Welcome to England ladies,
It takes us twenty minutes to leave our borders,
And a lifetime to regret it

This isn't discipline,

This is the destruction of a soul.

Are we writing to each other on here, or am i just stupid and naïve.

I am whimpering in the corner of my mind.
I am so scared
That the noise is going to come out of my mouth.

What is there in this world,
If not the promise of a better tomorrow?

Bubbling to the surface,
I'm so scared that,
In a moment of weakness,
I'll tell you how I feel.

I haven't lost anything, I know
But it feels like an absense,
A cavity in my side
Where you should be housed.

While you sleep,
its where you fit
And when I sleep
It's where my comfort
Is growing from

You rooted yourself
Deep inside my mind
And are tying knots:
strangling my heart

You were blushing,
And in that moment,
You were wholly,
And completely,
*mine.

Mornings don't make thing easier,
But they make days new,
And I suppose that's all we deserve.

The most romantically sought after girl
And the most socially admired boy
Chose to be my best friend and boyfriend
And Jesus Christ, they chose me
Woah.

My mind is screaming

Silence can't come soon enough

Love is an abstract promise to protect and treasure another person's imperfections.

What were you expecting
From a child with broken wings?

If I could rip my own throat out:
If I could rip out my own heart,
Do you think I'd feel any better
Or just die at my own worthless hands?

Time is a matter of who's watching you.

I don't think I should have let you know just how much power you have over me.
*****

You put your head in my lap,
And as my hand carded through your hair,
I made a promise to myself.
"I will love you with everything I am made of.
The sky would fall, the world would end
Before I hurt you willingly, my darling."

it's just a good word.

I've held onto the fact that I love you
For five years
I'm not going to stop any time soon

I don't want to sleep alone.

I will stop thinking this way.
I have not disappointed anyone.*
I just couldn't keep everyone safe.
i hate myself.

The all-consuming gravity between my hands and your skin.

Oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh God oh oh God oh God oh God.

I feel very far away
From everything that makes me whole.

Where do I fit into life again?

To be loved,

Now that's poetry.

Loving you is what makes me brave,
And let's me sleep,
And gives me hope,
And helps me breath.
I could stand alone
In a raging storm of anger and fear,
But I don't have to.

Have a little faith in the words you're given,
Because we cant give you anything else.
And it's not for lack of trying.

Give me power.

*Smile.

My brain hurts.
I can't turn or blink,
Have the lights too bright,
Or have them dim.

Was there anything that was real?
Or was it just your
Synthetic soul
And plastic personality.

Love is a rose,
With blood
Dripping from the thorns.

I lust for the lighter, darker things
That only your lips can bring.

You live in my skin,
So when I go hollow and drift from emotion,
My body grasps the physical memory of you
So that when my heart returns to me,
It can find me wrapped up *in you.

I'm trying to focus, get out of my head!

I promise you that I will give you my heart.

I am scared to, but I need to do this,
Otherwise you will never know
Just what it means to me,
When I look at you and find you smiling.

When you're coming down from a high,
Everything was fine, fine, completely fine.
But you hit the ground,
And its harder than it should be to get up again.

You gave me a kiss
You gave me a promise
"We'll see each other at Christmas"
Three years on, my once was love
We've started talking and I'd forgotten
How brilliant you were and
How brilliant we were
You make me laugh
But you broke
My heart.

You are everything to me.

You don't deserve pain.

You chose me,
So maybe this world isn't so bad.