just when it's getting good, i slowly start to freeze
just when it's feeling real, i put my heart to sleep
it's the memory i can see
then this fear comes over me
understand that i don't mean
to push you away from me

why am i so afraid
to crash down and lose my mind again?
i don't know, i can't see
what's come over me?

you found a way
of easing me
out of myself
i can't stay but i can't leave
i am my worst enemy
please understand
that its not you
it's what i do
just when i'm about to run
i realise what i've become

now i wonder what you think of me
don't know why i break so easily
all my fears are armed surrounding me
i can't get no sleep
i keep running in circles around you
you're the trap i want to fall into

i don't remember much about my childhood
but i blew strawberries all through my parents wedding
when i was about a year old
and drove my family nuts

and i had a growth spurt
when i was three
i remember being as tall as the tip of my acoustic guitar

i took lessons, as well as piano
and made friends along the way
i went on various holidays
enjoying the caribbean breeze and change of scenery

but when i was eleven and a half
something horrible happened to my family
i cried every day, i would never leave my bedroom, and my grades started failing
depression changes you
for the worse

i'm not the girl you see in the magazine
perfect face and perfect body
i'll never be anyone but the one i am
i can't bend to your expectations
live to fulfil any fantasy
if what i am is what you need

love me for me
and not for someone who i would never be
what you get is what you see
so love me for me
or don't love me