M Leinie

Apr 2014

In need of a Friend

Dear "friend",

you see my pain from when you left,
you never gave me a reason.. or a goodbye.
I have yet to over come my feelings, my hurt,
but most of all, I have yet to over come you.
It's like when I see you, my heart stops,
just by the thought of what was once there.
You had me wrapped around your little finger,
but for some reason you didn't want me there.
I'm not sure what I did wrong....
I'm not sure if you really know how I felt about you,
your family, your smile, your laugh....you....
while I sit here I regret not asking you.
But it's far to late to ask for a reason why you left,
and it is far to late to ask you to care.
But Dear "Friend", please just know;
I wish you were there.

M Leinie May 2013

Desire

Dig down to the simplest part,
The core of any human
From America, Germany, Brazil or Spain
Australia, Uganda, Russia or China
Anywhere you go,
One thing can only be unveiled
That is a great desire.
The desire of food
From every stomach
Calling, searching for just one bite.
The desire for warmth
Without it we lie limp, helpless and meek.
And the strong desire of love
The basis to push off
What supplies the thirst of strength.
Together we are all alike with these needs
We would travel any distant, any obstacle
Just for a sliver of what we all, desire.

M Leinie May 2013

The Answer

When it all comes tumbling down
You need someone to lean on
When it all comes tumbling down
You need someone for answers
When it all comes tumbling down
You need a helpful hand
When it all comes tumbling down

A good friend is the answer

M Leinie May 2013

Look Out

It might come
You'll never know when,
And not even why
One day it will just be there
Fear and all
It will swarm your whole body
And pressure your mind
Nothing can function.

I warn you, look out.

If you don't,
There it will be resting
silent
but deadly,
right on your shoulder
Look out!

M Leinie May 2013

Why?

The information came,
Quick and sudden,
In layers it clouds my mind of all brightness,
A layer of desolation
And one of despair,
Spinning, twisting, and turning about,
Confusion, bitterness, and fear,
So many more
I cannot count.
Why? Why does it have to be?
The ache, the pain, is too deep
My tears flow freely,
Bringing no relief,
Nothing can, nothing will,
erase this sorrow.
Why? Why does it have to be?

M Leinie May 2013

I am the One

I am the one who waited, and still waits.
I am the one who never lost hope
I stayed and trusted
that someday you would return
I am the one who wishes
that it still could be.

I am the one with memories scrolling through my mind
I cannot forget and I will not forget,
No matter how much I may try
I am the one who needs it back
as I look backwards everyday.

I did not leave you in a flash
I did not betray every promise we made
I did not crush you or break you
Instead I am the one who was crushed
I kept my loyalty even after I was ruined
Even after I was abandoned.

I am the one who cherishes every moment we had
I am the one who needs it back
I still believe, even though it's hopeless
I am the one who still tries, proving my loyalty

I do not wish our memories never happened
And I do not pretend they didn't
I am the one who wishes the ending did not come.
But I do not regret my choices
I am the one who regrets yours
I am not the one to hate you.

I am the one who misses you.

The strongest friendship gone into a haze of nothing.

— The End —