At 3 AM, I think
about that moment
our souls collided
and the rest of the world
disappeared like smoke
you brushed my hair
away from my face
you held me so close
I could almost hear
the sound of your heart
our lips touched
and it was magic
"Fairy tales do exist"
I told myself
No, my love. You exist
and you make me feel
the kind of feeling
people write books about
You are my first love
being last isn’t necessary
but I would wish
and I would pray
that if it is possible…
Forever will be on our side

maybe the rain falls
when a person
commits suicide
maybe the rain falls
when a child dies
maybe the rain falls
when an old man
eats all alone
maybe the rain falls
like tears
when it sees
its mother
in agony, in pain
maybe the rain falls
when a guy’s heart
gets broken in pieces
maybe the rain falls
when a girl
gets cheated on
maybe the rain falls
because
they’re the tears
that you keep
because maybe
when you cry
you might not know
how to stop
maybe the rain falls
because
it cries with you

At 2 AM when the lights are out,
what do you find yourself with?
That text from an old lover you had
that you keep reading and reading
and wishing for things to go back
or the shouts from the walls across
of uselessness and incompetence
that they call irreconcilable differences
which usually marks the end of love,
or the cries of from a boy’s dream
of monsters in the closet and fat F’s
and the bullies the shove him in lockers
or could it be the endless arguments
your mind and heart make at dawn
because you’re heart is giving up
but your mind, such wonderful swirls
is holding on… hoping… coping
There are a lot of reasons to drown
Sadness, debt, heartache, loneliness
a lot of reasons to pull that trigger
jump off that roof and stop the beating
This world is mercilessly cruel but
it is also beautiful, there is no other
and I’m proud to say I am a survivor
but not for cancer or calamities
or serial killers who go berzerk
and shoots everybody in sight
I survived life, the most horrible thing
but also the most wonderful there is

A year ago today
I wished for you
and your name popped
on my Facebook page
saying “Merry Christmas”
Giddy, I replied
“You too” with a smile
We talked for days
I started to like you
No, I fell in love with you
It went on for months
until…
the spark vanished
it wasn’t there anymore
and you…
you weren’t there anymore
To be completely honest
I miss you
I miss you so much it hurts
but I thank you
for being the best thing
that’s ever happened to me
I hope this isn’t goodbye
but if it is…
Thank you for stopping by

Don’t let go of my hand
when I get sad for no reason
and tell you I hate you
because the truth is, I don’t
I could’t. I hate to admit it but
I think I never could… hate
Don’t let go of my hand
when after a long, tiring day
I choose to get my slumber
than to talk to you, my lover
Don’t let go of my hand
when things between us get sad
or ugly because that’s life and
that’s love and when you’re in love
everything seems so much better
Don’t let go of my hand
when I need you because I’m sad
because my favorite TV show ended
or because I lost someone dearly
Don’t let go of my hand
Instead, hold me close and tell me
that things will be okay, that things…
are just things and they don’t matter
that you’re there for me, always
because I won’t let go of your hand

To you, my lover:
had you told me sooner
that you are infatuated
with my quirks
and the way I laugh
I would have thought
“Why the hell not?”
and maybe
just maybe
there could have been
no, scratch that…
we could have been

I don’t know
how to write
because all I see
is blank paper
a mix of letters
and a wreck

One, two, three, four
my tears fall from eyes
and lands down the floor

Five, six, seven, eight
I tried to stop them
But I guess it’s too late

Nine, I wish I could tell you
“Oh, I am fine” but —
Ten, they begin to fall again

I need
Your smell
To fill
The air
That
Poisons me

I need
Your voice
To fill
The silence
That
Deafens me

I need
Your touch
To fill
The emptiness
That
Consumes me

I need
Your heart
To fill
The loneliness
That
Kills me

I have a million thoughts running
through my head, circling like wheels
but none of them will be heard
none would come out as a word

I stare blankly at this paper
not knowing what to write to you
But I have a lot to say; hidden feelings,
unsaid words, and a longing

You took a part of my puzzle,
a puzzle that I have yet to complete
Now, my puzzle will always have a hole,
always have that one missing piece

You are my first thought in the day
and the last that leaves my mind at night
I gave you power, I gave my heart away
I loved you with all my heart, you didn’t stay

I am cold, frozen, and heartless
with death, no longer a heavy fear
with death, as a friend I want to meet
to end this pain I’ll forever feel

You came back, back to my crushed soul
“Do I deserve this?” I ask, you said no.
Out of fear, out of pain, I walked far, far away
“I love you.” you whispered, but silence
— silence was all I heard

I am a seed planted
Getting ready to grow
Like a crown carefully plated
Eyed on by a crow

Cyclones may come
And hurricanes too
Little one, stay calm
In struggles you’ll get through

Success won’t come easy
But in the end you’ll see
The air will be breezy
With you standing tall and free

I was born in a society where men rule
Men are always stronger than women
Men are smarter and more stable
Men aren’t as emotional
Men, men, men

"Women are weak." they say
Women are not weak, I thought
Women bleed for days
Women carry your babies
Women survive **** and abuse
Women, women, women

Women, without them,
men would cease to exist.

I’ve lost my hope on love
And you were sent to me from above
I doubt the things you say you feel
Most times words spoken are never real

Lessons are thrown at me a lot these days
Yet I see myself constantly going astray
You showed me ugly things could be beautiful
I realized for a long time I was being a fool

I promised myself I’ll give our love a try
Please don’t disappoint my heart with a goodbye
Knowledge is knowing love would give pain
Just remember rainbows always come after the rain

Love comes in all shapes and sizes.
Love is never too young or old
Love comes to school very late.
Love comes wearing blue braces.
Love comes in with red dyed hair.
Love comes with tender care.
Love will come tomorrow night.
Love left you an ache that bites.
Love comes from the heart.
Love doesn’t care if you hate art.
Love loves you for you are.
Even if you’re gay, straight, or bi.
Love still loves you to the stars.

Falling in love with you
was like falling under a spell.
You didn’t even trip me
but boy, I still fell.

They say love is not a game,
I say Cupid’s got good aim.
The things I feel, I always deny.
Hoping one day you tell me, “Please, don’t lie.”

A hundred things I like about you,
a million wishes I’d like to say.
It’ll all end with an “I love you.”
and maybe, just maybe, an “I feel the same way.

When I was five,
You taught me how to ride a bike.
You guard our ever wondrous hive
And I’m proud that we look alike.

When I was thirteen,
You told me not to fall for boys.
“Don’t worry, dad” I said.
But then I fell for a broken toy.

Now, I’m seventeen,
“You’re almost grown up, bud.” I heard.
But in my mind I always say,
“Dad, I’ll always be your little girl.”