Maddie Lane

Maddie Lane Oct 2013

Hate

Your hatred burns,
so young yet so easy to hate.
I can only trust you as far as I can throw you
(I'm weak so that's not very far)
You think you know life,
I understand.
I was your age once,
but I realized the err of my ways and changed them.
Saw who was bringing me down and cut them out,
why can't you do the same?
I reminisce on times when you were small and we would do as sisters do,
hide under covers,
play pretend games,
laugh.
I understand you are the innocent angel that I once thought,
but that doesn't have to mean you have to be the devil.
Time apart gives me time to reflect,
see what I have been doing wrong
(which is a lot)
but maybe you should do the same.

Maddie Lane Oct 2013

Sorry (10w)

All I wanted was romance,
sorry it was asking too much.

Maddie Lane Sep 2013

Lonely.

The monotony of life makes me crave interaction-
a conversation, a hug, even a smile will suffice.
Cold shoulders can only be defended against for so long before you start to shiver.
A small ache for a warm conversation soon turns to a sharp pain.
Nighttime goes by,
moments when you reminisce of times there was someone to hold you,
it all seems so long ago.
Reminders of love visiting again are great,
but it seems so far away.
How lonely can one person get in a matter of days?

Maddie Lane Sep 2013

?

In the whirlwind that is the city,
is it strange that I ache for you to be with me?
I'm surrounded by people,
but I wish to be with those who know me best.

Tired eyes tell me to rest,
my brain tells me to resist.
Which do I listen to?

Do I venture back out,
into the life of the city?
Or do I settle down for the night,
and pick up a book?

Maddie Lane Aug 2013

Crazy

I don't know what to call it.
I've never had a shortage of feelings.
Anger runs rapid in my brain, continues on until it hits a wall,
and gives up.
Sadness lurks behind every corner,
waiting to make an appearance in my day,
waiting to see what it can do to me.
Happiness attempts to be prevalent,
it shines its pretty face,
tries to fight of the others.
It's a whirlwind of feelings in my mind.
I'm sorry,
I can't help it,
I don't know what to say anymore.
There is no excuse,
but I was never taught how to fight off all the feelings.

Maddie Lane Aug 2013

What

What is love?
Why are we so quick to define?
Love takes time.
Like a plant,
it needs sunlight and water,
needs to be cared for a nurtured.
I've been saying it's love for a long time,
when is it strong enough to be defined?

Maddie Lane Aug 2013

New York

It was a test,
I wasn't sure if we would pass.
Roles reversed,
I thought I would be the bad guy,
call it quits after all we've made it through.
That's not the case.
I just want you here with me,
I want you by my side,
on these busy streets,
of the city that never sleeps,
I want you with me in New York.