I need a hug and
someone to listen to me
talk for hours about
all the "nothing"
that's wrong with me
and hold me
in a way that is more
meaningful than lust
but just as satisfying
as ***
and allow me to feel
you on a personal level
and I want
way more than I deserve
but
I was hoping that you would oblige
and just
give in to my every desire
to use you
to help me
get rid of
all the stress
and uneasiness
that tends to trouble me
as much as your
indifference

walking into the dark
i see my shadows meet
tracing the paths we used to walk with my feet
i hear you creeping up behind me
the good times haunt me as much as the bad
i look back and you disappear
i can remember the last time i saw you,
almost every detail singed into my mind;
i'm branded
a strange sense of nostalgia floods me
i put more meaning into these chance encounters than there is
i hate myself for it
you're a phantom
an apparition
i'd be surprised if you ever actually existed

Love is only skin deep
and there's no place i'd rather be than in my own skin
except, maybe, yours
deep enough that i can feel your bones
hiding out in every crease in your mind
i want to be the piece of you you can't get rid of
i want to love you to madness
drive you right over the edge
they said love was infinite,
patient and enduring...
it's whatever you need it to be
and i can be what helps you sleep at night

it's 6 a.m. and i haven't slept yet
i'm laying here thinking of you
how you smell
the way you look after a long day
the way it would feel having you next to me
your breath brushing against my ear as you whisper things that are far from secret but we pretend that we're the only ones who know
your hand resting on my thigh;
innocently and then not-so-innocently as we lay
your eyes locked on mine and mine scrolling up and down your body from the top of your head to the soles of your feet not letting a single detail go unnoticed or unappreciated
i feel the good vibrations bouncing off of your body and enveloping me,
your personality electrifying,
sending tingles up my spine
i'd walk on pins and needles to please you
but instead you make life a crystal stair
i've spent years as a contractor,
building walls as great as the one in China
yet you broke them done as if we were in Berlin
you find my vices tolerable
and i find your bad habits admirable