I'm scared of the dark because
I lost my flashlight

I'm scared of looking through the dead faces
To only see yours alive

I'm scared to turn on the radio
To only hear lyrics that remind me of you

I'm scared to talk to you because
It'll only make me want you.

I'm scared that you're going to forget about me
To only fully remember her

I'm scared that you don't care about me but
To only love her

They say, “forgive and forget.” 
But you never do forget. 
Someone please tell me how someone can forget something, 
So painful that one just stares into nothing.

How does one smile when they have had their heart ripped out of their body and smashed to the ground.

Please tell me how someone can continue learning and receiving knowledge when they’re mental sanity has been ******* with.

I beg you to tell me how one can go about life and laugh so freely as if nothing is wrong.
Something is wrong. Life looks at you and laughs in your face when you mess up. It knocks you down places a stake through your heart to keep you stranded and helpless.

You don’t move. You don’t breathe. But, you’re not dead. You just stare. You stare into nothingness in hopes to find one thought, one feeling one anything to remove this metal stake.

Is there a secret to become happy again? I sure hope so or I will drown in my own thoughts.