The world is no longer as I once thought I needed it to be,
I am no longer the man I once thought I had seen

But I remember when the light danced upon the waters
I remember the dawn rising with my breath

And I remember her eyes, like spring showers,
If only I could forget all the rest

Peace and the burning flavor of smoke,
I ***** for the night and grip fast the dawn
and somewhere in the twilight cold
I grow young and I grow old
yet on them both I will choke

I see the silver blue of spring showers
I see the burning blue of ice in drops of fire
To them drips the wellspring of my desire
but I cannot drink of both,
I have neither the privileged nor the power

My heart, the fool, clutches for the tide of that sweet sickness
fly to that wine you gaunted ghost in my beating breast!
Drink the dregs and drown out the bread
When you have had your fill, you fool
you will be sickened still.

My mind, the coward, hides a midst its multitude of arms
what a petty prisoner you have become to fear!
Take your leave when you have nothing left for the taking
and when you regain your pride and call it passion
you will be found out, weak and frail still.

My unwavering soul, how you have betrayed me thus
Now at the hour of my need, most ashamed.
Where is that unrelenting stubbornness
That has been thenceforth a fiery balm to my fears?
Where is that sediment of perpetual outcry
That has been the rock of my prayers and pleas?
Where did it fly, that crux, which bears my bane
But not my bones?
Oh my soul, have you no pity on this man?
Have you no pity on this moonlit, sunless land?
Yet I will walk, I know not where or for how long
And in the trudging footsteps of my jaunt
May I come to the hidden highways and byways
May I come to what I cannot help but truly want.