Awake. Not dreaming
Thinking & Creating.
Cold but warm hearted
By myself but never really alone

Created but I can be destroyed
Wounded but never broken
Changing to fit this world
But deep in my own
Thoughts...

The long awaited
Feel of your warmth
The shoulder you give me
To cry on

The hands that caress my
Cheek and wipe my tears
Away

The ears open to hear
Every word I vent
Every move I make

The eyes that pierce into
My soul seeing the real me
Not anyone else

The lips that speak beautiful words
Into my ugly life
The lips that kiss me and
Brigten up my day

Your Presence Is Needed

They say the darkness is meant
To scare you
Is that all it does?
With the darkness comes
Lonilness
Sadness
Fear
Tears
Flashbacks
Oh, the flashbacks
Back to those moments or horror
How could he/she/it
Hurt you...
Is anyone able to shed light
Onto your darkness
Shine, try and shine the
Brightest
It's up to you
Uproot this evil
Break through
Escape, ray of sunshine
Share the true you

Those three words that could
Bring happy tears to your eyes
Brighten up your day
Clear gray skies

You wait for those words
All your life, not just from
Your parents of course
But from that one person
You'd spend infinity with

You wait and you wait
You're growing old
You still haven't heard those
Words

But if you did hear them
It wasn't meant to be
Because they didn't stay
Oh, how lonely you are

It's okay, I love you.
I may not be that
Significant other but
I may never meet you
Or I may pass you on the
Street and wouldn't know
It's you... Just know
This wonderful stranger
Loves you no matter
Who you are.

I should tell you:

I'm not rich
I'm different
I believe in love
I chase my dreams

I dream big
I look for the good in people
I smile even when I'm sad
I love the rain

I'm not normal
I love the cold
I set goals
I achieve them

I know we all deserve
Happiness
I love making people
Smile.

I know you're beautiful
Yes, you the one reading
This poem

                     Hey, Cute Person!
                              SMILE!

Smothering me in your
Love is not enough

Telling me you love me
Is not enough

The money,  the material things
It's not enough

Waiting on me hand and foot
Is not enough

Your heart is what I desire

Knowing when I lay my head
On your chest and your heart
Beats fast... Only for me
Is Enough.

I refuse to be taken back
To the times where I
Was unhappy
Looking and thinking
Why did I let this
Go on for so long?

Why couldn't I escape?
You had an hold on me
A strong one
I'm finally
Free

From the emotional abuse
You want me..
I can't move backwards
I don't want that life

Moving forward with
This new chapter
Hoping it will last
You can't control me
ANYMORE!

As the crowd
Watches the show being put on
I stand on stage in
My mask giving them
What they want

I hear them laugh and
Cheer but little
Do they know
This is a serious act

I wear my mask to
Hide myself
I know if I was
To remove this mask
They wouldn't like
What they see

It occured to me
That I can't remove this
Mask
It's become a part of me
This act isn't fake anymore

This show I put on is becoming
The real me
I can't reveal myself
Knowing they'd hate
What's under this
Mask

The Real Me.

How I miss the way
He kisses me
They way he smiles
When I smile

The arms he
Wraps me in to
Make me feel safe
His hands

Strong, loving, amazing
Only for me
His heart
Beating just for
Me

His eyes
I could get lost
In them
Blue and beautiful

He's so far away
But his love is
Never lost

Oh, That Sweet Boy.
I adore him.

Not able to move
Forward
One thing standing in
My way
My enemy
That shadow of doubt
The mind set of
A failure
But the heart of
A warrior
Eyes of an explorer
What wonderful sights
Not able to grasp
Those wonderful things
Ahead..
Stuck with my true enemy...
MYSELF.

As I feel your eyes
******* me from
Across the room

******* me but not
Out of my clothes
Out of this skin of lies

You look past the the outside
Your eyes looking
Into my soul

Pulling the real me out
Who are you?
How do you know the real me?
Have we met?

Drawing out my soul..
Where are you?
In this crowd
You're lost not to be found

The feel of that stare was lost
The real me still contained
Will I ever know that
Feeling again?

My Naked Soul.

In the heart of this world
There's a lost little girl
And the weight of the world
Is on her shoulder

From hearts breaks and
Failures
To rumors, so much
Slander

A sweetheart she is
Maybe that's why
They take advantage
She strives
Fights..
She's wounded

Fragile little bird
Broken..
She can't fly

Pretty bird...
Please don't die.
You can fly.
Soar, darling.
Soar.

I was there through it all
I sat there watching as it all went by
The pain, lies, and the unforgivable truth
That love you felt.. how heartbroken she left you
The pain I felt just watching, not able to utter a word
Struck by the look you gave but still my emotions wouldn't change
I wanted to help but I just couldn't.

I walk along
further into the distance
breathing in your scent
you know this power
the power you have
to control me

Will you let me go?
what happened to you?
the one I used to know
possibly love

That person is gone right?
vanished, like the love
I thought I have to give
seduced by your words
never by your actions

sweet nothing whispered
in my ear
your breathe brushing against
my skin

Compelling me to obey
Was that you?
No. Sweet nothings are
never your words but
his

Your gone so I'm alone
with him. The him that is
not you

Stuck in this one
sided love

I call my own...

The lips of an angel
Gentle placed upon
My neck
The feel of sensation
Runs through my
Body

You
Him
My Lover
Those lips
They release the
sweetest pleasure
in one kiss

Moans
serenade the room
such beautiful music
What's more sweeter
than this music

Place your mark
on me but
invisible is that
mark

Hidden but I
know where
it was placed

Not just on my skin
but on my
heart

Softly

With my eyes
I ****** your soul
With my hands
I caress your
Body

My touch
Lures you in
Under my
Control

I can control
You
I feed off
Of you

My *** drives
You crazy
You can't escape
Me

Through me
The gateway to
Paradise
Exist

Consider me
A queen
With men and woman
At my feet

All powerful
Desired by all
You follow my
Every order
Obey me

Drawn to keep me
Away from you
Though I look over
And I see you there
Watching

The distance keeping
Us apart as well
Wanting to be near
You and only you

Do I dare defy the line?
To cross over for you..
Wishing I had the courage
To defy this..
Lost in a world of
Fear

Can I escape... THE LINES?

she was as desirable
as they come
she walked in and
had all eyes on her

her walk was
hypnotizing
the need to be in
her presence was a
must

her voice was a
siren from the gods
her eyes pierced my
soul as she stared
at me from across
the room

who was she?
persuading me with
every sway of her hips
those lips something
I'd **** to have against
my skin

as she made her way
in my direction
she walked passed me
with a gentle touch of her
hand on my face

skinned I longed to
touch since she walked in
was she inviting me in?
Should I follow?
she didn't walk in with
anyone...

was this a trick?
I followed...
she turned a
corned
I ran behind her
and she disappeared
The temptress
was gone

I was awake...

remebering the bliss
the courage we had to love
one another
never knowing the trouble
the pain
the uncertainty it caused other
we never cared
just head over heels
in love
love
love
L-O-V-E
love
they couldnt seperate us
Listen? to who?
them?
Never!
Our hearts spoke
but they never listened...
we did
we ran
started over
who knew what
we had endured...?
no one here
a fresh start is
given
with a whole
new meaning to
that thing we call love..

I've loved you and I'd die just
To be with you
As this love for you grew
I realized what kind of person
You are..

Selfish, Mean, & Controlling.
I wanted to get away from
You but my heart wouldn't
Let me.

Surrounded by your lies
But taken in by your voice
Getting away isn't easy
Wanting you was the
Problem
Loving you will be the
Death Of Me