You know when you go and you ride a roller coaster for the first time?
You're not completely sure you want to go
You're scared
So you bring someone with you and you enjoy it
You enjoy sharing that experience of pain and joy and absolute terror
But this roller coaster is the one
That is only goes upside down
Then it has a flip
That came out of nowhere
And suddenly
You're right side up
And you question it
Its been going the other way for so long
Your perception is altered to be so different
And you hit a stop
And the next time you scream you're actually right side up
Seeing things for how they actually are
Smiles are frowns
Frowns are smiles
And you're lost
So you look around on your roller coaster of fate and you see someone
And they’re glorified
They’re the angel that got you off your never ending roller coaster
And you get attached a bit too much
You expect things that aren't there
Then they leave
****.
Gone.
And once again
You're back on that roller coaster
Alone
And you don't know what to do
So you repeat that cycle
Over
And over
And over and over
And I want to find someone to share it with me
Or I don't want to be on it anymore

I am a City.
Vivid.
Strong.
Taking all the footsteps,
One by one,
Tire tracks burning my face,
And all the nothing people
Will soon take me to be.

I think of all my pitted surfaces
Broken again and again,
Hastely mended each time
So they could only break me again.

I feel the fire,
Trembeling rock,
And jets of water pounding against my pores.
The nothing I will soon be is fast approaching.

I slowly fall,
Unnoticed and uncared for.

Bit by bit,

THUMP.

A crew to fix me.

THUMP.

A little glue here and there.

THUMP.

Some cement should make it alright.

They walk by ,
Seeing me fall apart
They tell me to pull myself together,
And I give them a small nod.

But I cant anymore.
All the cracks have gone too deep this time,
For a little glue to fix me.

But I have to.
I’ve done it for a while now
Haven’t I?