I like it here
Way up high
Above the clouds
I love this mind
Where life is great
And all is bright
I can't be touched
So just don't try
To bring me down
To **** my spirit
To break my heart
'Cause I won't feel it

It's not about smiles
It's not about love
It's not about progress
It's about giving a ****
About the right people
People like you
Who help those in need
When you're not asked to
It's about looking outside
And seeing the beauty
It's about being alone
And not feeling lonely
It's appreciating the little things
Despite what's occurred
It's meeting new people
In a place so absurd
It's made up of choices
Based on the heart
It's made up of people
Who couldn't dare part
This is the point
Know that I meant it
Life is worth living
Don't you forget it

I don't mean to be a bother
I don't mean to think the way I do
I don't mean to act this way
I don't mean, don't want, to worry you

I kind of wish it were different
That we met after I had fixed all of this
But at the same time, this is me
And I know this is a part of me that will always exist

I know I'm not perfect
I know I'm not what's expected or noticed
But I really want to make you happy, and if I do
Don't let me go, and just let "us" consist

Of what it has been the past few months
Simple, easy, confusing, yes, but honest and true
If you want the truth, I love it completely,
Being honest, I just love being around you

Now, don't take this as a plea
For attention or some sort of relationship
Just take it as it is, and as it will always be:
A statement of who I am, who we are. I like this.

I'm stressed out
Worked thin
Tired now
Exhausted even
Everything's piling
Nothing's done
Will power's diminishing
Where's that gun?
Oh, just let me
Close my eyes
Just let my body
Compromise
With my mind
I just want rest
And wake up to
A world I love
Completely new

Give me a bottle, give me a cig
Make my life worth living again

Don't start defending her
Don't start giving her reason to think
Nevermind
**** that
***** you
This friendship isn't one anymore
It's masochistic
And I can't handle it
Not anymore
So tell her she doesn't have to worry
Jealousy's a pointless thing
Don't worry about it anymore
You don't need to protect her
You don't need to put on a mask anymore
Because I'm finally out of the picture.

I want to lose myself in a crowd
I want to become something greater than me
I want to be enveloped by someone else's melodies
I want to fall, trample, and love strangers around me
I want to feel like I'm being suffocated
I want to disappear in an ocean of chaos

Let me look out there
Let me see the stars
Let me take a smoke
Let me **** my lungs
Let me burn my hands
Let me scar my heart
Let me hurt my eyes
Let me live this life

I wish she never touched us
I wish he never said goodnight
Quite the way he did
They had no right to treat us
With such resentment, such pain
How could they think they were doing "right"?
Our lives were ****,
Looking back, I hate the way
We were expected to just accept it
Why do we act like children now?
Why do we not wish to grow up?
We had to, too quickly
We were forced to, too fast
I don't remember much at all
But from what I do, I know I hate
Ever inch, ever cell, ever fiber
That makes up her being
Let me see her just one more time
Let me show her what was done
Let me make her feel what I felt,
What we felt, staying
In that nightmare of a house.

It's not to be skinny
It's not just for beauty
Guess you could say
For control?
It's not to be lovely
Not so you'll love me
It's so I'm okay
On my own.

Maybe it's time to think things through
You love me, but do I love you?
Something's giving me reason to doubt
Now I'm confused, do you want out?
I guess what I'm saying is something seems new
Just not sure it's me, but not sure it's you.

Keep it a secret
Don't let them know
They'll try to stop you
Well, **** them! You'll show
That bones should be seen
Why can't they see?
This isn't for them
It's solely for me.
I want to be little
Soon, I'll be small
I'll finally smile,
Have some control
They'll praise me, too
But stab me right back
When I start to chew
And suddenly I'm fat.

I'm not ready to go back
To the appointments
To the schedules
To the numbers
To the people
To the strangers
To the anger
To the confusion
I’m not ready to conform back
To the person I thought I wanted to be
**** that!
***** this!
I'm not going to act like
What you think bothers me
I'll live the same as I lived here
It'll annoy you
You may hate me
I'll hate myself
But know what's funny about hate?
It never quite sticks around
Long enough to evolve
Into something more.

If you were never given rules
Never given chances
Would you ever break them?
Would you ever take them?

There's honestly nothing else to do,
But sit here, think, ponder, wonder
What else can we do in this life, again?
Why else are we here?
That's what makes  us different from them
The animals out there
*******, *******, killing, living without meaning
It's our thoughts, our cognitive processes
Not our wills, our power, our strength
They have those, too, *******, I'm sure.
It's not our intelligence, either
Animals out there overpower us with that, too
It's the fact that some of us wonder, "why"
Some of us sit here and try to figure out, "how"
And some of us go as far as to figure out exactly, "what"
It is that drives us to do the things we do
We don't know why we do the things we do
That doesn't even matter in the long run
What matters is what we do
And how it happens
What happens after
And what is effected by the actions involved
That's it, that's all, that's good enough,
Right?
Question it, please!
Question our existence
Wonder why, how, what, because
No one else will and no one else cares
Why follow something blindly?

Let's take a drag together.
Smoke with me?
Breathe with me?
Take a year off  your life with me?
Don't worry, it's not that much
Compared to what else you could do.
Want to do that, too?
Why not?

It's time to take chances
It's the time to take risks
There will never be another moment
Quite like this
It's time to stop thinking
It's the time to let go
Who else will stand here and ask you
To stop moving
To stop breathing
Stop time?
It's time to live life
By ending this last breath
(How else could you know
How great it feels to breathe?)
It's time to change everything
So things can start happening
It's time we let fate take control
It's time we sit back, relax
And let life take its toll
On us.

Don't say yes
Just so you won't reject
Don't agree
Just so you don't regret
Seeing some tears
Breaking some hearts
Because going along with a lie
Isn't half as bad as denying pleasure

The two of them lay soundlessly awake
Not one word said, too many to think
But what's left to say that hasn't been said?
What's left to do than lay silently in bed?
It's a dead end, for sure, but why not stay put?
It's pointless, of course, so why stick it out?
Can't help but wonder, can't help but think,
That maybe, just possibly, there's some sort of link
But maybe there's nothing, could be just that
It's something to do, and nothing more than that

Some nights I'll live far worse than others
Some nights I'll want to re-do
But, honestly, I won't regret a single thing
Because these experiences and thoughts
Will shape the person I will become
Will help me help others create their futures
Don't stand here and judge the decisions I make
Don't sit there and stare as I **** up
Join me in living and making mistakes!
Join me in embracing the fact that we're human!
Embarrass yourself with me, act like a child
Leap off your pedestal you've made for yourself
Come join us, ****, down here on Earth
Live this life in a way that's worth living
Don't care about judgement and don't dare judge yourself
Just let go of those fears and all inhibitions
Take hold of my hand and I swear
You won't regret it for more than a night.

Running from the fear inside
Avoiding confrontation
Keeping secrets from the world
This is your one salvation
**** the idea of "Lord" or "Christ"
These fairy-tales do not forgive
All they do is blind your eyes
From the lives we really live
We are animals
Savage and cruel
Who gives a ****
About the Golden Rule?
We fight for love
We fight for lust
Oh **** it all,
It's because we must
No one has a decent thought
We're filthy and disgusting
We live for ***, drugs, and lies
We live for, simply, nothing

Let the music consume your very being
Numb you from the inside, out
Escape the hell you were shoved into
This life you do not deserve, despite your doubts

Realize your true potential
You're worth so much, why can't you see?
This life you were given is the only one
Where your dreams can become a reality

These nightmares you have control you
Why can't you move past this fear?
Take what you do into your own hands
And don't let them see your tears

A sickening feeling growing, consuming
A secret obsession, the temptation unbearable
"Easier than living, breathing, seeing..."
The voices have not stopped
They constantly urge, encourage
Still she does nothing
In the dead of night, she awakens
Small shadows have eyes, staring
She drowns within herself, not knowing where else to go
Fear evaporates and the voices grow
They have never pressed so harshly
She cannot scream, cannot breathe
A burning sensation occurs near her wrist
She tries to stop but fails
Deeper the cuts continue
She has no feeling, can barely see
The voices have stopped, she's finally free

My thoughts are filled with the times that we've spent
I can't seem to forget the words that were said
"I need you, I love you, please never leave me.
I want you, I have you, you have all of me."

The world's in our favor, we'll live for forever
Our love is a blessing, for now and forever
Now, please hold me tight and never let go
We'll live for tomorrow and for all we don't know

The future's a mystery our minds can't predict
But our hearts know for sure we're together in it
We'll last an eternity knowing the truth
That not even death could take my love from you.

Sleep comes so slowly
When will we dream?
Time moves too quickly
When together, it seems.
Yet in those quick moments
I feel something new
I see something foreign
That's only in you.
You're always relaxed,
Always so pleased.
I can't seem to grasp
Why you're so at ease.
Sometimes I'm jealous
Of how you can live
One day at a time
While I'm still stuck in
A time yet to come
It gets quite exhausting
I don't want to worry
'Bout every little thing
Did you know that you teach me?
It's true and I love it
The lessons you've taught me
Can be found in just moments
You've taught me to feel
Even if it hurts
You've taught me to see
Despite when it burns
You've taught me true peace
(It's attainable by all?)
You've taught me a truth
I'm not scared to tell
You've taught me to dream
Even when impossible
You've taught me to speak
That words are unstoppable
You've taught me that confidence
Isn't hard at all
That even  myself
Can learn to walk tall
Adam, you've taught me
All of these things
I love you now and always will
And now know what that really means.

The murderer screams
Until the world ends
The liar still stands
As all falls to shreds
Tell me, my love,
Do you wish for their world?
Tell me, my friend,
Could you do what they would?

I know I'm a *******.
But so much so that you can't even
Look at me?
Talk to me?
Fine, I won't hold you back.
Hope we'll smile again someday.

Maybe I don’t want you to stop trying
Maybe I made the wrong decision
Maybe I miss you a lot
Maybe I miss the nights we had together
I want them back, I do
Maybe I miss sleeping next to you
Maybe I miss kissing you
Maybe I miss the late nights of video games
Maybe I’m an idiot
Maybe I was looking at the wrong times
******* rosey-red conceptions
Maybe that’s all I keep seeing
But I miss you
And Maybe I still love you
Maybe I don’t want to move on
Maybe I don’t though
Maybe I’m wrong
Maybe I just need space
Maybe I just need to move on
We had problems
We had issues
But what if it was worth it?
Maybe we’ll never know

I didn’t mean for it to get this way
I didn’t meant to hurt you
I wanted out
I can’t freak out
Please know I’ll always love you?
But only half, because, you see
I can’t fully commit
There’s someone else who’s here with me
I wish I could admit
That something is terribly wrong
She’s not saying much
She hates you though
She loves him, too
I can’t explain this now
I need to distract this
She’s getting mad
I’m getting scared
What the **** am I supposed to do?
Just go away
Please don’t come back
I can’t explain it
You’ll just get mad
I can’t tell you
‘Cause you never saw
How things changed
Could you tell at all?
Never paid attention
To the switching minds
You’re lucky now
You won’t have to see
Never need to deal
With the crazy inside me.

I need the music louder
Make my heart pound faster
Find a reason to breathe
Find a way to be me
I need the ground below me
To stop its awful spinning
Find a way to slow down
Find my way around
Let me know what’s real
Let me know what’s right
Please keep from falling
Before this dream-filled night
Finally overwhelms me
Takes me far within
A place where just my being
Can’t help but let it in
Every worry, every fear
Every thought becoming clear
I can’t make it, can’t move on
Just let me go before they’re gone

How long until the day we die?
Will we get what we deserve?
Rewards for those that love all others.
Pain for those that hurt their neighbors.
Will death be fair, unlike our lives?
Will we obtain our deepest treasures?

Plaster a smile onto your mask
Fake that you're more than okay
Pretend the night is beautiful and young
And fight the urge to run away
Face your fears with more than angst
Find a place to keep yourself safe
And if anything goes completely awry
Get out before anyone knows why
Your secret needs to stay untold
The things you know cannot be shown
Be sure to hide behind that mask
And fool those that wish tonight was your last.

Look at your reflection
What monster do you see
Staring back into your eyes
Wishing only for tragedy?
Is it covered in blood
Crying out for vengeance?
Is it thrown onto the floor
Begging for deliverance?
Is it searching for truth
By creating horrendous lies?
Is it plotting and scheming
An enemy's unfortunate demise?
Does it cause images to flash
Across your innocent mind?
Does it plant a seed of selfishness
Making you utterly blind?
You are helpless beneath this Being
Unable to escape.
Eventually you will succumb to it.
This is your inevitable fate.

You have to admit,
The clouds seem fake.
Too many artists
To catch their expressions.
How can you deny
The fact that the trees
Don't seem so hard
Until you try to touch them?
Tell me the ocean
Doesn't roar when
We leave it alone.
If you did, I'd believe you.

By looking at me
Can you tell?
I've got a lot more to say
And a lot more to sell.
By talking to me
Can you see?
Since I smile at you
You smile at me.
By watching me
Will you say
That I'm better alone,
That I should stay that way?
By remembering me
Will you know?
I feel lost like you
Just don't let it show.

I have a secret I cannot share,
For if I do it won't be fair.
You'll drop me faster than before;
Then I'll have no one at all.

In all honesty I just want peace
Within this mind I'm forced to keep.
I can't find help without a voice!
Who'd help one who can't make noise?

I hate this thing! The way I think
Won't ever change. I'm on the brink
Of sanity! What should I do
When all I want is something new?

Liar, liar
Come with me
Teach me all the
Nasty things
Whisper secrets
In my ear
Let me see, then,
What I fear

Just between you and me
I'm hopelessly scared of what is to be
I just want to sleep at night
But thoughts keep my eyes from stopping their sight

Your arms around me; your lips on mine
Stops all my worrying and stops all time
You tell me you love me and kiss me again
I tell you I want you and won't let this end

This summer could be our last
Are you frightened of this b'coming the past?
Your future's open so wide
I want you to know I'll stay by your side

Our smiles could light up a room
Our feelings, contagious, and all but too soon
Everyone knows we're in love
So, once again tell me we'll soar up above

We're meant to be, made for each other,
We are our own and know we'll stay lovers
For every time our lips touch just once
Butterflies fly high and sparks still erupt.