"If this is the way you want it to end"

Words that ring through my ears
so untrue, yet a part of what I hear
everyday.

Let me for a moment explain...

Loving you had no beginning or sense of end
no fake colorful flowers in an imaginary garden
just each day a new start...a new joy

Each season represents what I feel about our love

Spring holding hope for the new, that lives inside us
the unyielding adventure being born with each little
bud exploding from the earth.

Summer was a time of splendor while the lazy
days of our afternoons allowed us to love
oh, and make love.

Fall brought our Summer closer
like a hug from Nature a reminder of what is
and what isn't...a time of reflection and peace.

Winter cold held our hearts at the hearth at the cabin
where silk sheets soothed lovers skin
and overstuffed duvets warmed us in the cold
the fire flickering our reflections off the others face.

So to say, *"If this is the way you want it to end"
is insane of you to think.

Can anyone stop the seasons from changing?

Then how could I ever change the seasons of my heart?

In that moment when it's just you and your little girl
and you inwardly smile at her and the sweet innocence
when you feel like you drown in her eyes and beauty
the moment when she turns and connects with your eyes
and for that second time stands still

There's nothing you wouldn't do to protect her
There's no way you would allow anyone to hurt her
and yet
how many daughters have you stripped innocence from?
how many have you built up the dream only to **** it away?

Remember that...the next time you look into your daughters face
Will she meet a man just like you someday?

Let's only hope better for her

Your self proclamation at being the beast

makes me laugh

I've never known a larger chicken


You act as though you don't love me

yet in the quiet of your black soul you know you do

I'm your twin flame you once said


You are running away

yet still looking back, pleading for more

Just one more time and you'll stop


Building walls around your heart

they are made of clay

Let it rain


You fell in love with me

and now we have to pay

empty hollows in two hearts

We met through innuendos
simple chatter
shared our secrets
our hope and dreams
nothing else mattered

The dark day of truth
was typed across the screen
"I'm married,  you can let me go"
an uneasy feeling in my stomach occurred
while my heart began to scream

Walking away easily
passed months ago
you looked for an internet distraction
from the unfulfilled life you had
yet you fell with me, feelings began to grow

You want to leave me
hating to love me
loving to hate me
needing and wanting
craving to feel me

Now bittersweet
the friendship is lost
between moments stolen
and the hot passion that flowed across the screen
our souls forsaken, the hidden cost

You wouldn't take me home
You wouldn't date me
You just simply want to cyber **** me

No sense in being second best
not just to the wife
you love so much but can't touch
but I drawn the line
at being second best to your dog in this life

Moments wrapped in lace
your words made love to my ears
awakening my skin

Laughter may have led to some tears
yet we went forward
opening my heart

Loving you came before you let me know
that loving you wasn't possible
secret keeper

Regrets are for fools
forever,  lives in the smiles and joy we had
treasured time

Dawn of the new day
you start it all over again
another lover, more laughter, more play

I will love you forever
I will never forget
until I thank-you when lying in the arms
of my lover