HOMYGAWD
Your ears are burning
And I can smell the flesh

I never expected you to leave
But you never wanted what's best

There's comfort in silence
And comfort with your body

Back to flesh
And burning
We are
On fire

And I've never been hungrier for red
Meat me in the middle
And I'll meat you south

I've never been one for letting out ***** laundry
(**** lingerie)
But here we go, and there we were

And here I am
Searching for something else
Grasping at straws
And praying for a better way
Or the way that's most proper

You've made a monster

Cut
Incision
Sternum to groin

Let's do it
Real life
Show the ***** in my *****

Horror, telepathy
Let's ***** with the audience

New wave movies, man
Let's  film abhorrence

I had a dream last night
A nightmare is more apropos.

I lost my virginity in a fit of depression
And never cared then after

But I lost it to you
And you were enamored with me

And every time I looked in your eyes
I saw longing,
I saw desire

And I returned none of that
Before and after

I left you to be used by a beast
That had so secretly fed upon and destroyed my soul

I could not bear to see you in pain
So I withheld my secrets
And I let you keep looking
For a love that I , secretly, never gave

I used you.
-
And then I awoke,
and felt absolute heartbreak
for I dreamt of the man
I have always feared becoming.

Onomatopoeia
Hello, my name's Rena
I built the walls if the seven seas
Just so I could meet ya

I destroyed the cavalcade
Of masses
Just so we could be
Together

Nevermore
Will I bore you with rhymes
And prose
And nothingness

Alive awaiting
Shepherds gaiting
Soft Un-physicality
Awaiting these old bones
Post mortem

And with every ******* word you spit
I knew you buried the shovel further
And further into that ****** dirt
Just hoping someday that you’d cover yourself
And all your worries with the **** you’d flung to the sky
And it’d bury you
And it’d bury you
And it’d bury you

Dearest, how good it is to see you.
Remember the “I love you”?
I meant it; I still do
But love changes
And so have you,
And being honest
I have too.
So where does that leave us?
I’m asking tú
Because, being honest:
I’ve no idea what to do.

You’re married now
Were married, how?
Where did you go for
so long?
I heard he was a replacement
You decided on engagement
And your wedding was the
happiest day of your life.

I’m happy for you,
I was, am, and still do have joy seeing you
But now I’m wondering
What in the world to do…
Now that you’re asking me to be with you.

Let's drink
Libations

Whiskey and Gin
Expectations

And everything that flows forth
When the drinks spill, pour

She looked
This way

I tried, my best,
to play

The game

Let's flirt
Play in the dirt
We can be nature
Let's be mature
And do what mommy and daddy do on vacation

He draws lines in the corner of the page
Creating what could be a rectangle
Though the sketchiness of each line
Told a differing story
And as he angled his pencil
He filled the "rectangle" in
Scraping graphite against paper
He scraped
and scraped
and scraped
Searching for therapy within each stroke
Once his job was done
His quest completed
He left feeling different
but whether that was positive or otherwise
was yet to be discovered.

There's a plethora of albums in my mind
And a good deal weighing on my heart

My brain desires fluctuation
Bipolar fixations based around emotion
And Unicorns with rainbows on blue,
wearable ocean

And everything is a microcosm
seemingly inconsequential
When looked at solely from
the view of entrusting it to You
And all the fear that rides the
coattails of such a decision.

I'm drunk off emotional musicians and vitamin water
Too much vitamin C and musical wrist slitting
Too inappropriate?
I'm not going to ask for forgiveness.

Get the **** out of the car
I don't care if we're going 90 miles down the road
If I said I wanted you out
I want you out

This is pure *******
Uncommitted
Unfiltered
Unwanted
Accept the three you's
And learn to accept me.
It's like how to wrongs don't make a right
But three rights make a left

Disney Cartoons that no-one enjoys
Put your hands in the air
One more round of exotic-bird bingo

Bury me deep in the ground with a ******* *****.
Leave me nothing but a tombstone
Inscribed
"Here lies a self-righteous *******.
Always thought his **** was better than
Everyone else's."

Did I ever tell you,
I stole my best friend's girlfriend?
And then broke her heart on her birthday?
I'm a ******' joke.

I'm not even rhyming anymore
It's not like I care.
There's no form here
My soul laid bare

Play with me a bit.
I'm here, so **** me.

Soothing lyrics whispered into ears of babes
Drowning in bath water.
I haven't talked a while
To my father's daughter.
I just hurt myself with my own rapier wit
Cutting goes both ways
I'll admit.

****, this poem stings
Coming off a lyrical ******
Called this the right ****
But my alignment's off-center.

I was going to write something
But my mind turned desert
For there was nothing fruitful to say
And the fount from which I drank
Ran dry

Wander into the forest,
And mice will greet your feet

Wander into the city
There's homeless in the street

Wade into the water
There's fish awaiting you presence

Wade into the thought
And experience your own absence

Drifting
Ever so slowly
Around You
Me
Drifting
Ever so slowly
Around Me
You
Drifting
Ever so slowly
Closer
Closer
Closer
You//Me
Me\You
Closer
Closer
Closer
Drifting
Ever so slowly
Coming
Ever so close
Until one of us collides
Creating a fiery inferno
That ingulfs
You//Me
Me\You
Flame