holding up my own body
my soul a puddle on the floor
drowning my heart
till there is no more

dramatic, completely
but this is all consuming

trying to grasp reality
hoping it isn't too late
one more attempt
it is all I have left

then I see two beautiful faces
they hold me close
smothering me with affection
my soul begins to solidify
my heart takes a breath

I will get through this
with my children by my side

A new place with altered faces,
an empty home that can strangle

loneliness is inevitable,
but not forever

only the strong can be carried by the wind,
never letting them settle down

I am always near,
just shut those eyes and see...
I am close,
just look into your heart and there I will be...

always

hollow, what a word to use
it explains so much of what hides below the surface  
regardless of the science provided
my body sits unfurnished
soul, absent  
heart, mutilated
brain, fragmented
everything else is there, providing me life

...

the unknown awaits him,
his journey not yet complete
he swore he was ready
who knew he would get cold feet
rushing to see those cherished faces
barely making it before defeat

A blue vinyl curtain hangs in the background
Its purpose is to separate the room
It's only me and you  
I lay beside a corpse
You, stiff and peaceful
I, rigid and suffering

I understand your reasoning
I understand your choices
But leaving so much behind you
With out a true fight

I love you regardless
You must know
Always your princess, from my first breath

He's gone
He's really gone
The ultimate runner
Always on a train to somewhere

He came back to make amends
And share the despair

I'm not mad though, I got to say goodbye
I'm completely torn though, Without you  by my side

How do I go from this point
Without a sour patch in my heart
Destruction courses through me heading straight to my heart

I love you daddy now and always
I'm always be your little princess shrimp

Let your soul be captured
let your heart be tamed
stop looking for something in the lines
love is a courageous thing

stop assuming
quit pretending
life is not forever
whether happy or not
love is a peaceful spot

never doubt yourself
nor disbelieve your feelings
your heart knows
love is true with just two beings

live knowing just that
be happy not sad
learn to appreciate what you have
love will wait
no matter how long it takes

and with this I end the truth
you are nothing but without clues
gather your thoughts and breath deep
someday you will find your mate

-LMG

How bright would it really be
Without the sun to see
Can you see me for me
Or is that just too easy
If life is worth living
Would it be easy to die
I can’t stand to see you
Without me but I will survive
Are you and I history
Or could we make it blissfully
Do I know all your marks
Could I find you in the dark
Our depth could be unreal
Because our love is such a thrill
I am captivated by your movements
Would you just see me
Could you just notice

For forever in waiting
Or just debating
I will love you till the end
Even if as just friends

-LMG

In a sense
veins flowing to a foreign beat,

as you help me to my feet.

I don’t know whether to smile or frown,

because you’re the one that put me on the ground.

It was tough to stay for as long as I did,

but now that I have left  I don’t question if I will live.

Love can be strong. and it can be weak.

Sometimes it is deep and meaningful, other times bleak.

I no longer fear what love will hold,

I no longer love, that much is known.

You took what was mine in a sense,

now and forever you will pay the price,

a price so great you wish you could change,

but pure loneliness is your fate.

-LMG

People searching high and low,
For something that cannot be grasped without knowledge
Love is more than a word
life is more than a story
happiness is found in yourself before others


Stop searching for things and live
Stop thinking everything can be bought and understood
Life is about learning
a new day everyday
take a deep breath and hold on for the ride.


-LMG

I’ve been up since sunrise,
man, I love what the world looks like in my eyes.
A beauty so captivating and original,
Something I grasp onto and never let go.
If others could see,
you are everything to us.
Something to cherish and protect,
something that should never feel neglect.
One day they will understand,
hopefully soon…



-LMG

Here I am
sitting in empty space
All I can do is think of you.
periodically looking at the clock,
approaching its fate.

Give or take a little, nothing changes
we will soon know the answer
once we see each others faces.

Our destiny will not wavier.
whichever way things go,
multiple options to choose from
how could anyone know.

The only question that remains
is which way, will we go?

-LMG

Finding you in a crowded room
Like a beckon and hitting zoom.
Searching pages throughout my mind
Hoping I find the right words and a spine.
Dancing with endless left feet
Will I ever not trip and just leap?
Caught in the past
And never in the moment.
Turning around to face the bricks
A wall so wide I can never get around it.

Like a circle that is never ending
Maybe it is really time time to just step outside it.
Its hard to imagine a change
But I think it needs to happen.
A new beginning
With you not in it.

Starting with a vast an empty page
A new life happens
Not searching for anything.


LMG

Screaming while crashing to the floor
Falling down into a black hole
Desperation with self-loathing
Do we really have to do this anyone?

Bruises covered with love
Lies made with promises
Bodies tangled with distraction
Who really feels this?

Drinking to cool nerves
Smoking to pace the heart
Sleeping around to feel whole
Why does nothing really work?

Running around in circles
Chasing the pain away
Searching for peace in darkness
How long will living take?

-LMG

Looking to the sky,
I see stars pass me by.
Or am I the one moving,
Without even knowing?

The depth of my thoughts,
Go darker than the ocean.
I can't see you most days
Because of all the emotion.

I can't understand why my feet never move,
I can stare right at you,
Without being known.

I look at your face,
And see your eyes pass my by.
I know I am not the one moving
Why can't you see?

I am looking right at you,
Are you the ghost or me?


-LMG