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Lynn For Now May 2013
How did you know that I was scared?
Was it in my voice?
Was my voice timid?
Or shaky?

How did you know I was scared?
Was it my body language?
Was I curling into myself slightly?
You were in the other room.  How could you have seen?

How did you know I was scared?
Were there clues in our previous talks?
Did I tell you that would frighten me?
Or do you just know what what I was thinking?

How did you know I was scared?
I spoke and you got up to help.
You never question my fears.
You merely vanquished them by protecting me.

How do you know me so perfectly?  
You make me feel safe
Wanted
Loved
Like I will never be alone.
**Never stop loving me.
Dedicated to my beautiful partner Preston
The most wonderful partner I could ever be lucky enough to have
Lynn For Now May 2013
I don't care if it's just a piece of string
I want a ring on my finger
I don't care that I'm only seventeen
I know our love will make us stronger.

I don't care that we have only been together 3 months
I have known you for almost a year
I don't care how childish or foolish I sound
I want to spend my life with you

Let me spend my life with you
Lynn For Now May 2013
It was supposed to be fun
It was meant to be enjoyable
We were supposed to like this

Messing around is supposed to be fun

It wasn't supposed to hurt
It shouldn't make my hips hurt so much
I shouldn't be writhing in pain
I shouldn't shove you off of me because I am in so much pain

And when I tell you I can't feel my knees,
Can't feel my legs
Can't feel my hips
You are supposed to hold me
To say sorry
To care.

Not retreat back to your computer
Waiting for me to compose myself .
Waiting for my body to recover
Underneath cold, lonely sheets
I can feel each layer of skin clinging to my body

This all was supposed to be fun.
Why is this only fun for you?
Why can't it be fun for me, too?
Lynn For Now May 2013
Help me understand…
What I did
I never heard a word
Of discontent
Until I walked away,
And you changed everything
If I was suppressing your character,
Why didn’t you stop me?

Help me understand…
What I was missing.
You were always upset
I always made you miserable
And you said it was
The happiest time of your life
Why did you lie to me
And let me crush your spirit?

Help me understand…
Why you gave up
You stopped caring about us
You got your ***
Then left me to recover
My nearly broken hips
Left beneath cold sheets
In need of comfort, support
But only your computer held your attention

Help me understand…
Who the **** are you now
Because I have no idea
Who you are
Lynn For Now May 2013
This life was dying
A fire, begging to be extinguished
A sentence, begging for a period to end it forever
I wanted to find the courage
To finally say goodbye
The cowardly strength to pull the trigger
I wanted to be silenced forever

But you saw the fall and caught me
The candle was dimming, losing its strength,
The screaming fell to a whisper, a whimper,
Until you brought my voice back to its strength
You brought me to my feet and held me in your arms
And now, we dance together through life
Start dancing now, dance until dusk

But I’m slipping again
I’m near to drowning
The water is rising, up to my knees
It’s up to my waist,
Now to my shoulders, my neck, my chin
I feel it above my mouth, to my nose, up to my eyes
I’m seconds away from being fully submerged
And I desperately need you to pull me up.

You scream from above,
Toss down a lifeline
But I’m paralyzed.  
Can’t move, can’t see, can’t feel
I need you to pull me above the water,
Back into your arms.  
But time and distance are never on our side
So I wait, running out of oxygen by the second,
Waiting for you to save my soul once again

I know you’ll be here, but I can only wait so long.  
I can’t stay here, drowning
I need you to save me
Bring me back to life.

— The End —