slow down, we've got time left to be lazy,
all the kids have bloomed from babies
into flowers in our eyes
we've got fifty good years left to spend out in the garden
I don't care, to beg your pardon
we should live until we die.

the whole world is holy
we are all sanctified

no good or bad,
just nice or not nice

so kiss me where I lay down my hands pressed to your cheeks
a long way from the playground- tell me with your mind, body and spirit
I can make your tears fall down like the showers that are british,
whether we're together or apart, we can both remove the masks
and admit we regret it from the start, my hands, your hands, *******
like two ships, drifting, weightless, waves trying to break this,
I'd do anything to save it, you're the raise on the waves that calms
my mind, I don't care what people say when we're together
you know I want to be the one who holds you when you sleep,
nobody knows you, baby, the way I do, nobody loves you, baby, the way I do,
waking up beside you I'm a loaded gun, I can't contain this anymore,
I'm all yours I've got no control, no control, powerless, and I don't
care it's obvious, I can't contain this anymore, I'm all yours I've got
no control, no control, they don't know about the things we do,
they don't know about the I love you's, but I bet you if they only knew
they would just be jealous of us, so can we start it all over again?

I felt the light go out.

sometimes you have to bleed to know
that you're alive and have a soul

I spent my time watchin'
the spaces that have grown between us.
And I cut my mind on second best
or the scars that come with the greenness.
And I gave my eyes to the boredom,
still the seabed wouldn't let me in.
And I tried my best to
embrace the darkness in which I swim.

Now walkin' back down this mountain
with the strength of a turnin' tide.
Oh the wind's so soft on my skin,
the sun so hard upon my side.
Oh lookin' out at this happiness,
I search for between the sheets.
Oh feelin' blind and realize,
All I was searchin' for was me.
Ooh ooh all I was searchin' for was me.

Keep your head up, keep your heart strong
No, no, no, no
Keep your mind set, keep your hair long
Oh my my darlin'
keep your head up, keep your heart strong
No, no, no, no
Keep your mind set in your ways,
keep your heart strong

I saw a friend of mine the other day,
and he told me that my eyes were gleamin'.

Oh I said I had been away, and he knew,
oh he knew the depths I was meanin'.
And it felt so good to see his face
or the comfort invested in my soul.
Oh to feel the warmth of a smile,
when he said "I'm happy to have you home.
Ooh ooh I'm happy to have you home."

Yeah, keep your head up, keep your heart strong.
No, no, no, no
Keep your mind set, keep you hair long.
Oh my my darlin', keep your head up,
keep you heart strong.
No, no, no, no
Keep your mind set in your ways, keep your heart strong

'Cause I'll always remember you the same.
Oh eyes like wild flowers within demons of change

May you find happiness there,
May all your hopes all turn out right.

Keep your head up, keep your heart strong.
No, no, no, no
Keep your mind set, keep you hair long.
Oh my my darlin', keep your head up, keep you heart strong.
No, no, no, no
Keep your mind set in your ways, keep your heart strong.
'Cause I'll always remember you the same.
Oh eyes like wild flowers within demons of change.

diamonds, they fade, flowers, they grow,
I'm telling you, I'm telling you
that diamonds, they fade.

keep your head up,
keep your heart strong,
keep your mind set,
keep your hair long.

all I was searching for was me

just now got the feeling that we're needed for the first time

back to when? what good old days?
the only place to go is forward.

at what point in a man's life does he begin to stand?

some poems, like music, come into play exactly when they are supposed to.

I know what I can do and what would be most
efficient to do, but I cannot ignore God and my soul
*listen to your heart, there's nothing else you can do

we're all so lost, but it is amazing
because in the end, I am found
our blindness will fade and sight will be restored
but even our blindness is beautiful.

some days you're with your friends screaming along to your new favorite song ******* up the words but enjoying it and feeling like you could cry or die or just make pies all day
and some days it's eleven o clock and you're alone in the Applebees parking lot smoking a cigarette on the verge of tears but you won't cry because it's not exactly sad it's just ****** up and nothing is like the movies anymore.

when and at what point did my childhood end?

lost love is sweeter when it's finally found
I've got the strangest feeling
this isn't our first time around

And we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If His grace is an ocean, we're all sinking.
and Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss,
and my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don't have time to maintain these regrets,
when I think about the way that
He loves us, oh how He loves us.

muscle to muscle and toe to toe,
the fear has gripped me, but here I go.

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older?
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know it's gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new?
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was never ending
Wouldn't it be nice?

Maybe if we think, and wish, and hope, and pray, it might come true
Baby, then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy

(Sleep tight oh baby goodnight
Ooh baby sleep tight oh baby)

Wouldn't it be nice?
You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But let's talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice?

am I still what you want

would it be too late now

One day, an abbot pulled a brother who was having some difficulty aside. He said to him, "Look, Brother, I know you are having a hard time right now. I need you to do what I tell you." The brother agreed. So the abbot told him to take a cup of salt and pour it in a glass of water. "Now taste it," he told him. The brother did. "How does it taste?" "It's bitter." Now, the abbot took the brother to a great lake that was near the abbey and instructed the brother to pour a cup of salt into the lake. "Now taste it," he told him. The brother did. "How does it taste?" "It's pure and fresh and clean." The abbot looked him in the eyes and said, "The bitterness you taste is relative to the size of your perspective. When you are small, the same amount of salt can make you bitter. Expand your perspective. When you begin to see things in universal terms, the salt cannot make you bitter. Stop being a glass. Be a lake."

I shouldn't feel like I have to throw up right now. but
*there's no shame in being human.

There's no shame in being human.

it's not hard to be alone, your soul just needs time
to heal, and to be held gently in the hands of God.

the silence is good for me.
I can't help but wonder if one day
they'll call me sister, or mother,
this is so insistent, God has never called my name
so strongly, He's begging me to surrender,
a tidal pull, gravity- please, let go, He says. Trust me.

just file it under things I can't have and things I don't want as much or in quite the same way as I thought I did

I don't want someone to own me, or vice versa
I just want to belong to each other

my every waking moment is more than you know it is
get inside my head, I dare you
and then tell me what it is you think of me

what does it mean to be human?

"Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do."

"Travel changes you. As you move through this life and this world you change things slightly, you leave marks behind, however small. And in return, life - and travel - leaves marks on you. Most of the time, those marks - on your body or on your heart - are beautiful. Often, though, they hurt."

it's important to realize how little of an impact you actually have
because it frees you to make the biggest impact you possibly can

I want to bare my soul to anyone who cares enough not to hurt it
but I think maybe our bodies should keep to themselves mostly

living on the inside roaring like a lion

God's law is God's law

she may have been the sunset for majesty and power, completely and utterly awed
she may have been a breezy day for easy and free feelings, to teach me how to let go, give up
she may have been the storms and rain to remind me of God
but Grace, she will always be the night sky, that when I look up
I feel my nobility and humanity, the whole universe applauds
I can hardly move for my own significance in this cold, unfeeling air.
******* hell. She's always there. She's always there.

soulmates with the soulmate of your soulmate
twin flames, but who did you burn?
I thought you were supposed to be fireproof.

but I don't want to cause any pain

he made me feel warm and liked but not hot, not loved
he was light sparks and a buzz in my stomach but in front of everyone
I was in a shell and we were a fuzzy, faded headache
soft and stupid and that strange smell, I still have his t shirt
and his lips were so soft that I spent the next week
pressing mine to each other because I could hardly believe
that love was so close, so familiar, that it tasted so much
like a sensation that I already knew, like something that I already had felt
many times before.

the first time I kissed a girl, I tasted her spit for days and my mouth still doesn't feel clean
she asked permission, and I pulled her close to me
and it was very sudden and wet and slimy,
and I was holding her body on top of me in our bathing suits
my heart was beating ten thousand miles per hour
it was so sunny and she was looking at me like she couldn't breathe
but I could. I could breathe. I only started suffocating when I realized that
the first time I kissed a girl, I kissed the wrong girl.

but Carolina, I found you.

nothing quite like the private section of the account, ay?

I am someone who has no scars because they have scarred the rest of the world instead

God knows what He's doing,
whatever it is.

I'm still trying to find me and I'm at peace for now
that means that I am exactly where I am supposed to be
anything extra and anything less, and I would not be
exactly where I am supposed to be. I don't know how to say it.
I don't know what to write.

how can I ever say what I feel, or do not feel,
if I can't even write 'no' in my most secret places