if the law can take away my humanity, then the law has no right to take anything from me.

I'm ready. Any day now, we can begin.

I heard him call you soft and I agreed but I hated him for it

I am a piece of metal
hammered and bent by everyone I meet
I am... wait, haven't I written about this before?

we're all messes

just watch

is it just me or is the sky falling piece by piece

what am I *doing

Lord, I am tired of working
how long do I have to hold my back upright
before I have permission to lay down?

I found that, in the midst of my panic,
I only saw one person who would be capable of reassuring me
only one person with whom I would trust
my knowledge and passing into the great beyond
only he would make sense of it and guide me into that journey
for I knew and I assumed
that he and only he
knew where I was going.

yet again, I have to ask myself,
what am I *doing

who am I kidding?

hey I want to know I'm valued
and your constant barrage of ****
is not helping
and don't tell me it's my fault for not dealing with it
or my fault because that's just how you are
because *******.
my other friends treat me okay
so why the hell can't you?

and I would like to breathe into your lungs

at what point am I asking for it?

The most valuable thing about you is your heart.
Do not neglect it.

but we can't always be perfect, because perfect to ourselves
could still hurt someone else.

I'm scared it's because you read every single one of these and you know I love you and I can't take it back and maybe I'm just imagining it and maybe I'm doing it because I'm trying to tell you but I can't to your face so I write about it in the hope you'll see it but it's not hope exactly because if you find it then it will be bad but at least you'll know and I kind of want to just give you the link and let it be done but what if it destroys what's left of our friendship and what if you already have the link and i have to deal with the fact you've known all along and what if you hate me for it and what if you suspected and what if you care about me too? what if you care about me too?
no you don't. I'm deluding myself and I'll just have to continue because it's illogical to do anything else.

well, why the hell not?

art doesn't have to be beautiful, it has to make you feel something

"Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it... It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more."
-Erica Jong

free your mind, nothing here really matters
you belong somewhere more than this
break your chains and get ready for your life
it's waiting

I am still less than I should be
less than I think I am
and less than anyone deserves

If you're going to do something, you must either do it only once or every single day. Anything you do occasionally is not worth doing at all.

but I don't want to cause any pain

Our ambition should be to rule ourselves, the true kingdom for each one of us; and true progress is to know more, and be more, and to do more.
Oscar Wilde

how long until I have no more safe places

how many things are going to
breathe eternity
before we're done here?

I want a tattoo

everyone keeps telling me
'don't die on me'

...as if I have a choice.

did I ask?

I don't respond well to advice, do I?

I can see it in your eyes

I have always wanted a story-book love
so I have made myself a story-book person

it's just safer
to assume
that it is not me
that is has never been me
and will never be me

but what does my God think of me?

fire that's closest kept burns most of all

fill my cup so that it may runneth over

nope.

you can't google the lessons you can learn from other people.

would it be too late now

what does it mean to be human?

soon, soon, soon, soon, soon
but why not now?

I have 88 days now to remember who I am
and as I walked outside this morning, I smelled it.

“To be Irish is to know that in the end the world will break your heart."

reminds her of the missing piece of innocence she lost

Wake up! Wake up! There's someone who needs you.
Wake up! They deserve you.

my life is so open in front of me.

"Hating is easy. It's loving that's hard."