it is said that mountains are the greatest hill to climb, that once you climb that you get the greatest feeling of accomplishment and achievement that you may ever experience
but then you think of the heart and see it is not a hill, but a wall. a door. instead of climbing over, working your way to climb towards that feeling of love is where most people go
instead of just sitting outside the door and waiting

i need to be the one
that stands strong
and helps everyone else
i need to help people
so they dont feel bad
so they can be happy
so they can live a good life
because if i dont do it
i know no one would for some people
so i have to
otherwise they'll never get it
so i have to be strong
and not cry
and just be the pillar of happiness
and strength
that people know they can trust
and rely on
that has no cracks in it
so they can lean on it
and not worry about falling

people are like
flowers.
easily beaten down
and if they aren't given enough of something
or if they get too much
they die.
but people are also beautiful
just like flowers.
unique
bright
caring.
flowers are like
people.
they grow,
need water and the sun
and feel good when
with others or
with music
people are like flowers
and
flowers are like people.
both are easily crushed
but are beautiful in their own ways

pieces of the puzzle....they are missing. your puzzle. the puzzle i want to complete....to understand. they are out there....in the world....that world in your head....all it takes is for them to be let out....for that head to open up.....for me to understand that much more of you....your beauties and faults.....achievements and mistakes....it helps me understand your puzzle

trust is something i thought i had in you....the one who birthed me....the one who raised me through it all....the one who stayed while the other did not....i thought had trust in you....so i laid myself bare for you....to see if you would trust me, too.....and not see me as a child....i guess i've lost my trust in you

it hurts to see you with someone else.....being happy without me.....every time i see it....hear it....read it....i just wanna lay down and cry.....i just....wish i could be the one. the one there for you....the one that you care for...the one that is there....