From a young age
Younger than I should have been
I have suffered
My anxiety didn’t let me go out with friends
My depression didn’t want to.
My ADHD made school impossible.
And kickstarted my OCD.
But I kept all that to myself
So I was unable to burden those around me
I suffered everyday
And I thought I wanted it to go away
It’s all been with me for so long
People tell me it’ll make me strong
Could that be why I don’t want to let go
Why now that I have the chance
I can’t seem to stop feeling like I’ll be alone?
They are my monsters
But they are my company
They’re inside my head
I can’t imagine, what will I be?
When they’re not a part of me?
Who am I then, when my mask is so deep
And gets ripped out, exposing me?
I made my mask for others
Good enough.
But not so good they would stay.
Who did stay?
My monsters, my demons,
Call them what you may.
They stayed my whole life.
Do I want them to go away?

We really do overlook the simple things
When people tell us
To stop
And smell the roses,
Maybe we should

Because I have finally realized
How the smallest things
Overcome me
With joy
Now that I have learned to appreciate them

The first sip of chocolate milk
On a cloudy morning,
Washing your hands
Then feeling the air chill them.
The smell of my Mimi’s perfume,
It doesn’t smell great
But it smells like her.
When the harmony on a piano,
Is just right.
And when the sun is too bright
To open your eyes
But you have nothing else to do
But soak it in.

With all the troubles
that burden us throughout life
The best way to overcome
Is by taking in the little things
One by one
Loving them more each day
As they bring the times before trouble
Back to us
Or help us to forget
Just for a moment
That there is anything more
Than that feeling
Of whatever your simple may be.