Lets praise ourselves and keep our heads up high cause friends  like us  are hard to find.

Why cant I let go if whatever bothers me.
Why cant I let go of a past that will never come again.
Why cant I sleep for at least one day with empty mind and free soul.
Is it me trapped in my past? Or is it life getting harsher and harsher day by day. God oh  god heal my broken heart, my trapped soul, heal my mind. Heal me from all the pain that is breaking me apart.

Here we are again away from the whole world together in a ship that sealed away for a very long time.We both have the power to keep it on the surface and to keep it balanced. Call it arrogance call it ego give it the name you choose, but our freedom comes from being the way you don’t want us to be. We waited, we cried, we smashed, we tried, but congrats to us, we have reached to a point that no one would ever dare to cross my dear, my love, my world let us go away, away to a place that only three things are allowed to happen. First trust, second love, third care.

I can't actually tell how it feels, it's like a stone came and settled in the middle of my heart. The fact of you not being beside me is killing me. I miss you soo much. I miss your talks, I miss your jokes, I miss our daily arguments, I miss our outings, I miss our gatherings, I miss it all. You have left a huge empty space in my heart. My eyes can no more handle my heavy tears. I still pray to God everyday that if we are meant to be for each other you would come back again and give me a chance to tell you how much you meant to me.

My heart is aching from agony
My memories are breaking me
My body is aging
everything around me is missing something, every place i go to holds a memory of you. I cant take it anymore, my days are all one color. My nights are harsh. I hug myself tightly everyday wishing upon a star praying for God wishing for something that deep inside I am sure its not coming back . My tears tend to drop every time your name comes out What do I do? Where do I go?  How do I  live? How do I adapt? Do I pray for a miracle or leave the days count?

You stood by me side by side when i needed you the most you held my tears and held me tight and told me that as long as am on earth and alive i will always stay by your side even if life gave us more than wt we cloud  handle and even if life was tough and hard i promise that i will love yu every time as if its our first time my love.

To the past owner of my heart. I am writing this for you.
You gave me happiness in my darkest days.

You showed me starts in the middle of the day.

You showed me how life could be easier and how it goes on.

This is my desperate brain telling you good bye .

Good bye with a deep sorrow in my heart.

Good bye my lover good bye my guard.

Good bye my happiness.

Good bye my life.

A new 365 days a new 2015 a new me without you..

Good bye.

If i would give you one thing in life i would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes and by that time you would realize how much you mean to me . I have this feeling that is growing daily inside me its like a seed that is nourished by the water of our love. . Between our laughs our long night talks the intimacy we have  the chills i get when i hear your words our stupid fights and jokes. I fell in love with every single part of you, and i will still love you with every step on my way . You seduced my mind and found my soul and by now I'm yours forever May god bless your beautiful soul and your loving heart and Keep you mine forever and ever.

Another chapter another story another life for you and me lets give each other a promise lets hold our hands together you showed me your world and i showed you mine, i think its time, its time to take the step   to move forward , a brighter  side is waiting and this was  the last thing of what you said you left my heart held with fire you left my mind  lashing in memories you gave me hope ,you gave me something beyond wt i asked for and now yu left me in this world .I stood beside your grave planted flowers went back through our memories and set my heart on fire and frm this moment till the end i promise you that you and only you are the one that my heart was opened too and closed after you❤