Simplicity of ones self
Struck by confusion when you can not justify your own doing
I vowed to love you but love is not taking away everything you knew
I spoke the truth yet my body betrayed my words
The warmth fades and Im consumed by the storm
Hurricane warnings travel my veins yet Im already ten feet under
I vowed to be the best person I could for you
Perplexed by the thought that this may be it
Without your arms around me I am less
The sun sets and the darkness feels familiar
Star gazing seemed like nothing but a late night marathon
You were my bridge and I smashed until a meteor shower of concrete struck
Distance isn't a friend but I craved companionship
I am sure of us as I am the sun rising

I always said that I could never fall for someone in one night
But your eyes felt like home and I longed to be wanted
I tried to hold on to the rush but it shattered in my grip
The feelings i felt, weren't mine to be felt
You dropped her like a bag of bricks you could no longer carry
But I looked at your strong hands and didn't understand
Falling in love became a reality when I hit the ground crying
Trying to keep my breath hostage though it cries to be set free
But I fear letting go of your subtle fragrance
Flashbacks falling to the ground
Blurred image of your hand grasping another that does not belong to me
I always believed we were crafted so that only our hands fit
Led to confusion by the way your hand warms my whole body
The past can not be changed similar to the way a mind can not be fooled
Hypnotized by first but all I want is seconds with you
A second to sit in silence
Stuck in rewind but I thirst to pause this moment
I taste guilt but blood is thicker than water
She was only a house and I felt a home within his skin
My mind is consumed with thoughts of you
Great decisions didn't come without a couple sips of regret
Change has become my best friend
And your worst will come before your best.

Remorse has never been my speciality
and emotions feel like something I used to know.
But you broke the ice when your hand touched mine
and I melted when our eyes met.
Ive never been one for close contact
and when you left I was only a puddle
and it suddenly all made sense.
You were the summer and I craved you.
But winter has always been my favourite season and it should of been a warning.
You tried so hard to get close to me
but I ran through your fingers until there was nothing left
and now you are gone
and now I am nothing.
Thats the thing about the cold
everyone adores the snow
until they need something
or someone
to keep them warm.
I tried to be mad but its hard to spark a flame when you're ten feet under.
A blanketed lawn so delicate yet so harsh
no matter how lightly you glide upon it you cant leave it undamaged.
Un pure and outspoken.
I built a wall so high and your rays shone through the cracks to keep me company.
But you got tired of being there for no one.
If only you knew I was trying to save you
If only you knew what I did
The harsh frost would only **** your flowers
and I couldn’t be responsible for the death of something so beautiful
And now I am stuck somewhere between love and lust
But I can barely see the difference now that its dark
I'm in a blizzard
And I don't know if you hurt me or I hurt myself
I covered up your tracks so fast I never discovered what was under the ice
Now I must plant my own garden and become my own warmth
But the thought of you chills me to the bone
I don't know how much longer I can take this
But I crave you
I crave spring
When the frozen grass and blooming flowers can exist as one
When time passes so slowly and nothing has ever felt so alive
I crave the vulnerability and bareness
and the sweetness of your lips
and I crave you