I can't help but laugh,
Even if it makes sense I can laugh about it,
It all brings me back to a place I'll visit one day when I'm old and alive
And I'll make everyone a promise,
that I'll be laughing and I hope they look at me and smile,
With that much that was said we won't regret it because it was where we wanted to end up,
Just you and I
Bringing to the surface drowned thoughts that we were always to weak to destroy until now,
I see why it was always better and I won't regret this because even though we have yet to find each other I wish you the best until we do,
So for now I ,
Laugh and smile
…

Guilty of every actionn I've never wanted to commit and in the glowing trees that grow from my brown heart I can still pretend to hear your voice a thousand miles aways, we want to think that we ****** up and the truthh is still buried in the sands of our details pointless arguments that reached pointless conclusions

That always seemed to make you and I better peopless...

If all is lost,
Can it be found.

Shattered dreams may be rerepairable,
But never fixed.

Living among the great gods,
Never  gurantees immortality.

I am but the only one,
Gifted with a beautiful curse.

Chained to the bottom of the sea,
But I am alive.

Tearing the flesh apart from the inside,
Never realizing that breathing numbs the pain.

We are forever destined to be,
But never on time.

A deep hole,
Is filled with blood.

As I sleep on this rock,
Guilt is in my vains.

A never ending nightmare,
It haunts when I am awake.

These scratches,
Burn like propane.

The hole is deeper,
Time has stopped.

Jokes **** us,
And now my flesh is pitch black.

I am hidden,
Inside of you.

Will we be able to return together,
From the abyss we started from.

I am covered in shame,
And soaked in my lust.

Forever dieing in your arms,
Poked with small holes.

I am not freedom,
And neither are they.

Holding onto you was the greatest feeling in the world to me,
I was lost.

Killing was only natural,
Instinct has always had full control.

I have always been aware,
And even when the end was near we were never afraid.

Always looking for focus,
Yearly losing my most effective thoughts.

And I have always been alone,
But never like this.

And I know it will end.

But you my dear will never be forgotten.

For I am infinity.

Sooner or later you will come to realize

What your eyes have never wanted to gaze upon

Oh how I will die of laughter, for i will be the first to know

Deeper than any cave you thought of

Darker than any black you know

Louder than any of your fears

Beyond your limits

You are there eyes wide open and still lost

Wanting to rid of this feeling that never goes away, darling trust me it never goes away

I who thinks have gone through the endless does not compare to your battles

I will not pity you for I do not pity anyone in this life

You need to learn to embrace this yourself

In your very essence is the guide to the rest of it

Not even the bottom will ever accept you

Feeling trapped inside a cage of steel is but a field
to the reality that is in store for you

As I lay here in wonder I lust for what will happen to you

You were all I ever wanted and more

But infinity is just not enough for me

I wish I would not have to do this but that was not my first wish

And when I fade away I hope that even a glimpse of what I left is thought of

There was never much to say but what was only spoken

For even in my existence I hope to think of only you

Over many have tried no one succeed but i may have reached her at about sixty-four years to be exact and I never let go

Oh did she try her hardest to be able to rid of me for even a brief moment night after night did she always try

As time grew father away from us we were starting to become closer and still in that instance that I released my grip you ran

And I followed her through the darkest corner of the universe and out of the womb of the endless ocean and even deeper into the abyss

Even after all this time she was still unharmed and I am but a sherreded memory lost in the deepest of files but yet you remain in my heart

Ever longing to believe that I will one day hold you in my burning arms once more and have your tears wash away the flames and the fumes

Giving yourself up like a pebble on a beach won't help forget her oasis in the red
Sands that glew darker than your blood

Getting rid of the mistakes I caused upon you won't make you a star nor will it make you an angel but you will be nothing
…

As if a fish could drown in the very ocean it was born but bore its life on the shore

Even more than I could ever breathe still I see the broken trees and through the goodness of the saws and the shattered jaws

Colder than your heart the ice on my back burns my spine and left with the last line that wasn't found I'll hope you stay around…