i lifted the boxes from left to right
counting all the contents
my mind drifting far away from the clothes on my back
i was with you sometimes
smiling through the daily routines i was bound to
i knew i had found a life in yours
a substance i wasn’t familiar with
you are the first
a question so alive in my memories eyes i had believed it a myth
it seemed a whole life
or the years i could call these walking the Earth
i had been a lone solider
noticing sentiments in the way you spoke
my reflection in your eyes
as my body con caved from those words
i knew it was real
an elixir pulsing through my veins
you could feel it
leaking out of my heart
into yours

i always knew i would
lost in learning
i had to make myself believe
i didn’t need it
or want it
because i knew
it was the essence
the missing piece well hidden from plain site
you are my first

if you have to leave i trust you
i can believe you’re there in my heart
but you will and will never be mine
you are the Earths
and the lights
a fellow nefelibata
a solider sometimes holding my hand
this ride could take us anywhere
i don’t mind

you are my first

these are my tattoos,
i carved them myself,
each line represents something i learnt,
and something i lost,

at an age or a position where love was important,
in this place of misguided ghosts,
i am just another body waring them proudly,
every temple has their stories and scars,
i was a boy finding control,

to tattoo your heart where these lines rest,
wrapping around reminding me of reality,
of fear of love and pain and joy,

im not asking you to understand,
could you if you wanted to,
im not scared of the pain,

i want be ashamed of how i deal,
how i survive,
how i prove to myself I’m alive,
ill still cry,
and laugh,
and smile

Lucious. T

we were in the waiting room it was always full
but this time you were sitting next to me
your presence let me escape the noise

it was silent.


Lucious. T

To take one thought and put it on this paper,
let it linger through the lines and dissolve what it holds,
there is not enough space,
force the boarders to hold strong ,
any cracks an echo of whispers will seep,
cut the strings attached to the sentiments left lying on the floor,
let them come, let there presence wash over your heart,
bring it back to you, what you love and your part.

you are important,
divulge your secrets through actions, silent understanding in beauty,
direct this play this is your life,
be you, nobody else, just you hiding behind your eyes,
your time has come, it is now, it reaches for you out of the night,
wake up from this dream were your hollow with nothing inside,
entertain fear let it soak you in the pain,
the innocent, the suppressed, the guilty, the insane,
were all on the same page.

Lucious. T

This silence surrounds laughing constantly in my ear,
a mirage of a rainbow intwined in the length of the sky,
the glassy waters depth unknown,

silhouettes appearing out of knowable forms,
a twilight i remember but not in this body,
you are here sitting beside me on the crooked bench,
the walkers contemplating the scenery,

you laugh in my ear once more,
i watch as the watcher appears,
he is a fleeting moment amongst the trees,
never leaving foot prints just floating with the clouds,

here is heaven an everlasting without doubt,
dawn on the echo on todays sun sleeping,
the moon breaking the distance,
i will wait for you, your laugh to appear once more.

Lucious. T

How to know when the moment is right,
its a sound a second, a crisp endless stream trickling down time,

watch it turn slowly as we march forward to find,
a land of virtue thats been hiding behind our eyes,

we are the masks and wear our own disguise,
traveling between faces to see who they are inside,
taking on the perspective, knowing the voices they choose to hide,

lose yourself in the skin of another,
hold them be the shades hiding between the covers,

vine them, all my thoughts our grey fades in the light,
where the land meets the sky hitting the sun on the right.
,
Lucious T

Depths under no creation,
a world of silent dreams,
playing forward each step recorded,
hollow faces deep followers push the boundaries,

young soul each day an age,
yearn for something blue,
its shade is never still,
are you free from the sky,

does the child play,
a sonder song and mask his hidden journey,
to be gay among the dreary air,
clouding my view,
born with questions from the time,
is he the one who chooses

fragrant memory sleep within the seed,
dream of moons that have come before,
the sun is floating on the seams,
drink once more no stone unturned
a song to tell the ages.


Lucious. T

Wonderer of these streets with moonshine on the tongue,
stumble through the years walk the rules undone,
in this night, under the moon and above the sun.

Follow the sweet sounds in the air,
take the steps you can never bare,
let it consume you, bend between the wrong.

Force the light its essence is your key,
come to the fire undo what could have been,
the faces you know the tethers hold tight,
a haven, a love, and a moment in time.

Just this once just this place an image engraved on your mind,
were lucid within its depths how deep can you survive,
are you done with these mirrors watch closely tell me what you find
in a place staring back at you just on the other side.

No matter the games our deamons seep through the floor,
walking into this life, out of a dream, through the door,
time the greatest thief that steals from you at night,
meet myself in the mirror always for the first time,

Linger in this silk its rapped around your hands,
misuse and abuse it is at your command.

Lucious T

There are lessons yet to be learnt and mistakes I haven't thought of to be made, but they will come.
Strong and fast I will make memories worth forgetting, but the ones I want to keep won't stay for long.
These thoughts welding with my soul, drifting afloat an ever reaching scenery that I do not recognize.
I question my thoughts they have no answers, if it hangs inconsequential they will start to rot. Creating holes and space no known substance can fix.  

Forever traveling with no end result, I do not ask to know everything, I have no desire to have the knowledge concreting my suspicions that all the mystery has disappeared.
I hope, for it is the only subject I can grasp that makes each day a new beginning.  
I long to concur not wasting a moment pondering anymore the worth of contributing.

Lucious T

I’m going to bury one part of my heart,
Waiting at the door take us to the start.
The flower dagger I left in your back,
Beautiful and dangerous it leads us off track.
Freeing my memories from your hands and your hold,
The cards I'm controlling begin to fold.
Years falling beneath our feet the washing willow can only weep,
Bones breaking with delight your smile the hardest to fight.
An endless love brushed across your face no amount of damage can erase.
Falling to my feet when my wings give way,
Each feather a face I remember to this day.
Blood tainted feathers weighting me down,
The black feathers lace my crown,
Iron giant forced to defend,
I will find you in my dreams again.


Lucious. T

While we wait for never playing pretend, why we call out for answers can't wait till the end.
What will it be like?  How will I live? Who will I fall for? When will I forgive?
Alternate paths lay before my eyes every face I meet I wonder how were alike, all built different but tuned into one thought, all capable of love but not one you bought.
Cashed in kindness cause you want it in return, I left with no answers sorry to leave a burn, not built to make anybody complete, I will love you till forever but not if you make me weak.
Getting a grip on what holds you down, sharing my thoughts wash it off pass it around, not ashamed of my curses I’ve got plenty to show, don't hide them away let everybody know, its all one moment what’s actually going on, just a shame nobody truly belongs,
Fleeting emoticons catching me of guard, I try to stay away but I never get far, always moving but seeing the same streets all-full of memories tied to my feet.
Chained to these thoughts chasing me all day controlling my progress but come what may, I am this collective thought and its mine to defend, I am making my own way smoking till the end.


Lucious. T

Gathering the tools to set my fire alight,
Broken memories taking flight,

Touch my soul and set me free,
Other people who I want to be,

Project this image I see so clear,
A life not wasted on constant fear,

I will look you in the eye and play my song,
Teach me slowly about doing wrong,

Every opportunity analyzed to extremes,
Pushing past I was just being me,

Hit pause I'm stuck here again,
Ill be reliving these moments till the very end,

Supermarkets of life are we only here to love you,
Tempted to absorb a different twisted view,

Just one of those worlds I create in my head,
Where egos don't exist and where ruled by love instead,

Stick by my values not tempted to give pain,
Living through empathy won't all be in vain,

I will savor every drop till my lungs give way,
In my last breath remembering how I lived each day.


Lucious. T