A little darker still
I like to think of light

A tinge, a flicker, a thought, a scope
something-  I need to ignite

I like to think about the sea
and the rebirth she represents

all my air- inside these lungs
filled with things I dreamt

the air is salty as well,
just like the rushing below

I sit, I peer, I pray, I hope
the tide won't let me go

I want to believe in the every
even when I cant

Darker than Emily herself
who notices the slant

the wall's not dark
not muted in depth
not pitch enough to squint

but still it seems- I cannot bear
to see what I have left

the distance won't be fun
i think we both know that
but if you're really going
please, dear god, come back

I can hear the train from my window,
I keep hoping you're on it.
Call me up, I'll buzz you in ,
I'm in my heart-shaped locket.

I don't do this
I'm not super cool with vulnerability
but I think that I like you

Sometimes I pre-write my texts in the notes app
only when it's risky
hey, here's the thing,
I know that I like you

I don't know how this will go
that's whats so scary
all i want right now is for you to say
hey, I think I like you

that'd be good enough for me

I think about you
all the time
but what if thinking is the only part i'm good at

and to be fair,
i'm not even totally convinced that thinking is my strong point
because every time i wait for a reply
i'm convinced it won't come

i'm scared, i don't like wanting to hear-
your thoughts, your voice, your words
but i can't help it