How far will it take me
How high will I go
Before I'm dropped back into
A new place, so low?
I wish I had wings
I'd stay there forever
If only.
I'm sure
I love it too much
Oh well, I guess
Have to let it go
Can't have your cake
And eat it, too
So I'll stay on the balance
For as long as I can
Before I fly too high
And crash way too low.

Too many thoughts spinning in my head
The smoke clouds the thoughts, makes them stop for a second
I can’t seem to fathom, can’t seem to think
For a second, for a minute, for one ******* moment
Save me, I’m begging you, from this sick mind
Save me, I’m pleading you, I’m sick of this mind
I’m tired of trying, I’m scared to keep going
Towards nothing, towards something, towards a goal I can’t fight for
Towards a world full of regret, towards a mind full of worry.

I want to lose myself in a crowd
I want to become something greater than me
I want to be enveloped by someone else's melodies
I want to fall, trample, and love strangers around me
I want to feel like I'm being suffocated
I want to disappear in an ocean of chaos

Give me a bottle, give me a cig
Make my life worth living again

If I had one wish,
It'd be to fly away
To a world I can live in,
To a land of decay.
Happiness, fulfillment
Are only illusions.
I want what is real!
Not lies and allusions.

This decision isn't easy
I wish I could let this happen
I have so much I want to say
You're my miracle, my blessing
Disguised as a mistake
I love you, I want you
But we both know I can't.
I'm sorry, I truly am.
You're mine, I made you
I never want to hurt you
This is all for you
Please, forgive me.

I'm tired
But sleep is only temporary
I'm sick
But meds only help for now
I'm dying
But right now I'm still breathing
Please, help me
But we both know you can't

You were right, you know
You kept me safe
You made me happy
But now I'm put here on my own
And I'm scared
I want to fall asleep in your arms again
I want to feel your arms around me again
I want to feel your lips on mine
I'm scared
I'm nervous
I don't know what to do
I'm lost
I'm lonely
I don't know where to turn
I'm trying to remember what it was you said
You were smiling, you were happy
You were so cute, I couldn't believe
How badly I wanted to kiss you
And so I did
And I felt better
You're right; no one else can take care of me
Quite the way you do
And I really like that.

Give me an out
I'm begging you, please
I can't take this pleasure
I can't take this pain
I can't take this pressure
I'm not completely sane
Enough to go through this ****
Not again
Not me

Liar, liar
Come with me
Teach me all the
Nasty things
Whisper secrets
In my ear
Let me see, then,
What I fear

Makes me feel alive
Makes me feel like this
Makes everything real
Like, holy ******' ****!

Fear overwhelms me
As my forgotten past
Reaches to the surface
And decides that, at long last
I'll remember all those feelings
When we left that day
Oh my god, I'm sorry
Was there no other way?
I was told not one thing
I thought things were fine
Daddy stayed at home,
And I didn't realize 'til time
Decided to pass us by
That things were not all right
Why did we leave daddy?
What if I wanted to stay?
Without mommy there was no screaming
Why'd we have to go away?
He's still there, I know he cared
There was no need to shout
He loved me and I left him
With that I had no doubt.
I didn't understand
This stranger took me in
Why'd she make us leave our home?
What was his greatest sin?
And why could you not tell me
What was going on,
Instead of lying to my face
Pretending you were strong?

I'm stressed out
Worked thin
Tired now
Exhausted even
Everything's piling
Nothing's done
Will power's diminishing
Where's that gun?
Oh, just let me
Close my eyes
Just let my body
Compromise
With my mind
I just want rest
And wake up to
A world I love
Completely new

Keep it a secret
Don't let them know
They'll try to stop you
Well, **** them! You'll show
That bones should be seen
Why can't they see?
This isn't for them
It's solely for me.
I want to be little
Soon, I'll be small
I'll finally smile,
Have some control
They'll praise me, too
But stab me right back
When I start to chew
And suddenly I'm fat.

I wish she never touched us
I wish he never said goodnight
Quite the way he did
They had no right to treat us
With such resentment, such pain
How could they think they were doing "right"?
Our lives were ****,
Looking back, I hate the way
We were expected to just accept it
Why do we act like children now?
Why do we not wish to grow up?
We had to, too quickly
We were forced to, too fast
I don't remember much at all
But from what I do, I know I hate
Ever inch, ever cell, ever fiber
That makes up her being
Let me see her just one more time
Let me show her what was done
Let me make her feel what I felt,
What we felt, staying
In that nightmare of a house.

I want him to want me
I want him to need me
I want him to like me
I want him to see me
I want him to kiss me
I want him to hug me
I want him to hold me
I want him to love me

You have to admit,
The clouds seem fake.
Too many artists
To catch their expressions.
How can you deny
The fact that the trees
Don't seem so hard
Until you try to touch them?
Tell me the ocean
Doesn't roar when
We leave it alone.
If you did, I'd believe you.

There is no magical savior
No "knight in shining armor"
There is only you to save yourself
If you ant to live, you'll have to stop
Drop the poisoned fairy-tales
Spoiling young minds with thoughts of good
There is only evil in this world
If you want to live you'll have to conform
No "handsome prince" to save you now
No friends can rescue you, provide you with escape
Do you really need them?

Yet another sleepless night in this cold, empty space
What other option do I have but fall right into place?
Full of memories and truths that never seem to end
Despite how much apart of me wishes I could send
Each little fragment of all those times far back into my mind
I suppose it's meant to stay this way, but trust me, I am fine.

Just between you and me
I'm hopelessly scared of what is to be
I just want to sleep at night
But thoughts keep my eyes from stopping their sight

Your arms around me; your lips on mine
Stops all my worrying and stops all time
You tell me you love me and kiss me again
I tell you I want you and won't let this end

This summer could be our last
Are you frightened of this b'coming the past?
Your future's open so wide
I want you to know I'll stay by your side

Our smiles could light up a room
Our feelings, contagious, and all but too soon
Everyone knows we're in love
So, once again tell me we'll soar up above

We're meant to be, made for each other,
We are our own and know we'll stay lovers
For every time our lips touch just once
Butterflies fly high and sparks still erupt.

I need the music louder
Make my heart pound faster
Find a reason to breathe
Find a way to be me
I need the ground below me
To stop its awful spinning
Find a way to slow down
Find my way around
Let me know what’s real
Let me know what’s right
Please keep from falling
Before this dream-filled night
Finally overwhelms me
Takes me far within
A place where just my being
Can’t help but let it in
Every worry, every fear
Every thought becoming clear
I can’t make it, can’t move on
Just let me go before they’re gone

Composure, relax
You must remember how to breathe
Stay silent, shut up
It's not your place for what you think
Be patient, don't worry
Why is this so hard to do?
Don't question, just follow
I just can't stand this "me and you"
It's nothing, don't worry
I just wish I had the *****
To take them, to pop them
To end this life, to heed the call

I'm smiling down at my defeat
Don't start to question how I think
Just soak in the beauty that only comes
From our single, absolute destruction

Ask me again how it is that I know
So many facts, but won't let them go
My fairy-tales, you see, keep me sane
They allow me to dream, not to say the same

For those I love; they must forget
All the things that they regret
Their lives have meaning, more for them
Than those who sink above their sin

There has to be something different
Something better than this
Life I've found to be painful,
In the slightest way of saying it.
I just want to smile freely.
I just want to be able to fly
Anywhere with the one I love
The most, right by my side.

My thoughts are filled with the times that we've spent
I can't seem to forget the words that were said
"I need you, I love you, please never leave me.
I want you, I have you, you have all of me."

The world's in our favor, we'll live for forever
Our love is a blessing, for now and forever
Now, please hold me tight and never let go
We'll live for tomorrow and for all we don't know

The future's a mystery our minds can't predict
But our hearts know for sure we're together in it
We'll last an eternity knowing the truth
That not even death could take my love from you.

The two of them lay soundlessly awake
Not one word said, too many to think
But what's left to say that hasn't been said?
What's left to do than lay silently in bed?
It's a dead end, for sure, but why not stay put?
It's pointless, of course, so why stick it out?
Can't help but wonder, can't help but think,
That maybe, just possibly, there's some sort of link
But maybe there's nothing, could be just that
It's something to do, and nothing more than that

Take a moment
Just step back
Seize what's out there
Now relax
Keep in mind, now
What you're told
Don't forget, though
What you know

I was asked what the rain meant to me
I wasn’t sure quite how to answer
The rain means everything to me
The storm itself is a personification of life
It has a melody, a harmony, a bass line
It holds onto memories of the past
The sheet of water covering the earth
Has a second job of hiding the truth
While, despite this, everything is utterly clear
It allows us to indulge in our minds
The storm itself lets us lose control
Of our minds and instructs us to alter,
And see through another pair of eyes
In this moment, what can we fear?
In this moment, what can we know?
Fear of the unknown, fear of disaster
Fear of finding ourselves
This complicates things, makes us go mad
And so our frustration comes into play
We obsess and analyze every step
Until finally we succumb to anger
Everything stops us from going further
Our own minds have forced our control
But somehow, we take comfort in this
And as the storm calms
And as the clouds fade
Things seem to make sense
Once again, things were how they were
Where the sun continues to shine
And the moon appears in the night
Where life is so much easier
Than during that awful storm

Every time we say goodnight
Every time we part
Ever time our lips touch, just once
Something happens within my heart

Every time you caress my hair
Ever time you hold my hand
Every time we sleep together
I try to grasp, to understand

Why it is I ******* us up
Why it is I took that chance
Why it is I’m drawn to you
Why it is I can’t understand

I tried to tell you countless times
I tried to make it count
I tried to help you see what I see
But it went all it did was go in and out

I loved you, alright?
I love you, still
I can’t help myself, really
And it’s starting to ****

Me inside and out
It’s starting to take
A toll on my mind
On my heart, just make

Things easier on the both of us
End things completely
Cut me off, and spare me
From this pain, already.

Every time I see the stars
Every time I stare at the moon
I think of each night we spent together
And I wonder if you think of them, too.

It's time to take chances
It's the time to take risks
There will never be another moment
Quite like this
It's time to stop thinking
It's the time to let go
Who else will stand here and ask you
To stop moving
To stop breathing
Stop time?
It's time to live life
By ending this last breath
(How else could you know
How great it feels to breathe?)
It's time to change everything
So things can start happening
It's time we let fate take control
It's time we sit back, relax
And let life take its toll
On us.

Take a deep breath
Just breathe
Life is beautiful
Not just as it seems
Look for the good
In all of the bad things
Don't let it turn you
Look for the meaning
Life is more
Than what you can see
Relax, and reflect
And let yourself be

I'm not about to be poetic
I'm not about to hide
Themes, morals, or lessons
Into a few lines or stanzas
I'm not going to talk of rain,
And how each drop is freedom.
I'm not going to speak of lightening,
And how each strike is of fear.
Instead, I'll just write
As if you're right next to me
As if you truly cared
For my scrambled thoughts

I don't want to cry anymore
I don't want to try anymore
To plaster on a fake smile
To pretend like everything's okay
I just want to laugh freely
I just want to finally be happy
Without trying so ******* hard
Think it's possible?
Think it's plausible?
I sure hope so,
But **** praying anymore.

Caged up
Locked up
By your own mind
Smoked up
Drugged up
By your own kind
Messed up
Cut up
Are you free yet?
Drift off
Shut up
This is the best you'll get

I'm too overwhelmed, I can't be helped
I just want to be able to breathe
I want to smile, I want to laugh hard
I want to be able to feel joy
But I can't, I'm stuck
In this rut called my life
I don't know the reason anymore

Let me look out there
Let me see the stars
Let me take a smoke
Let me **** my lungs
Let me burn my hands
Let me scar my heart
Let me hurt my eyes
Let me live this life

You are the one,
But I'll never admit it.
It's not just an obsession,
It's a need, a want.
But who am I to say that
One person deserves another?

Don't make me look and see
Please, just let me have this
Don't take this away from me
This little bit of happiness
Don't tell me it could **** me
That what I'm doing's wrong
I know it's not, I promise you
In fact, I think I'm strong