Oh what a pleasure it would be, If I could rip out your tounge, So you may not speak.
What a joy it should be, If I could pluck out your eyes, so you may not look at me.
For I am a hideous creature. I deserve not your gaze, nor your words.
I deserve nothing. I need nothing.
But there's so much in this desgusting little planet that I want.
I want to hear your bones snap, and crack. I want to feel your veins squish in my fingertips as I pluck and rip them from your slashed wrists.
I want to taste your bitter blood.
And Finally, I want give you one last kiss.
Just as you're fading away.
I do this out of love, don't you see?
So nothing else, could ever take you away from me.
I know you don't love me.
And I know you think I'm a bit obsessive.
But trust me, my king.
I do this out of love.

In the baren wasteland I call home
There's clouds that hang overhead.
Dark, mysterious clouds.
Swirling, in an endless, ballet of misery.
They sit there. Teasing me.
I want it to rain so badly.
I yearn to be held, kissed by the moisture of the dreary gems.
And sing a lullaby most sweet.
Gentely murmuring the darling melody.
But no matter how much I beg and plea, I probably won't feel, let alone see..something as enchanting as the rain of today.
I can only remember the damp rain of yesterday.
And dream of the Mist to come

With shaking fingers I reach for my pen.
Never knowing what to say.
But really, what should you proclaim in your last moments?
Soft wimpers of love and affection?
Or harsh remarks of how ****** you feel every one is?
Lies? Honesty?
Not knowing what to say
You simpily write
Goodbye.
Stand from your chair.
You tighten the noose
Just so it won't fall loose.
You close your eyes
And.
       Let.
           Everything.
                        Go.
In one solid motion
You.
     Are.
         Left.
             To.
                Swing.
Everything you ever wanted. Right below your feet.
All that is left to ask is...


Are.
You.
Happy?

As the seasons go by
And the days melt away
As the hours tick down to minutes
And minutes to seconds.
I only feel young around you.
So come let's play.
We can tell each other secrets
And sing songs about May.
Just as children do.
Eating lunch on the playground
And at night while you're not around
I'll dream, and tell you I flew.
But really
I was dreaming of you.

I don't know why we care for each other. I don't know why you want me to be yours.
Never had I been treated so badly
And I know you're awful for me.
But why do I want to tell you
How madly in love I am
With you.
Joining together. Your hugs not warming, nor inviting, seems to only bring me closer.
Every kiss from your parted lips, only a reminder why we shouldn't try again
Roadkill would be more appealing.
Rather then going through the continuous nonsense of love or togetherness
You know how to make me smile.
I loathe you. I love you.
I need you.
I hate you.
You claim you love me with all of your heart.
I should have seen that was a lie from the start.

In the dark forest, I watch her bleed.
And witness the end. Her undoing.
I am the cause. Is this reality?
Is this a fantasy?
Her screams, a taboo melody.
Nothing has been so sweet.
So beautiful.
By the icy river
I watch her float away.
Blood trailing behind her.
The water. Now a dark elixir.
I wish to drink.
The watered down crimson juice flows down my throat.
Never had I been so pleased.
Is this type of insanity contagous?
Is this what I am to be?
In the dark forest, I smile. Turn, and go home.

Her beauty knows no bounds.
Her light mocha skin
So seemingly smooth.
Her eyes, dark as chocolate.
She's so beautiful.
We make small talk
Between classes.
I wonder if she knows?
How I long for her succulent lips.
Her gaze alone can make me shiver.
She's beautiful.
Shall she be my Venus, While I, her Aphrodite?  
Who knows?
I don't.

I wonder if you would miss the little things that I do
When I'm around you.
The way I yawn in the mornings
The way I thank you in German.
Always the same.
I know I'd miss all things you do.
The way you look at me and laugh when I do those stupid little things.
Let us live as dullards do.
We can live in ignorance.
Not knowing what do.
You look at me.
I look at you.
We smile and whisper goodnight.
And we sleep
Until the morning light.
Shall I live in ignorance?
If it's to make you happy, I shall.

Your mind so fragile
Your memories only mere fragments.
Do you believe I was really always here?
Do you remember the love you had for what we were?
Do you ever think of what we could have been?
O' my darling. O' my king.
I'd like to believe I'll always be your little dove.
Though seperated by distance,
We have never been so close.
Hand in hand, walking in sync.
O' my prince. O' my love.
Had we not been so far apart
Would we still be together?
Tears had flown from my eyes.
Blood has dripped from my wrist.
My thighs.
My heart.
I miss your gentle embrace.
Do you remember this?

Death tis my misstress.
Death tis my life.
Death is what I long for.
Death is what I cannot have.
Life inside my heart is fading.
As dull as the embers on my cigarette.
I smoke so maybe I shall perish sooner.
I drink so I may feel nothing.
Drunken honesty, had never been so valid.
Words slur. Thoughts blur.
But thy heart is loud. And speaks for the mind.
Poison silences the mind.
The heart.
And your lips.
No matter how loud you scream
Nobody cares to hear.
What any piece of you has to say.

I can't help to be honest.
But you mean the world to me.
And I can't help to lie.
But I love you too
Do I?
Don't I?
I'm not even sure.
I don't even believe myself lately.
Thou had my heart on a frozen pike.
Yours to keep. But you ripped it away. Piece by piece.
Served on a silver platter.

In the break of dawn I yearn to be held. In the summer breeze I wish to be cared for. In the glowing moonlight..I want to be loved. My mind seemingly fading away, has never been so lucid. I am in awe of the thought of you. I am in shambles, knowing I cannot have you. Sweet summer nights have never been so cold. You are fading from my grasp. As I sink deeper and deeper into this dark abyss, you never leave my thoughts.
I don't know if I love you. I know, that I can't ever lose you.

I never knew what true happiness was until my lips met yours.
I never knew how high I could fly
Until you whispered my name.
Luna. Luna.
I never knew what sorrow could really be.
Until I lost you.
You left me in a haze. Left me gasping. Wanting anything I could hold onto.
I never knew what love could be.
Until I met you. Distance so far.
Yet our hearts so close.
Is this a dream?
Or are you my last nightmare?