There's a hole in my heart, and I have shunned my feelings because of it, to block the pain of being slowly eaten away by it,
This deep, colorless, white hole,
Not black because black is not evil white is,
It is white for that's how empty it is,
It is a colorless void that eats away at me everyday,
And one day will consume me, wholly,
I will disappear in this hole that eats away at my heart, and what's left of my soul,
I am scared,
Not scared of my colorless fate, and eternal loneliness, I am scared that you'll be there to comfort me, and that I'll be forced to feel again.

I am a victim of life,
Of tragic love,
Of hateful words that form in your mouth,
I am a victim of war,
Of sickness,
And death,
I am a victim of your love,
Of my love too,
I am a victim of all these things, and I deserve them too, but don't pity me, for you're a victim too.

Gravity weighs on me,
Pulling me down,
And why I look above me, is to not look at the ground,
My dreams are scattered ashes,
My heart, it weighs me down,
It's the heaviest thing on me,
And it pulls me to the ground,
My hopes are breaths of fresh air,
But there isn't that much around,
And sometimes I think, "what's up there?"
Sadly I'll never find out,
These word you put on my shoulders weigh me down,
Pretty,
Smart,
Wonderful,
Loving,
They expect me to live up to this, but how to do that when they weigh me down?
With these words, this heart and gravity weighing me down,
How am not in the ground?

Snow it falls in brisk of night
A light from afar
Candles in the night
Distain bells
Eyes wide open
Burning burning bright
If only for one night
A song a song
Not silent for long
But then silent again
Silent night my friend

In the rainforest where none can see I wander and wait for thee
I shall not tell how I got to thee
For it is frightful
The journey for me  
I am the wanderer the shadow the dark
The night runs cold my tears are silver  in the moonlight
I did not reach thee I did not see ones face
I wonder will my journey end
Will I find thee or will I just wander through day an night with sleepless eyes with no light
Will I reach thee
Or is this the end
Is this the end my friend
I did not reach thee
I did not stay
I went and got away
I did not reach thee
I did not say
'Do you love me do you feel this way '
Why didn't I say it why didn't I tell  
I did not reach thee
I must fade so now I say
I did not reach thee I hope you find me
I hope you know that I tried but
I did not reach thee
I hope you see
I did not reach thee love I did not reach.    

(Did you reach for me)

You set your sights for thy sea
The breeze cold I wait for thee
Not a word no good bye
Tis my heart beats for thy
Though I hoped I could reach thy hand out to thee
I see now you do not wait for me
Tis maybe we are to far apart for me to reach thee
I still want to know did you love me
Drown in pitiful sorrow my love
Stomp out this flame with your words of hate
Tis bound to destiny
We are
Fate
Dream of all that is still
For that is all that can ****
Dream of love that is still
Not ours to keep so
Drown an
Sleep

Though covered by heavens light
I fall out and scream in the brisk  of night
My wings spread out and take flight
I am a black bird in the brisk of night
I see nothing my black heart beats
I do not dream for nightmares creep
My black hair so thick and long it could be mistaken for the night itself
Eyes like blood but more like something else
My black heart beats with no steady beat with every lifeless breath I take I wait for it to stay
I scream in twilight's light
I scream until the brisk of night
I am a angel in twilight's light
But in the brisk of night
I am a black bird ready to take flight