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6.3k · Jun 2014
Selflessness
Madison McCray Jun 2014
maybe there's a reason we don't see our own beauty. it's a strive towards selflessness. it'd be the cause of interference with our capability to see the rest of the world as beautiful as it is. with so many places to go & things to see we forget to notice the eternity within our own soul. we underestimate the scale of life itself. because without your individually unique ways we wouldn't go on to live in this incredulously magnificent world. an outcome of intelligence & stupidity.
639 · Sep 2014
Life Goes On
Madison McCray Sep 2014
I never planned for my wrist to match
the color of my nails
nor did I expect myself to paint
the lungs of my own
my favorite shade of color
but like my father once said
when I was just a little girl
life goes on
one day my flesh will ly beneath
the ground you walk
and there will be little to no
memories left
of your name carved into my skin
or my blackened lungs
from the poison you taught me to love
it will all seem so distant
and one day
the existence of myself
will be nothing but a dream
to you and for I
575 · Feb 2014
Reason I Must Stay
Madison McCray Feb 2014
your perfect intentions
to cast me away
confirms the definition
or reason I must stay
your every ammunition
unique in difference
creates a common solution
of why I banded distance
stirs the *** left handed
evaluates ambivilance
all the flaws were blinded
causing a bit of inference
now here we stand
in value of a love we share
come and take my hand
our wound has been repaired
550 · Dec 2014
Forget
Madison McCray Dec 2014
I once tried to erase our memories
and found myself
cutting away at my skin
for the coldness without you
was unbearable
and I found my fist reentering the walls repeatedly  
trying to block out the image I saw
of us in the room together
I washed my sheets
and tossed and turned late at night
because my bed never felt the same without your presence
my chest caved in every waking morning
without you here
I honestly don't know how I'm still managing
or how my heart remains beating
without the blood your love supplied
my body is drained
and lungs will soon reach zero capacity
if I continue smoking the nicotine
my body craves
and I can never inhale enough toxic
to forget the memories
you wrote within me
but the first time I tried
did not stop me from trying again
so here I am
with cut up skin and ****** knuckles
lying cold in the sheets
with a broken heart that's barely holding on
and filling my lungs with a poison
heartache taught me to love
for I can not forget
506 · Dec 2014
Ghost
Madison McCray Dec 2014
you became a ghost the day
you let go of all that was left
and filled the void with
a more shallow hole than the one
that deprived the love
you could not hold onto
the distance between life and death
grew to be
a walking advantage for yourself
and seemingly you were okay with that
I watched you drift away
trying to hold onto what remains
but you slowly fell out of grip
and I found myself lying on the ground
where you last took a real breath
long before anxiety took over
and your chest caved within
a time before our love destroyed
who we were
and who together we shall be
but now your soul still lingers
around the room our relationship grew upon
keeping temperatures cold
and always reminding me
our love was worth the pain I feel tonight
497 · Jun 2014
You're All I Want
Madison McCray Jun 2014
sometimes I just want to cuddle & kiss & be cute with you because that's what you'd expect out of two teenagers then other times I want to smack you in the back of the head for being a goofball & mess up your hair that you seem to be so crazy about & laugh when you get mad because the face you make when you're embarrassed is the cutest whether you believe it or not. & sometimes I even want to be serious & I want you to tell me what's got your world spinning & for you to open up to me & finally for once just let me help because that's all I've ever wanted to do. & sometimes I want for you to read all the things I've ever wrote for you & take them to heart & realize how much I truly do care for you & appreciate everything you have done to help maintain my happiness in life when you didn't have to. but sometimes I just simply want to be together & know that you love me & I love you. because hell you're all I want.
is that too much to ask for?
482 · Dec 2014
Human Toxic
Madison McCray Dec 2014
my bones are weakening
and my spine can not accompany
the weight your name carries
along every turn and edge
within my fragile whole
for I traced your name along
the parts of myself I could not
hold together
you gave me a meaning to life
that made a lot more sense
than the plan I had imagined
without you here my body aches
in all the empty spots
you no longer occupy
a stream of tears and loss of words
now haunts the place where I always found myself looking for you
leaving me here to feel
more cold and alone than ever before
and if it is to be as true as you say
meaning my existence is very well numb to you
I'll now allow myself to believe
the love was only one sided
you were nothing but a human toxic
eating at my very own soul
and I allowed you in
but never more will this continue
I'll learn to manage fine without
like the nicotine my body craves
you were only another tempting withdraw
465 · Dec 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Dec 2014
The hours past midnight
Have become my worst enemy
And longest nightmare I wish to someday wake up from
Cravings become addictions
And my love for you quadruples in the matter of minutes
Breathing in oxygen is not enough
And neither is hearing your voice
I miss the toxin that filled my lungs
All of those lonely nights I spent without you
I miss your presence here in bed
And the capability to get comfortable
I dread for the days I will awake from this horrible nightmare
And become the love your body craves
When you'll be by my side on nights like these
And the withdrawals will be gone
463 · Aug 2015
with you by my side
Madison McCray Aug 2015
I have come to realization
that no matter the circumstance,
Any situation is encounterable
As long as your by my side,
we have climbed mountains
And burried ourselves deep,
Yet still remained connected
In the most vulernable way,
I love you more than what
the moon and stars are able to hold,
Every day allows us another journey
Not a moment with you shall
ever go to waste
458 · Feb 2014
Broken Permanently
Madison McCray Feb 2014
eaten by depression
guided through redemption
passed on by selection
felt the immense of rejection

the two shall compare
you've put me in despair
refrained from prepare
rules were made unfair

sided by the lonely
I've been waiting silently
when then suddenly
I was broken permanently

you wouldn't understand
never offered a helping hand
though now here I stand
filled with pain once again
454 · Aug 2014
Drowning
Madison McCray Aug 2014
I don't know if it was the music
or the thoughts
that this occurred after
but I'm drowning in the water
of my own and the melodies
are washing me away
and as I try to keep ahold of life itself you're pulling me under
like an anchor in the sea
but there is no chain to pull me back just my body fighting the weight
and tide that follows behind
splashing depression
in my face and sending more
emotions up my nose
making it impossible to breath in anything except the pain you kindly handed me
452 · Sep 2015
Untitled
Madison McCray Sep 2015
The bad days keep recycling themselves
Each time i attempt to bandage them up
They turn into stories i put on my shelf
Gathering many the numbers add up
Nightmares follow me into the night
As terrified as i am i hang on tight
i hope and wish that it'll all go away
but there isn't a day without a fight
im losing myself in so many ways
im always repeating that im okay
I have battled this for so many days
maybe its time to admit that im not
its been awhile since i have wrote
pages are piled within my head
if there was a way i could let it all out
tonight i wouldnt make it to bed
443 · Dec 2014
Poetically
Madison McCray Dec 2014
our relationship was built poetically
allowing our deepest thoughts to tear us apart
for I was fragile you touched my soul gently
in hope to save ourselves from future part
together enduring a graveled road
a chance for love was rather difficult
the opportunities came in quite a load
all that failed was at my fault
though your absence was my only fear
I opened the door that let you walk
now glancing back into the mirror
they were my mistakes that you would mock
my love for you has grown to be
more than just a poetic melody
443 · Nov 2014
After Tonight
Madison McCray Nov 2014
I promised myself
I'd let this be the last time
I'd ly between the sheets,
our relationship grew upon
Wearing your T-shirt
And favorite shorts of my own,
dreading over what could have been
I'd stop thinking about
What you're doing now
And realize what I should
Be doing
I won't worry about
The next girl to steal your heart
Or try to bandage
The one you broke
I promised myself
After tonight
Ill change my sheets
And buy new shorts
Ill treasure the future instead
of dread
Ill pick myself up
And I will move on,
After one last night of missing you
439 · May 2015
Untitled
Madison McCray May 2015
With you it's easy
Easy to forget all of the complications
And hardships holding me back
I've been stuck in this hole
For such a long time now
But you're somehow able
To make this hole not seem like
such a hole anymore
It doesn't feel small or compacted
Like the walls go on for an eternity
Above my head
It's all opening up
And life as I want it to be
Is becoming an option
I have found this passion
Deep down inside of me
That told me to just keep climbing
For pain and hurt is inevitable    
See there will come a time
When I'll hurt more than I have today
And that's when
I'll look back at this night
And remember that I decided
For my own sake,
To never stop climbing
And always strive for greatness
Because that's the least
That any of us deserve
426 · Dec 2014
Fire
Madison McCray Dec 2014
How do I escape from this
the fire is rapidly increasing
Just a little dust particle, I am
Waiting for my turn to end
I can feel the heat on my skin,
Panic shows no way out
all that I have come to know,
Is crumbling beneath me now
I have lost all my breath
Every inch has gone up in flames
You were who I chose to save,
you made it out okay
As for I, with nothing left
Turned into a pile of ash
Maybe someday you'll realize that
You're the reason I burned to death
420 · Jun 2015
Apologies
Madison McCray Jun 2015
It was our first real fight that hurt the most. The look in your eyes when you spoke those cruel words and your evil smile that followed. I had never been in such a situation for this time it had been my fault you hurt so badly and I didn't know how to make it stop. You said things that you knew would eat and tear at my skin. You spoke so freely and cold hearted for a handsome one like you. I sat tuned in waiting for the force of your words to send me flying accrossed the room. Little did you know my chest was caving and anxiety gave me no control. I couldn't get out a single word without choking upon the continuous apologies that meant nothing to you. I sat so little in front of your widened structure and muscular arms. You had your own shield made and I was just a little bit of nothing. The power you had drove me insane and I knew then that I was ******* because I have never loved an individual so much that I became vulnerable for their forgiveness. And here I was on my hands and knees begging oh so badly. I told myself I would not allow this to become the ending of us for we have so many more obstacles in life to face and to let this, out of any, tear what we have apart would be foolishness. I do not believe there is any right way to go about this mess I've caused but I'm only hoping this is the best way. I love you dearly and I'm ready for you to come home when you are.
419 · Jun 2014
Without You
Madison McCray Jun 2014
& as the days drag on without you, I continue on my way hoping you'll return.
there is no significance to my train of thought, it is the apprehensive rage that has taken over. the emptiness without you has left me bewildered. you were my refuge from the life I now live & since you've left there are no more escapes. you've concealed yourself away from me & my happiness went with you. I no longer know how to pretend I'm doing fine without you. i miss you so much
419 · Sep 2014
Life Without You
Madison McCray Sep 2014
I'm at a loss of words
each and every time
I try to write about you
you have complete control
over all emotion
in my body
I crave your love
more than any addiction
I've come to known
there's something about you
that I attach myself to
an unbreakable connection
I'm falling for oh so quickly
because
life without you
doesn't seem to be an option
but if it were to end that way
all rapture would be destroyed
my body more fragile
than before
and all this time I'd wish
I'd spent it with you more
396 · Jul 2014
Addiction
Madison McCray Jul 2014
if I could down your words like a bottle of ***** at three am or use your terrible punch line to throw at my wall instead of my hand i would write your story along the lines of my liver and trace your response upon every knuckle. and if there was a way I could remove the pain from your past instead of the blood from my wrists and inhale every cigarette so that you would stop, you'd have no memory left of what has happened and I would have smoked my life away days ago. but because I cannot do these things, my level of addiction becomes very hard to express and I hope you come to realize that you are my bottle of ***** at three am, hand being thrown at the wall, ****** wrists, and pack of cigarettes. if you believe that I have become an addiction, imagine how addicting you are to me.
392 · Sep 2014
Hours of Daylight
Madison McCray Sep 2014
I never knew
the anger within my own
would find itself escaping
into the hours of daylight
when it's always hid
my feelings
are switching poles on me
where they used to be nocturnal
now I can not manage being awake
to walk these halls alone
my feet have become the most fragile part of my whole
and I cannot carry on
because dear
I am breaking without you
379 · Nov 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Nov 2014
I don't know when my feelings
Amounted to the level they are now
Or when such curiosity
turned into an absolute factor
In my every day life, but
Suddenly sunshine turned into snow
And I caught myself falling
In love with the cold
Long sweaters became my
Daily attire
And hot chocolate turned into
The liquor my body craved
I found warmth entangled
Within my sheets
And comfort in the lining
Of my walls
There's something about the way
Candles flicker
and cinnamon smells in winter
that sings home sweet home
louder than any boom box
Could play
367 · Jun 2014
'Its A Good Morning'
Madison McCray Jun 2014
maybe if I relax my tongue before I fall asleep it will slowly fall back into my throat & suffocate me until I reach my death. for without you there is no reason to live any longer. the communication is in such lack & I don't really know if you care anymore. would I be here at 3:32 wondering this if you did? or would you be here to comfort the burning sensation in my chest that arose when you first left.

'its a good morning' you said. as we sat side by side fingers locked together listening to the rain fall upon the windows in my car. little did I know that it may have been the last we spent together.

ironic how the rain just began to fall upon my bedroom window. you see the only sad part about it all is you're not here with me to enjoy this memorable time. perhaps it's a conspiracy that this has happened. you may be laying somewhere else in this small town of troy doing the exact same thing as I am & it's only a sign that our love has become inseparable. or maybe I've just gone insane, but let me tell you something my love, 'it's a good morning'.
364 · Feb 2014
January 1, 2014
Madison McCray Feb 2014
my pains a discretion
Hidden behind depression
Battled through rejection
With little inspiration

overflowing pain
Quite hard to contain
No time to complain
Minds gone insane

Too much dreaming
Caught myself believing
I'm silently screaming
And heavily breathing

Time to clean my slate
Perhaps it's too late
Completely full of hate
Body's in deflate
361 · Sep 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Sep 2014
I can hear your voice inside my head
smell your presence here in bed
memories flooding among the page
please help me through this ******* stage
I miss you more than I did before
you're all I want and even more
so if it's really the end of this
would I be allowed one last kiss
can I hold you another time
remind you that you'll always be mine
forget about the storm tonight
let me hold you close and tight
360 · Jul 2014
Maybe
Madison McCray Jul 2014
so maybe its been awhile since I wrote a couple lines for you but it's also been awhile since I last stole a kiss upon your lips & fell asleep with my ear against your chest or held hands down my road & shared a cigarette between the two of us & maybe it's been a while since I've wrote about it but it's only been a number of seconds since it crossed my mind
360 · Sep 2014
11:11
Madison McCray Sep 2014
it's 11:11 and I have nothing left to wish for
my life has turned into a cascade of broken promises
and a million shutting doors
my walk has become illegible to emotion
along with my filthy writings you seem to love
at times I confuse my dreams with reality
in hope for one to better
I'm living in a nightmare that I cannot awake from
and the thought of that sends chills down my spine
because happiness was the piece of me he shattered
I have only longed for a time of rejoice
but instead found myself emotionally distressed
I now know that even a wish couldn't save me
from the sorrow and pain I feel tonight
Madison McCray Aug 2014
I guess I'll never understand why my body aches and heart feels as if it's gone up in flames. Why something as simple as the sun setting makes me cringe and the thought of you drowns every ounce of emotion I have left onto this ******* page. It's time for me carry the damage that's done and get on with the rest of my life because you've left me to believe that life is as little as you make it out to be and for a girl with high hopes and many heartbreaks before this very one I must go on even if my conscience tells me this is where I belong.
343 · May 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray May 2014
the shame in conversation
why'd i allow myself to ask
could've witnessed an observation
now I'm faced to where my mask
never shall I revile my sane
through times I had been punctured
if it had remained the same
my soul would rest in comfort
disregarding my thoughts alone
an assortment of bad habit
such awful torture had been thrown
devising my pain emphatic
340 · May 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray May 2014
I'll never understand
or grasp ahold to reason
why'd you take my hand
and force me to leave him

Once we made our route
you promised not to tell
though everything is out
I drown in overwhelm

Pushed down underneath
my lungs are being filled
I didn't mean to breathe
but I couldn't remain still

You are the hands holding down
wishing that I'd die so soon
if I weighed less in pound
I'd be gone after a single tune

I'm sorry that I'm fighting
it's a force of bad habit
if I could control my act
I'd choose not to fight it

I'd let you drown me now
forever taking my soul
make you take a bow
for you accomplished my only goal
335 · Jun 2014
5:00 AM
Madison McCray Jun 2014
I guess some people just really don't understand what it's like to be in love & how one can take complete control over your mind & you not be able to do a **** thing about it but lay there at 4:54 in the morning & write about it because they're consuming so much of your soul you forget what sleep is but you continue on & let it happen because you think that's what's best for you & you havnt yet realized that the someone you are giving all of your time too is asleep right now & you havnt crossed their mind since the morning they left your house but the one time they decided to send you a message as to why they couldn't talk & it breaks your heart to hear but you still go on begging for them all at once until you look back at the time & notice it's now 5:00 in the morning & you're still writing & they're still sleeping with no connection in between expect for this stupid run on sentence that they'll never come to read.
330 · Dec 2014
Three AM
Madison McCray Dec 2014
it's three am that I hate most,
a time where all my feelings
drain from my sinful soul,
allowing the darkness to retrieve it's way back into the vast space,
when memories flood the page
and my chest caves from
the damage you've done to my heart,
three am is the time where my life
falls out of place
and I loose control of all emotion,
my mind is screaming and heart is racing
I hope and dream for any way out
but I'm stuck living in the everlasting hole my chest occupies
that continuously swallows me in
night by night,
always at three am
317 · Feb 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Feb 2014
the only good is in my past,
my present is a gift from hell,
resembling a time of fast
torturing myself in overwhelm
drowning within my flesh
razor seized a bit too deep
holding onto what is left
remind me to get some sleep
dreaming holds me back
though life pushes forward
happiness had been attacked
my pain is being hordered
let the darkness steal my soul
vanish without remembrance
guide the burier to a hole
let alone to walk the entrance
317 · Feb 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Feb 2014
those who choose to ask
perhaps they often wonder
how come I always laugh
my pain is hidden under

I never quite find
a time to reassure
if I were to lie
would you be insure

no one understands
they all disagree
someone take my hand
pull me from this misery

slowly was abandoned
the pain in who I miss
perhaps it was mistaken
it shouldn't be like this
315 · Jan 2014
December 28, 2013
Madison McCray Jan 2014
Minds drifting away
Running from my soul
Passing through the days
Body's lost control
Dripping from the flesh
Released from my vein
Catching ahold my breath
Falling for the pain
307 · Nov 2014
Together
Madison McCray Nov 2014
We both agreed on
An apartment in the city
Where we'll be able
to full fill a lifetime,
Together
Reaching every want and need
The two of us shall encounter
having time left to get lost
In the ocean of experience
mixing my love with yours
in a blender of rejoice
because that's all I've ever wanted
Just you and the city
304 · Feb 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Feb 2014
he's different
different in a way of matter
reaching out into my soul
grasping ahold such pain
mournful and retrieving
in such a way
I shall never truly understand
it's like
living among the dead
or
being buried underneath
a wave crashing over
on and on the tide escapes
though my love for you
will never be replaced
298 · Feb 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Feb 2014
take my breath
swallow me hole
bring me death
replace my role
cut my wrists
pass the pills
please end this
one last ****
279 · Jun 2014
Summer
Madison McCray Jun 2014
summer is amazing. I love the smell of fresh air & being able to lay out in the sun absorbing all of life itself. riding down back country roads listening to music as loud as I possibly can. going to bonfires & enjoying every moment you get bc you only get the opportunity to live once. I love watching the stars at night & wondering who's looking up at the same sky as I am thinking the same thing I am. or what someone else is doing half way around the world. i love running my fingers through the grass & going swimming late at night. I love getting so caught up in the mid of love, you forget what else exists.
277 · Jul 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Jul 2014
I've been handed the guilt without a choice like my mom was handed the news paper every Sunday morning, though instead of my words appearing in thin neat print they're scrambled a crossed this ******* page that each of my tears has stricken tonight. my words are crumpled and frayed soon to be burning in the pit of my stomach where you never had the chance to sit. but like the fire already started, my mind is spinning through the constellation of my own and seeping it's way into the black hole that i planted upon my wrists the night when my insomnia was at it's worse and you were lost in you're own fantasy. though I wish I could say the same the only thing lost in me were my thoughts about the two of us because they escaped somewhere between chasing the North Star and coming to find my smile on the moon.
274 · Jun 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Jun 2014
nobody will ever compare
you've left your mark on me
a scar I have to wear
where once you held me sleep
though tonight I lie awake
wishing you were here
no more smiles for me to fake
I have released my first tear
if you were to see me now
I wonder how you'd react
would you feel bad for how
you lied to disguise the fact
or would you carry on
vanishing out of sight
dragging yourself along
wishing you had said goodnight
268 · Aug 2014
You
Madison McCray Aug 2014
You
You're something so mysterious and I haven't quite figured out why I crave your every inch so much but I can never seem to get enough of you and if I had the chance I'd hold you in my arms instead of my conscience during the hours at night where talking to you became a habit and so did the scrawls that followed in your shadow.
265 · Jul 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Jul 2014
pain has sank into the crevices of my soul & left me drowning because every bone in my body is traced with your name. melodies are screaming and I wish I was bleeding. I'd allow myself to drown from blood but not the weight of your name along the curve of my spine. my eyes are puffy and inside deflated. I've cried every ounce of water in my system and am expecting to die of dehydration while sailing my way out of this world in a river of tears of my creation. my insomnia has only grown worse and watching the sun rise every morning has become a tradition of bad habit because I dread for the hours of daylight where I can pretend I'm okay and draw a smile upon my face that is slowly becoming less innocent to the naive and more rebellious by the minute. but even pretending can go so far before you're entire fantasy comes crashing down and you're standing in the aftermath wondering, where the hell did I go wrong.
264 · Nov 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Nov 2014
Perhaps I'm not the only
who fears what I'll become
Has anyone else considered
Their plan is already done
A destiny chose for them
One they'll never truly know
It won't be until the end
When they are answered yes or no
Subconsciously I am lost
Afraid of being ******
with all the luck my soul has claimed
I'll chose the path that's wasn't planned
256 · Jul 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Jul 2014
I'm trying to explain but nothing's coming out and it's like my tongue is cramped and fingers twisted, though i continue to think I know exactly what I'm trying to say. my words are running off the page and weaving around my mind that was left untrained for the hours of dark where I let you in. you've been resting in the pit of my stomach where I used to fill with ice cream every evening until you slowly turned into the desert that I'm craving. you've taken away the obtuse nostalgia inside my own constellation where I wrote your name many times before. you're the North Star I see in the sky when I've lost all hope and I'm the smile on the moon looking right back at you.
255 · Aug 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Aug 2014
I grew up believing time would heal any heart break or tragedy that life threw my way but as I lay here tonight I can feel the ticks in every second eating at my skin. This is not a stage of repair, for I am in the middle of destruction. I took every apology you had to give as a slap in the face, only to later on be asked why I held a shade of blue in my tone of color. I blamed the coldness of the weather instead of your heart.
232 · Jul 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Jul 2014
I find every **** thing about you so intriguing & I want to dive right in filling every lost or forgotten bit of your unkept soul. I want you to chose love over lust & find that curiosity is what controls the minds & to know that the power of the mind is so incredible & precious. it holds every invention possible to man in this entire beautiful creation. though millions of things have not yet been unfolded. but what I also want you to know is that the mind is what created my love for you. every time I steal a glance upon your handsome face endorphins are released into my ongoing mind making me fall harder & harder every **** second. you're overtaking my own & I'm not sure if I should let it be or try to fight it off but baby you are so powerful. you are what keeps me going you see. this love is contagious & right now you have my hormones going crazy begging for you all at once. may I ask how you became so metaphorically delicious? how can one fall so hard for another they lose all ambition to do anything except produce more love for them? you have extended my mind into this vast place that is oh so fond & inviting. you have showed me what love really is & I shall never take anything you do or say for granted. I will cherish every second I get with you because I would never want it any other way. & though you will never come to read this I only wish the best for you & what your future holds in front of you because I have never loved anything or anyone as much as I love you
227 · Jul 2014
Untitled
Madison McCray Jul 2014
I'll never understand why you crinkle your nose when you're unsure about something, gaze around when you don't know what to say, shove your hands in your pockets when you're nervous, press your lips together when you know I'm right, look at me when the situation is uncomfortable, say you don't care when that's all you care about, shame on what you love most, beg for me when you are intoxicated, lie to hide how you truly feel, ignore me when you know you've messed up, tighten your jaw when you're embarrassed, say absolutely nothing when you wish to say a million, walk away when you want to stay, come up with excuses to cross paths once more, smile and look down slightly when you're feeling flattered, pretend to believe that I don't know you like the back of my hand.

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