When I enter that state
It becomes hard to wait
To see the colors all fade away
Into something so beautiful
It's like staring into the sun
The day had already begun
And you've seen everything before
But now it's so different
You've melted away the colors
And brought out something even more magnificent

Hiding in plain sight
Is better than hiding in black and white
Because putting on a mask
Can prevent you from doing the task
That you were sent out to do
Because you stand out when your blue
And people can recognize
That there's something going  on inside
That you've covered up with plaster
Because you've become the master
At hiding your feelings deep inside
Where you think they will not find
The thoughts you store away
That will haunt you another day
So you're left to make a choice
To either speak up so they can hear your voice
Or hide within a crowd
And if it gets too loud
Mumble something that they can not hear
In hopes someone is near
To see what's deep inside
So you can finally take off your mask
And focus on the task
You've been destined to complete all along

******* in the air and filling up your lungs
Then letting it stay there as your tongue becomes numb
A slight dizziness arises in your head
And the feeling of your heartbeat as you lay in bed
A slight queasiness in your stomach
A tickle of your throat
And soon you have the sensation that you're about to float
A slight rise of panic
A simple yet complex thought
Then you exhale and the feeling is still caught
In the pit of your stomach until you catch your breathe
And the feeling is gone until your dying death

They shine bright like a star in the sky
Your hair is bold and calming like a cool autumn day
Your words are refreshing and you speak with a subtle tone of wonder
And your laugh is those of a thousand singing birds
When you smile it fills my stomach with butterflies
And your cherry red hair reminds me of the cherry tree we used to sit under and laugh at all the little things we loved

I'm slowly deteriorating into space
All I can see as I'm going is your face
Plastered up against the wall
Hidden on every hall in my mind
Your voice stretches to the sky
Telling me that I should try
Try to stay alive for what it's worth
That I've been surviving since birth
It'd be a shame to quit now
When all the voices ring loud
To tell me that I'm alright
Even if I get a fright
I can keep on living this life
And I can ignore the knife
That's implanted in my back
Because of the love you lack
My mind is now a racetrack
That goes all the way to the moon & back
And I keep repeating  laps

As the world hands me the presents I forget to wrap
Because you forgot to close the door
In hopes that you would lure
Away all the lies you've fed to me
In hopes that I would see
How different we are
Because you've got beauty and I've got scars
Left on the inside of my mind
Because someone was so unkind
As to leave these lies inside  
So now I'm just dreading the ride
Around this track of broken hopes
Because someone tied these ropes
Around my neck in hope that I would think it was love
And as I walk around the track once more
It's very hard to ignore
The knife cabinet with a wide open  door
That's now open to explore