If I lie and say I'm better
Will that make you smile?
If I fake it and force through
Will things finally be easier?
If I pretended like everything's fine
As if the thoughts don't still appear
Will you be happy again?
Will you smile once more?
Will your voice not increase?
Will your hand stay by your side?
I hope so, because
That's my new plan.

I'm tired
But sleep is only temporary
I'm sick
But meds only help for now
I'm dying
But right now I'm still breathing
Please, help me
But we both know you can't

There is no magical savior
No "knight in shining armor"
There is only you to save yourself
If you ant to live, you'll have to stop
Drop the poisoned fairy-tales
Spoiling young minds with thoughts of good
There is only evil in this world
If you want to live you'll have to conform
No "handsome prince" to save you now
No friends can rescue you, provide you with escape
Do you really need them?

There has to be something different
Something better than this
Life I've found to be painful,
In the slightest way of saying it.
I just want to smile freely.
I just want to be able to fly
Anywhere with the one I love
The most, right by my side.

I'm too overwhelmed, I can't be helped
I just want to be able to breathe
I want to smile, I want to laugh hard
I want to be able to feel joy
But I can't, I'm stuck
In this rut called my life
I don't know the reason anymore

I don't like what we have
I feel like there's no point
I care for you, more than  you realize
But I can't keep doing what we are
I want you, ***, I do
I'll even go as far to say I love you
But it's a charade if I keep going
It hurts too much to know
You don't see me as I see you
I just can't keep fooling myself

You are the one,
But I'll never admit it.
It's not just an obsession,
It's a need, a want.
But who am I to say that
One person deserves another?