Sometimes, what I really want
Is to be engulfed in silence
To blink, and open my eyes
Greeted by nothingness
Just gentle nothingness
I'd blink
Close
Open
Eyes
And still
Nothing
And I'd just sit there
Silence holding my everything
Caressing flesh
And allowing nothing to pierce my thoughts and hearing
Save for whatever I decide to allow
I'd see nothing
No one
Ne'er a voice nor another body
Sometimes, I wish to be engulfed by silence
And allow it to become my everything
I'd finally have time to cry
To decompress
To allow every pain that I've experienced
Every frustration
Every curiosity
Every emotion
To be released
And once I'd done mine,
I'd ask for yours
And if you'd let me,
I'd throw all your pain into the silence
And we'd never hear from it again
The silence
For if one allows engulfment for too long
One truly must face self
And this I assure you
Insanity follows
Without others
Without Him
Without friends, families, lovers, strangers, acquaintances, enemies, bosses, & coworkers
Silence is nice
But I'm glad I am where I am
Because I can wish for silence
Desire engulfment
But secretly be so blessed,
That while I wish
I do not truly desire.