Normal.
adjective, 2 syllables, and the ultimate struggle.
"Just be normal"

the hardest lesson i've learned from life
is freely giving parts of yourself to everyone
and hoping they share back
leaves you lost,
broken,
and scared to trust.
not everyone shares equally
and you will find yourself withering away,
until you can no longer feel anything.
you become nothing but an empty shell of who you were before.
yet people will still demand your light,
your support,
and your love.
if it is not given they get angry,
calling you "cold" or "heartless."
and you will believe them.
because at the end of it all you still care,
even after losing yourself.

Always the chooser, never the chosen
Tripping in chaos, it's left me broken
Hollowed bones and scattered mind
oh, but the way you see me, it's divine.

I'd love to be the one you love.
Casting prayers, can you hear me up above?
To God, to the cosmos, to any of the powers that be...
I hope you're the one meant for me.

No one can see as me
I cannot see as they
An object, an event can hold multiple gaze
It presents one way to me, another way to you
But which is this ever holy truth?

I guess that depends
Which color of truth is perceived
by you
by me

For I see like me
and you see like you
But, which perception is the truest truth?

Your toy of choice is matches,
claiming to have mastered fire's passion, to control heat's destruction
Put gasoline to a flame, watch as it dances higher, higher
Tendrils of smoke whispering as they rise, high above the pyre
Naive child, thinking fire alone can chase out darkness
Embers may shine,
but they burn, consume themselves, lost in passion
Destined to flicker out, and yield once more to blackness
Ashes to ashes

Words soft as drizzle rain
But eyes betray, awash in pain
Smile quivering, like wind stirred leaves
A story, a mystery so dark so deep,
Both peace and fury,
Reminisce the sea

Go ahead and leave.
Take my heart...anything else you need?
Mama brought me up gracious, Trauma's made me kind.
Truly honey, I'll be alright.
This ain't my first time.